Jesus My Burning Candle

AriseRS

2007-03-20T00:47:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

First week of sch! posting at 12.48am.....i'm a naughty kid. hmm..whats been happening so far? Oh! Mum got a new keyboard and i get to play it!!! Will be recording soon....2gether with a compilation of the rest of my String family plus exclusive Wonderful's solo! hehe. hmm...once its done i'll place it here. besides,,,i promise dee to to it :D

1st day of sch...overall ok. I was a good boy at history and then turned sleepy at chem. oh well. then hall asssembly by BC. And good news! This wed we have Saints Arise! I'm soooo excited! I went scouting around for teachers!!!! so...i have compiled a list and based on my obserrvations......

AH,LGP,YHG,DA,LTH,DG,JA,FP,CEM,LK, are more or less CAN be part form a new and totally original Teaching Staff Worshippers' Party (TSWP)! haha. SFCWP will rope a few boys in to form the backup-role Student Worshippers' Party (SWP). Asnd togother we have the combined Saints Arise Combined WP! haha. So chim. basically it willl try to be more TSWP based. the Student WP willl only get roped in if needed.

and its on Wednesday!! anyone wants to go? lol 2mr....2mr...wow! Crazy schedule. The sec4and5 also gonna have a talkl on Monday and the SFCWP has been invited to do a intro worship segment! Hopefully can ra-ra the people. worse come to worse organize Emergency WP. haha. so many WP divisions. yeah...excited!!

oh...then had SS. KYM didn't collect work (yay!). then CME with ZY. then A maths. oh dear...LBC is on course so some relief teacher came and...spoiled the lesson by NOT teaching properly. A Maths fail liao. confirm....if it goes on with this teacher. Thank God for tuition sometimes.......

+Sentimental Perspective

Timeless is coming soon! I thing the prayer came true...to have the flame of passion for sould brighter! Have invited Raymond....i pray He'll come. promise him 1 free dinner from Ted and 1 Clarence Chng to go with the package. will be getting and diedie make sure my dear Sam Wong will come. Then i have 2 follow-up cases! Sam brings his fren and i have 3! Praise God!. Praying that will be shown more people....

~Here i gogoGO~

Stuff

2007-03-14T22:42:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

Hmm.....i have no idea what to blog now! So i dunno what am i doing here! So oh well...since i'm here.

lets see...Clr is suppose to help me put some stuff here! Classical Guitar Exam Grade 7 is coming!!! I'm nervous..but i'm more or less prepared...i suppose. and. i dunno. i dunno. i dunno! Guess will just go for it.

Another song is born! Title still deciding..still working on minor stuff.....:D

And...i have nothing else to say.

A Greater Song

2007-03-04T23:38:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

Sunday!!!!!!! Service and fuel were...more than just. It spoke to me literally...will do tt part later. The most exciting thing was Worship Team School Of Worship session TODAY!!!!!!! ZAI like anything haha. It was an eye-opening experiece, never knew that minor mistakes and stuff CAN be improved! If they could see this i would like to thank:

Sis Trina for the call that brought me down there!
Bro Andre for a whole lot of encouragement
Sis Mad who....erm...yeah. thanks! haha
Brandon for crashing down to PL and help mentor! THANKS!
Chloe for the really touching encouragement!!! THANKS!!
Bro Kevin for believing in me
Tigger who is 101% behind me!
Slapper 1 who is 101% behind me too!
Michael who lend me his guit...(he hasn't replied my sms on some ques..)
.....and last but def not least Pastor Darrick for talking with me and "sabo"ing me to play elec when i can't even play properly!!! NOOO!!!!!! :'( i would have cried haha.

See? simple words would do..tts all i need. Your encouragements goes a long long way..thanks...all..ALL of you for just believing in me..will do my best to become a fufilment!!!

+Sentimental Perspective

Firstly, i want to thank Huirou for being listening ear, it reallt helps alot. As i said...simple things like tt goes a long long way. Rather down lately....she'll know haha. How can i say it here? I don't even have the heart too....i don't blame annyone but myself i suppose for being like tt....its too painful when u try to become someone you're not. i realized a lot of things...bottom line is everyone is human. WE make mistakes, we are not perfect..which is sad. Its....i dunno....seems like its drifting.....why? Painful thoughts....donn't want to think about it anymore. However, one good thing that came out from this exp was that I understand myself more...i prob came to a point when threshold for selflessness has burst....maybe i feel differently. Its sickening when you know that you can find true acceptance in Christ Jesus but yet turn to man for it.

Its sickening...i hate myself sometimes. *sigh* but if this incident haven't come about....the words from my lips and feelings from my heart wouldn't have birthed a new song. I praise and thank God for it. I never written such an emotional song since my last 6. The words did hit back at me. I was deep deep deep down inside feeling it...i did't even know. The chorus was like the Holy Spirit's answer to me. Its how i feel.....i know people out there prob feel like me too....its when I'm down, depressed and emotional that I think God opens my eyes to see things i wouldn't have seen, words i wouldn't have heard. feelings i wouldn't have felt.

TOday's fuel was about feelings, how to control them. one question was "are you an emotional person". I would honestly say yes. yup...I can relate to Pastor Gary....its an artificial mask of temporart happiness on the outside. Its black, cold and broken inside. Am glad that God still cares for me.

Emotional as i can get, i know i can't stay that way. I know i've been called for a greater purpose. The worship team, PDa...the pieces of the jigsaw its coming together...one at a time. Its time for a greater song, a more intimate relaionship with God. Its greater now......so yeah..i suppose sticking at level 1 won't help when a you are alr eligle for level 16.

Well...here goes a new week of new resolutions....and homework. I havem't done it yet (amazing right?) so i shall do now. So there...the inside me. But i pray and will commit myself to change....its time to sing a Greater Song.

Jesus, only you know what I'm going thru
In a world where no one cares, Jesus You were there
I humbly come and lay my life, my hurts my doubts my all
To the Lord of Infinite Love, Jesus i surrender all
To the Answerer of My Call

~Thank you God~
~Thank you Huirou
~Thank you PDa
~Thank you God~

Saints Aflame 07

2007-03-03T11:31:00.000+08:00

The Combined Story!

Alright! WE've come to the end of Saints Aflame.....great event! There WERE salvations!! Praise God for that :) Now for the pictorial part :)
Brought to you by Google Picassa! SFC official Photo page
Pls click on the following albums to view!

Saints Aflame 07: BTS- Video Drama

Saints Aflame 07: WP Pre-Rehearsals

Saints Aflame 07: WP Official Reheasals

Saints Aflame 07 Event Coverage 1

Saints Aflame 07 Event Coverage 2

Saints Aflame 07 Event Coverage 3

Saints Aflame 07 Event Coverage 4

On a whole i really really enjoyed myself....letting God use me on Day 2..SUPER stressed! But hey, God is good! So yeah. have fun looking around! I WILL be editing this page once the video comes on but for now, enjoy viewing the pics!

Please request for those who wish to have the album!

Saints Aflame 07 Coverage 2

2007-02-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

+Life As It

Saints Aflame 2007 Coverage 2
:It Comes....
by Ted again

Last day of rehearsals.....went to hall immediately after school. Feeling really down coz Add Maths was MUCH difficult than i expected...either a single-digit mark or....by grace 25? lol. nvm. i ask too much, I guess A Maths is the most imp one i neeeeeeed to buck up on. Imagine the people lecturing me... mum. dad. LBC. BC (oh no...not the principal!). E maths tuition teacher....myself. I cannot drop Add mAths...ok i decided to really concentrate after this event. For now...studies (has to be) aside. I seriously would give up my whole education for this event....lives are more important than academic studies to me....did i prioritize correctly? IF wrong....then i;ll change after this event. No stopping...will press on to see people saved!

Went to Isaiah's house to collect effects board and went back to school. Guess wad. power failure the moment we were about to start prac. So we gathered and prayed. Drew and Uncle Aaron reminded us that it was the word of the enemy. And Unc Aaron belives that its good! Cause we never prioritize prayer as our 1st thing....so....prayed for 2 hourse straight. Mark somehow got spoken to by God about the circuit breakers. At first i must say i doubt...but after his prayer...simple but pleading and sincere.....i decided to give it a shot and tell uncle aaron. But God had something instore for me!

This table cloth...with squiggles on it. Nothing much huh? Think again. Look again. Believe it or not. "Jesus is in control" was what my eyes and brain reead it as. lol. the others couldn;t see. in time to come they will i believe. A sign from God? Definetely. Praise God for that affirmation!!!!!!!!

So yes...with that the power came back on. So prac..........

Are we ready for 2mr? I can't say. In the physical sense....the practise didn;t go extremely well. Spiritually...i think we're prepared....but not enoough. its never enough. Prayer has to go on...and on...never stopping. This whole event for the Worshippers' Party is based on one word if summarized; FAITH. FAith to believe for revival. faith to believe for a breakthrough in both students and WP. Faith to believe God will visit and saturate the hall. Faith to BELIVE the impossible. lets see how it goees.

2mr...finally. the day has arrived. Battle Stations set. Weapons checked and ready to open fire anytime. Time to execute Operation Saints Aflame

:open fire:

The battle starts........NOW

Saints Aflame Series: Coverage 1

2007-02-25T16:54:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

Saints Aflame' 07 Posting Series
Pre-Event Coverage 1: Preparations Set
...from the eyes and heart of talenTED

Saints Aflame is like in 3 days time...i'm really excited! The only thing left to worry about it i the A Maths Common Test 2mr!!!! its really sickening....anything but Add Maths pls!!! ARGH!!!! best thing is i haven't event studied....bad boy right? AFter this event i think i shall buck up....seriously.ok..enough about me. I will do a crashcourse myself..... after this post hopefully.

Ok...firstly...things went great for the preparations! The Behind-The-Scenes crew have done a wonderful job....like th Video Drama Team...(hopefully its ready by 2mr!), everyone is pretty much co-operating! Yay! SPC was inititally quite stress but..hey! People like us need a break too...so yeah..got help so less stress! Praise God! Got all sorts of clearances like booking for sch facilities and stuff. yeah! things been going on pretty smoothly....here's a few people the SPC would like to thank:

:Andrew, for being chairman and overall co-ordinator
:Mrs Ang for giving clearence to the excuse slips
:Mr Kenneth Yeo for clearence for booking of sch facilities
:Pastor Ben for helping with the Stage setting.
:Uncle Aaron for doing other clearence stuff like PA room
:Clarence for printing 296++ sheets of paper for event.
:Ted's mum and dad for the making of tags.

yup! thanks to these people...haha. So yeah. thats the preparations. Only big problem is that the Worshipper's Party isn;t quite readu i must say. Practice days stretched to 5 days but not everyone came everyday...and I coulnd;t too! Which resulted in a black face from Andrew. Hey! You know my situation already. I'm sorry ok...but on the other hand you shouldn't be making me feel worse when i already so stressed up! ....sometimes.... i.... :(

Now andrew wants me to take over worship leading on wed. If i was crazy enough i might have said right in his face a big "NO"! Last min like that just because of a funeral. With all due respect go la! but next time pls inform me EARLIER! totally stress, disappointed and irritated by it. How do you expect me to lead a whole bunch of sec2s when i'm not prepared...and i'm technically underage to lead.......ITS NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok. i've blabbered out whatever i wanted. BUt seriosly...if God wants me to lead. Haha....what can i say? Here i Go.......haha. Thats like the umpteen time i had to trust God like a lot lot. lol......thankfully He WANTS me to trust Him....thanks God. All i ask from Him is to use me.....i know i'm not cut out for leading at this point of time. I know i;m not ready....i'll just like stone there and stammer allot...so it all boils down to me having Faith in God. AH!!!! really.....its the biggest thing God could ask of me now...and i could ask of God now....so...

"What can i say?
What can i do?
But offer this heart Oh God
Completely to You"

-Hillsongs United We Stand: The Stand

So yeah.......i shall be there 2mr....how can the introduction arranger not be there? How can i not be there when God wants me there? 2mr the Full-Dress Rehearsal....its not gonna be easy i know.....but...my 3 words for the year is still needed: HERE I GO!...(in faith..)

Lazy

2007-02-17T00:58:00.000+08:00

Eh..i', quite lazy now. I'll update when someone lends me a recording device. a grand piano and a vocalist. :) Don't ask why. haha

Apologies

2007-02-05T15:40:00.000+08:00

+ Sentimental Perspectice

Service yesterday was great. PSt Edward was our guest speaker. Before the service started, PDa came and i (like i always go high and do) warmly shook his hand lol. Pst Dom had his hands over me while he was listening to the celebration host breifing lol. haha...so touched and annointed lol.

oh, what touched me the most was as our hands still shaking, Pastor Darricks said " Hey, I'll see you leading on stage soon yeah?" I could have waterfalled then and there. Ok. now for the sad part.

Actually this goes out to the Adam folks. I think a lot of you have been asking me when i will be coming back. And i gave people different answers. I think if you guys read this it'll be good. Really honestly, i....if i could i seriously don't plan to go back to adam at all.

Some would think i;m crazy. Some just though i was joking (like ******) oh well, as much as i want to hide, i can't. Everytime i think of adam....there's so much memories there...it pains me if i have to step a foot in that place. its as though i'm turning backwards on the road when i am already going forward. I;m going back to a place where i found it so hard to release from my heart. And i get soooooooooooo pressured when asked. i could finally let go until the though of going back to adam came back. i really have no intention of going back. if asked to make a choice, i'll choose paya lebar. I took so long to let go of my past and i;m returning to it again!? It feels so suicidal! can;t take it anymore. just the mere word of adam mentioned kinda saddens me. i dunno why. i really dunno why. anyway thats how i feel. No one will probably understand why. I know God does. But......*sigh* i dunno.

The biggest pressure now is whether to go back to adam for the V-dae event. I tried to happy about it. I think my efforts were wasted. Why must i be in the position where i once was!?!?!? I dun want to do the same thing again. I dun want to repeat the cycle of longing for ways to get back to adam. i don't know................

Thats why I'm sorry...for not coming back. For not talking to a lot of you anymore. For not replying back when asked about coming back to adam....it has suddenly became a painful subject. One family we maybe, somehow it will take a longer time for me to get over this again. For now, adam doesn't look the same......stepping a foot into there will be a challenge. I have to overcome tt right? i need time...at least this week to think about it and pray about it. so yeah.

Sorry.

A Day In SA (1)

2007-02-05T15:09:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

today i thought of doing something lame (since i got nothing else better to do). haha. Presenting..

a very bo-liao talenTED publication:

A Day in SA (1): A particular 5 February for a index 31 student of class 3S1 (2007).

Ted reached school at 6.15am, like any other day since he has been constantly trying to wake up at 5am...which ALWAYS leads to 5.30am. Not a soul was in sight as he walked though the upper court and into the spiral and secluded staircase. Electronic cameras were everywhere when you're in there, but tt doesn't matter, for Ted knows no once is in sch (and the cam isn't on anyway!). So up he went to Level 5 to his locker 163. He turned to the following combinations : ** ** ** and only after the 2nd time did he get it open for the lock wasn't.....working properly. He took out Additional Mathematics Textbook and his personal exercise book. He locked the locker and he walked to a nearby bence, sat down and started what ordinary students would most probably be doing in the morning: do homework lor. As to why didn;t he do the previous day...its best tt you don't find out.........

Also he waited for a very good friend of his called Abraham, who randomly comes as and when we like, so tt particluar monday, he didn't arrive at 6.30am but 7.15am. They talked for a while before realising tey were going to be late for morning assembly. So they rushed to put their ties on and headed straight to the courtyard for morning assembly. Every prefect was assigned to a class to be in charhe of that class, like ensuring their good behaviour is maintained....all the boliao stuff a school prefect will do. Ted was blessed with the class 4SA, as he could literally find no fault in them. So he slacked. lol, besides, LGP (the teacher i/c) seems to be doing eveyrthing first.Mrs Charles. the school principal, gave a message on stature, meaning and application, which Ted was blessed with it. Soon thereafter, morning assembly ends.

Ted's first period was history with BR. Minding his own businesss, he immediately hit for the books and got ready for the lesson. Halfway though he felt cold and kind Raymond lended a jacket. Ted did not only expereince warmth physically but in the heart as well. Lesson when by for an hour, an what has Ted learned? He should have copied down stuff on foolscap even though the teacher advised the class not too...however there were too much things to highlight. Oh well.

Next was an half an hour of Chemistry with TSC. Ted was stunned for 5 secs because he realise he hasn;t done the homework yet. The next 20 mins was in peace because the teacher was going though the worksheet anyway. the last 10 mins was reuslts of a certain test which Ted had a single-digit mark out of a not-so-high total mark. To be blunt, he......i leave that to you to guess. Chemistry was one lesson where both verbal and written words was somehow tranlated into questions marks in Ted's brain. After processing, his brain concludes with only one word, "HUH?" Poor Ted. Excellent teacher, blur student

Next was another half an hour of Hall Assembly. Today, radio dunnowhat came to host some sharing with the upper secondary. Ted just stand thru the whole thing like always. Nothing intersted Ted in radio, except 107FM, which sadly it was not. It was local broadcast and singaporeans hosting the programme. oh well.

Recess was next, althogh it was cut short because of the assembly earlier. Ted and Abraham sat at the upper court and started crapping for the whole recess. The they went to 6 Lvl and started to pray for themselves, Saints' Aflame and the people in charge of it. How blessed he was to have a prayer partner IN school! They have agreed to fast 1 meal from 2mr onwards! Off to class they went.

After recess was Social Studies with KYM. He wasn;t in school for like, a week. Dunno why. so a relief teacher relieved him. But no...today was different. the relief teacher pass her responsiblity to another teacher. a not-relieved relief teacher. its not other than DA, who has this reputation for siliencing the class she has in 4 seconds. A mere mentioned of a her intials will send chills down any SA student's spine. At least that wasn;t what Ted felt. She scolded the class for as long as 20 mins and shouted and raised her voice. The class began to sulk and showed black faces. Ted however was on the other extreme, ready to burst into laughter. How feirce and scared the class maybe, they just couldn;t catch it. When she said "Theodore, stay back" after the periodwas over, he was just giggling away, knowing something was RIGHT. Then after the class left, Ted laughed non-stop which nearly got hhim into trouble him the teacher for the next period, cause she said "haha...i fierce right?" The plan was good. The execution was better

SC was next with CME. Ted coulnd't be bothered. so blablablabla

Last Add Maths, with LBC. Nothing much really. Just lesson which Ted had yet again had Word Translation Disorder in his brain, where the enligh language becomes questions marks. Oh well. Poor Ted.

Ted went home hoping his day 2mr would be better than the last. however only time will tell......

The End.

Oh well....yup! w=that was a talenTED day for me! haha. oh well.....

As life Goes on...

2007-01-31T14:58:00.000+08:00

+Sentimental Perspective

I think i shall start by writing a really Jesusful encounter! Think haven;t done one of these for sometime...and i think God's reminding me He STILL is speaking to me :) Service message last week was about the parable of the seeds. Personally, i think i'm eh....somewhat feeling no Jesusful encounters....come to think about it its not tt i;m happy but perhaps God works best when I'm really down and uses it to bring me even higher....perhaps this is my season to bear fruits after all the planting and bad exp.....yeah. I think God relieved me of bad stuff for a shirt time...and I'm thankful because because of those bad times i can shine evn brighter for Jesus! Praise God!

But anyway....i went for the alter call, feeling that its time i should be serious with God....but guess i didn;t know myself well enough! Bro Zhi Chao prayed over me....and this was ( more or less) the exact words he said,

"Theodore, i see a picture of you...a picture of you in your school open quatrangel (pardon me for my wrong spelling....) ...doing nothing.......BUT PRAYING and praying for this generation of your school.....and the Lord tells you this: because you have warred and prayed for your school, ST.ANDREWS'S WILL BE SAVED. God sees your heart this day and He will send people who have the same vision and purporse as you to come alongside to pray and war with you for this generation!"

My heart just frozed.........literally.....and the only came out to thank God was streams of liv...i mean waterfalls....i just couldn;t help it. I mean...i never expected God to use me...and say those words to me...like what could he do with just some school prefect like me? One things for sure, God's ways are higher than ours'...and definetely mine! I mean, God really does know and care! I really want to thank God for it...so i shall do so now...THANK YOU GOD!!!!!

haha......this prayer and vision has def brought me to a new level of faith and determination. now i have anchor..whether or not how far i go with the ship, i know Jesus controls it :) and whatever bad things may come...at least i know i have a purpose and a destiny to fufil.....this vision has given me a new hope and determination to persevere and continue to pray and pray and PRAY AND PRAY until heaven is flooded with my prayers! So yes....to any1 who has said to me "go and die la!" haha sry! i can;t die yet. i have A DESTINY TO FUFIL. :)

God is great.....ah...can;t stop waterfalling..it really did touched me....if God was here i could use every ounce of my strength to just...i dunno! Hug him until i no energy left still hugging Him.....ah! God is good...which means i need to have more confidence in myself! (I'm sorry andrew....tts how i am...lack of confidence in myself). I guess thats how i feel about me....insignificant probably hindered me many times.....I'll try to not to tt again coz if Jesus is in me, I can shine as bright as He wants me to be! i mean, who cares if i'm praying at hall backstage and ppl come and want to change to sch u? change la! i'm praying...is there anything wrong? lol.

Thanks to Abraham also who has been (trying to) faithfully meet up every morning to pray for the sch, ourselves and events that are coming up (lie Saints' Aflame!). I see tt God is bringing people to war alongside with me alr! Praise God!

+Life As It Is

So yeah. sch has been rather weird lately...one min the lesson so easy...the next its like "....er....huh?" lol. A few teachers i would like to give "thanks" to:
-SC for making the lesson intersting....INTERESTING to the point tt i don;t understand the jokes and leaves a -.-'' on my face
-SWB for participating in the super lameness of the class and randomly creating her own fun.....which doesn;t make up for the random times she made the whole class do crazy work and stand up (but i get to sit so i dun complain on tt)
-ZY for doing her best to teach the class her lesson...while we completely ignore her and she does nothing but stares because we can't be handled
-YHG for the breaks and movie he gives aftr 1 period...which gives the class an opportunity...to make more noise, although the clip WAS great.
-TSC for trying her utmost best to teach the same topic over and over and over and OVER again just to help us remember...which has only 30% effect on me sadly. Deserves the Greatest Number Of Attempts Made Award
-DS for the sacarsm and lame jokes and "insults" which affects the whole class by "suan"ing us...although i don;t get "it" from him, nonetheless he think i can't be helped in the subject....until he realizes he didn;t check a particular paper hard enough.
-MO who trains us gives a time to train ourselves at our own pace...only tt the attire HAD to be the old one :(
-KYM for frightening the class with his set of rule......and subsequently slackening on them by 70%
-BR for making life easier in test...and not coming to sch for a day...i know it can;t be helped but...hey! only 2 periods per week leh.......arh!

Yup.....lol. its not an insult to them but tts really what i feel lol....am very very glad to have those teachers...if only school ciriculum was more....organized...give us only 2 periods of history per week and 3 of Social studies...and why i see SC EVERY day for english? grr.....

Personal School Statements:

-P.E on tues was crazy but very fruitful.....i think had 10 mins + for 2.4 yay....and at the start J.T was talking to me coz he isn;t running.....then the rest went already....i was still there. I turned around to see everyone gone..so i was like "oh shoot..." and burst off with Mr Osman,Danapal, J.t and the ppl who weren;t running with question marks on thier face.....except for a laughing J.T..lol sry la..who ask you talk to me. The lame thing was i didn;t realise the sec2s were running as well, but coz i trying to catch up with my class, i think i ran through that whole class....i didn;t realise until the 1s runner was like "wa! tt boy crazy arh?" sry 2N1.....i had a class to catch up with! lol...super funny........i wouldn;t have dine such thing if i was in the right mind....unless smt like this happens lol.

-Sam was in the library doing his own leisure research with freinds who didn;t know why they came with him. I stood that for some time and realise they were not very nice to sam....so i started "suan"ing them back in a very subtle way..like every time they make a hurting comment i just counter it for Sam. So after a while they kepy their mouths shut. lol...who ask you bully my Spiritual baby? asking for it lor. leave him alone if he wants to to his own lesisure research la! some ppl.....then after that i invited them for SFC. yay! they came. lol

-A particular some1 came up to me this morn and told me his worries....after that saying "i asked the wrong person" of course you did! who ask you to ask some1 who hopes that you will open your hearts;s ears and listen to him.....anyway i;ve much to say too regarding this issue,...will be praying for you, but he himself must pray!

-Andrew Lee has passed so much SFC admin to do....i dunno whether to sit down and feel terrible or jump for joy. lol...but i kinda like it so it doesn;t matter. thanks!

-I;ve got new Chapel Worshippers' Party to train for their serving next week.....lets see how it goes.

-Saints' Aflame planning progress is slow...but at least its going somewhere with Tim, Ming Feng and Samuel to help.

-I realise i need to work on my announcements. After saying a lot, i realised i came back 4 times after to add on.

-If the subject doesn;t kill me, the classmates around me will.
-to add on, if Music Theory doesn't kill me, Abraham will! haha

Welll...thats life of me for you! will be back soon!

New Day New Vision

2007-01-25T17:49:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

yeah! i mean it! New day new VISION!!! haah! I JUST GOT CONTACT LENSES!!!! whoohoo!!!! i never felt so...light on my face before heehee! you see...the problem with specs is that after a while you'll feel like it keeps slipping down when u jump, bend down or move around....or it just slides down to your nose every 5 mins! which is irritating....ESP when you're in front of 200 people on stage playing strings and singing! its NOT comfortable at all!

Well to day was GREAT! Chapel went really well and yeah! no more slipping down of specs problem! It feels great! haha. but that the nice picture of it. Here's the backstage secret:
The day before, i went to get my lenses for trial period. and one of the guy was teaching me how to wear contacts properly...to cut the story short. i spend 1 HOUR 35 MINUTES just to complete the whole training!!! AH!!!

The guy and my dad really excercised their patience to their very limits lol. I'm sorry mr idunnoyourname and dad!!!! I guess its easy for you to say when you toook like 1 hour to put yours! SORRY!!!! lol anyone broke the record of 1 hour 35 mins? Abraham took 1/2 hour. dad took 1 hour. and me!? :( yes yes i know i dunno why i like that :( :( tortureous!!!!! and the shop assistant just did it ON my eye for like...5 secs (putting in) and 2 sec (taking out)!!! SOOO zai!!! NO FAIR!

This morning i was very contended with myself. 20 mins to put them on! yippee! and 10 mins when i took them out after i came back lol. yeah. I wearing specs again...lol. oh well...

what else i die die must mug...OOH YES! SAINT'S AFLAME COMING IN erm....(minus common test week, CNY and sat-sundays) 13 days!!! haah! I'm SOOOOO excited (as you can see!) I've got a planning comm ready to plan....for things to plan lol. Drew will take over the WP side. and YES ANDREW LEE! Its not "what is there to plan" but it should be "what plans can we think of planning?" Thats why the spec. comm involves little peopl, like me, abraham and the default Events Commitee. lol. ok i;ve said my peace. Work starts on mon...so i still need to think of ideas...anyone got any ideas pls tag lol.

Well..yeah! I'm hyped up and i think i've gone a bit cranky now.....(abraham scolding me on msn alr). so before i erm....nvm. i better go. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Camp Break: Survivor of SSC.

2007-01-20T16:33:00.000+08:00

+Life As it Is

Hi!!! I just came back from sec 3 adventure camp...why on earth do they have it so early??? anyway..it was a crazy experience. haha. think i shall blog bout it....

amp Break: Survivor of SSC. (2b 4gotten..heh)

Day 1: Here I Go!

Went to sch as usual.....went to locker as usual...and met up with Abraham to pray! yay! and then assembled for morning assembly. No fair!!! Abraham gets to stay in school :( :( bleh..anyway he hs work to do for me haha!!!! so nvm. Then final briefing and then left for Sarimbun Scouts Camp. I slept throughout the way there haha.

After arriving, we waited at a grass patch for some time, the got briefed and assigned group leaders and then gathered by class to decide group name and cheer.

Instructors:
Naz: Super funny, cool and haha random fella. He;s really sociable and outgoing! glad to have him!

Shirley: Somehow not able to be with the class until 2nd last day. Hmm....so many ppl want to find out her personal info..i wonder why?

Group
Name: amp Break!
We were given the alphabet "C" so we came out with Camp Break because we hope to BREAK OUT OF CAMP really really soon! haha!!!!! My class super zai, actually think of such name haha!!! lol!!! When pppl want to tell us about the next day activity, we'll go like "we break out of camp by tt time already la!!" haha!!!!! lol

Cheers: I kinda 4got...pai seh...but it lame.

ok so tts about it...then went to build tent! bleh...nothing interesting....then assigned tent mates.

Haoming: The random and crapper. I can;t stop laughing at everything he says!
Ian: The overhead torchlight provider. We're the only group that has light at night coz of him!
Stanley: The Malaysianis erm....there. everythiing to him is "only". lol
Ming Ze: another random person. lol...the smart one!
Linus: The reserved but crazy guy. Somehow the blames gets to him easily....
Darren: WHy does he have long legs? dun understand. often..erm.....talked about. lol
Matthew: The smallest in the class and of out tent! my good friend :D another crazy person!
Ted: Do i need to say more?

And thats about it! so after tt off we went with the activities......ended with water and mud activities!!!! haha..quite cool actually...getting wet and super super dirty....lol. Haoming was like "Instructor! You get paid just to walk in and out of mud arh?" haha! So lame.. yeap. thats was the activities. Lunch and dinner was pretty good....but i brough a really small plate, super small! But Matthew's one smaller! lol. Then we upgraded his to mess tin, so i was the one with the smallest plate -.-'' oh well....

Makan time everyone sure will ask me"Wa! how come your plate so small" lol. I just reply" eh...small plate for small appetites like me :D" haha! Yeah...didn't really eat in the whole camp. At night, played a bindfold came...then went discuss about campfire night the next day. Then went to bathe. The open hose was full so i went cubicle lor. lol. Then i was the first to sleep in the entire camp i think. Lights off 11.30pm latest. I slept at 10.45 haha. And YES am able to sleep anyway...espcially on hard ground...apparently Ming Ze and Haoming has problem with tt. Bleh

Day 2: Its Another day.....

Woke up...brush teeth. At breakfastt...and had activities again! lol....all the weird games..nothing much la...then ate lunch. We were the crazy group through the entire camp...coz everywhere we go, Naz will sweet talk the station master to give us full marks for the station. Some just auto-give because when they intro themselves...we'll go crazy and clap hands and cheer. They guys we';ll go like "Good morning handsome instructor!!!" and the females is "Chio-bu!!" haha!!!!! I think everybody know Camp Break already le! haha. yes...so after lunch went for more act...the highlight was rock-climbing and the obstacle course.

For rock climbing i decided to give up my position in the queue to some1 else and tried the 45 degree bend...i manage to go halfway then they said must stop :( Linus and Matthew nearly reached the top...but couldn't...so pro! But they went the normal one. The instructors said if we reach the top we will get Ben&Jerr's ice-cream! If not we get Ben Hassan (the catering food) lol!!!! So didn't manage....:(

Then we played some game where..ah!!! I genna outraged of modesty.....:( I learned never to let my friends carry me though i'm the 5th lightest in class....they nuts orh!!!! Thankfully it wasn;t so bad....somemore it was Shirley's station!!!! NO!!!! I've been quite violated :( sick people!! AH!!!! So yes...lesson learned. Never to let classmates carry me again.

:'( so then army obsctacle coz. Form teacher was there and she tried to climb the low wall but couldn't haha! nvm la. Yes! its the real army obstacle course.....all the stations. lol. And i;m sooooo proud of myself!! hah! like...5 ppl came up to me and were like" Theodore! i didn't know you so fit!" OF COURSE they didn't know!!! At least i prove them wrong......yup. I CAN complete and DID comeplete all obstacles fast :D yay. But uultimately....I am weak but HE IS STRONG. :D So who says i not physically fit better think 2wice :D

Then we planned for the campfire night. suppose too come up with a skit..but last minute Naz said he'll handle it for us and used only 4 ppl. so ok....then dinner...then campfire!! oh it rained so we had it indoors. The campfire was like...electrically charged! lol. So it was called Entertainment Night. Laugh and laugh like crazy-non stop. lol! Esp out group because our skit had songs and one guy from my class acting as a super hot girl!!! haah!!! I LOVE my group!!! lol!! it was the super super best and funniest! lol. then had fun fun fun and then slept. as usual i was the first to sleep...again.

Day 3: BYEBYEBYE!

YES! finally...the day i've been waiting for since 2007 came! lol. Pack up tent....wash toilet!!! ah!!!!! ok la i guess....and then left. the end

Ok...now the really cool part! I gave Sam his present and he was like over the moon!!! hah! I;m so glad that he likes it..praise God!

Blessing from My Father!

2007-01-14T19:03:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

Its been a totallly Jesusful time for me since Jan 3rd! haha! everyday there is bound to be some way and platform for God to use me! And i'm really really glad...but i know i can't be contented because He can do sooooooooo much more! haah! This is only a trickle of the waterfall heeehee! So i'm waiting for the waterfall!!! haha

After Saints' Arise came the Chapel Encounterz! Played for Sec 1 orientation for like....2wice! haha! Missed physics lesson but its ok la..haha. yay. So yeah...the church keyboard pedal is STILL not fixed yet!!!!!! Grr...i shall offer my kind services to help them heh....if not the my keyboardist will have a hard time! Actually a grade 7-der like him would feel like its chicken la...but me leh!? I need the pedal for atmospheric keys...since i dunno how to play properly haha! oh well....so yeah! And then came own chapel...and then played for like 3 times for the week!! haha.

Then just a few days ago (thurs) was pre-CCA display day practice! I can't showcase the photos here sadly..too many! tell u wad...click on the link below to get to the SFCWP Photo album page :)

Click Here:
<<<Saint's For Christ Worshippers' Party: Lane of Memories.>>> >

there. Its exclusive to party member's actually but.....oh wadda heck. I'm tthe net administrator so haha yay. So yeah...have fun vieweing! basically its a great 2 day thing..1st day was really messy....I brought Treasure and a luggage of equipment..literally a luggage! haha. So the stands and equipment were really useful! haha.

Next day was super cool! it was BB day and had to come in uniform...lol. then I had to read the BB day message in front of....the sec1s and 2s coz raining....so its like wad....400 ppl? lol..super scary..and HAD TO PRAY FOR THE SCHOOL after that!!!!!!! ah!!!! super super zai orh! ah...so the nightt before prayed and wrote a prayer for the school! heehee...it was the Holy Spirit writing..not me! haha. So its super Jesusful :D thanks God! See? God used me so much! any1 who's reading this (esp trinitarians) i;m sure if u asked for it, God will give it to u...in my case i prayed that God will use me...and see what He did? thats not all!

Then after that came CCA Display the main event! the photos are there too! haha. Treasure rocks! haha...thanks Treasure! haha...training myself to do solo rifts did help....and THANK YOU GOD!!!! haha...it paid off heehee! So yeah.....everyone totally rocks!

Oh btw i was playing the grand piano behind sch backstage and my DM came up to me and ask me to teach him how to play the hymn "Be Thou My Vision" . And he said the magic word ".....so talenTED!" OMGOSH!!!!!! He thinks i can play piano! lol! now igot myself into trouble....but with Abraham and Brandon's help i think i should be ok...not how to write piano chords for him? Argh!!!!

So yup...and ii just came back from xxxxxxxx for xxxxxx and i;m super happy! Because God was with me all the time and my xxxxtors were very ppl! haha! Thank you God! 2 years of Holy-spirit teaching paid off! haha now to wait for the call of descision :) But i;m all this while going by faith and not sight! haha. now its my turn to pla for an audition for school chapel...lol..pastor ben ask me so i can't say no right? haha. How ironic..just came out fromm audition and have to prepare another one for other people...good thing Abraham offered to help me. Yay! SA shall have more christians rising up! haha

Yeah!!!!!!!!!! thats my week for you! thanks to everyone who prayed for me! God really did something in me EVERYDAY! the next highlight would be ignYte's Vdae comm and Saints' Aflame 2007!!!!!!!! WHOOHOO!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait till 28 Feb!!! I'm soooooo excited.

But fun aside..i've got a stupid camp to go to from wed to fri!! argh!!! and abraham gets to slack lor..in sch..bleh :( but nvm....behind a seemingly weak Ted is a God-given perseverence that by faith will last me a lifetime...and its still growing! so yeahh..i'm glad God gave me a perseverece i would nvr understand....haha! So oh well...thats it forr now! see u!!!

Saints Arise! 2007

2007-01-05T17:07:00.000+08:00

Life As It Is :Saints We Are. AriseN We Become!!

A very exciting day yesterday!!! Woke up a bit earlier to pack all the equipment and clothes needed for the Encounter today. haha! then went to school...abraham finally came early. So we chatted for a while...then we sat down with anson who happen to come and started praying for ourselves and the school. haha..Anson has miraculously grown in his prayer...the fact he is even willing to pray! haha! Praise God! Then went to because to chase students to class coz it rained lol. walked around 3rd level for like 13 times before stopping lol. Then went to english class. Did a diagnostic test..1st work of the year..bleh. And ok la..not tt hard...see how la haha. Then erm...went for....A maths lesson! lol. Abraham took my book and nearly landed me in trouble lol. teacher couldn't pronounce my name so yup...i became Ted yet again lol. She remembered me...and tts bad :( haha. then talktalktalk about JC planning for 1 and a half hours....ate into recess lol. so she gave the next period a recess! yay!

o yeah..pst ben was in his office!!! so panick lor...coz later chapel and haven't prepared with abraham. uh oh. so worried for half an hour. lol. Then next was chinese....same chinese teacher,....and we all crapped with her for 1 hour lol. laugh like every 5 mins lol. Then it was chapel!! argh! worry lor...buy by faith its gonna be alright. so yup..enter audi..everything was ready...so yeah. just me and him infront of like 200 ppl. So we sang This is How we Overcome....and yeah. praise God i passed that.

Then came to "Everyday". Pastor Ben couldn't follow me..so this was what he did:

1) Stop everyone
2) Said into the mike "My voice isn't very good...Theodore would you like to take over?"
3) Ted froze
4) Ted froze again
5) Ted was handed the mike
6) Ted was stunned as he gave guitar to pastor ben.

yup.....they were like cheering....argh!!! NO!!!!! dun cheer for me!!! :( but well...super impromptu....so ya lor....sang...and praise God! more ppl co-operated! haha! But yeah..solo singing isn't very......scary after all when u hit the right notes.....lol. Then sang consuming fire...alone again....ah!!!! Super stress.....but praise God! he worked in me in a way I never thought He'll do! haha! a miracle indeeed. So yeah....haha. lol....Praise God I stepped down...in one piece. :)

Then last period was chem....ok la....lol. Nothing much done....had 10 mins lesson only lol. Then after that...its TIME!!! The main event!

OK..so started off by setting up stage...my stands came in useful heehee. And yeah....check my keys...they were ok...Abraham was there to help me get ready and some crashcourses haha. Thanks! So yeah we started...there miracualously alot of ppl! Potential SFCers! haha. Praise God..there were teachers and other adults there!!!! It was awesome....they really worshipped their hearts out....the WP Team did a great job! Mr Lim was...hahaa!!! Praise God! He got in timing....a suuuuuupppppppppeeeeeeerrrrrr big improvement from yesterday! He rocks! haha. Mr Alvin How and Drew were needless to say..pro. Pst Ben and Mr Koh was all set leading everyone in worship. And me? My keys...i couldn't hear myself..but i think by faith i sounded ok :) Abraham was there to sound check 4 me...yay! He took pics too heh..so..yup...here they are!

>>> Saints Arise! 2007 Term 1: Outstanding Worshippers' Party
> What was i doing!?!?
>From left ro right:
>Unc. Aaron, Mr Lawrence Koh (behind), Mr Lim Tuck Hway (on drums hidden) Ted, Drew, Mr Alvin How, Pst Ben

>>> Pastor Ben encouraging congregation to worship their hearts out!

>>> Uncle Aaron, Ted, Drew, Mr Alvin How

The Crowd that gathered! Praise God!

>>> The Teachers worshipping!

>>> Passionate Members of staff

>>> Students are worshipping too!

>>> Saints Arise! 2007 Term 1.

Yup! its really an experience. Mrs Charles shared about why we were created and yeah...encouraged everyone that it isn't by chance we were all there. Praise God for a godly principal! So yeah...then we had a ministry time..where ppl rededicated their lives to God and the most awesome thing....5 NEW SOULS INTO THE KINGDOM OF GOD!!!!!!!!!!! God really worked in that place!!! Praise God!!!!!

Yup...thats yesterday...then ended the whole thing with a tell the world...took hold of mike..yay finally i can sing...couldn't sing coz too worried for keys lol. Abraham took over me in the next part and i took bass haha.

WP Members Shift 1:
Pst Ben (Lead Host)
Mr Lawrence Koh (Mikes)
Uncle Aaron (Mikes/ one-sound crew!)
Mr Alvin How (Acoustic Strings)
Andrew (Bass Strings)
Ted (2nd Keys)
Mr Lim Tuck Hway (Sticks)

WP Members Shift 2:
Pst Ben (Lead Host)
Mr Lawrence Koh (Mikes)
Uncle Aaron (Mikes/ one-man sound crew!)
Mr Alvin How (Acoustic Strings)
Ted (Bass Strings)
Abraham (2nd Keys)
Mr Lim Tuck Hway (Sticks)

Awesome team! Then later everyone (the students and pst) went full time crazy. lol. haha. Yup

Just came back from Church prayer meeting. God really worked...assured me of my..erm..calling. And interstingly, He gave me a vision for Nathan Sheppy and Shep! Its really....a miracle..Shep confirmed and showed me that as long as i have Faith in God...things will happen.

Nathan: You'll be praying for your friends at the altars :)

Sheppy Chet: I saw a ship....on a rough and stormy sea. But in the end....the storm couldn't tackle it because it reached shore...and there was a big anchor there. I feel God trying to tell you though your life may be a bit rough this year, in the end, you'll reach the shore victorious, because Jesus is your anchor! So look towards shore! The anchor awaits you!

Shep Gene: I saw a green pastures of sheeps. Haha. You'll have more spiritual babies this year! Praise God! and i'm not the only one who said that right? so haha. Gideon saw 3 signs from God
to assure him that God wants him to do smt. Now u have 3 same visions spoken into you...so go out there and make disciples (and sheeps? haha) of all nations!

Haha...God really works in ways we cannot see. At first i hesistated...but I thank God i told them..because in return, i could see God can work thru me....thru Shep i understand now i CAN see visions! Prase God! Have fun all 3 of u :)

A very Jesusful 1st Day

2007-01-03T22:51:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

Today was really really really COOL!!!!! haha! I can't believe 1st day went so well! haha! Thank you God!!! haha..i shall share my joy :D

I slept at like....4am praying over myself for the night (worried and worried me). And woke up at 5.30am.. lol. Then had breakfast...then went school. 1st time in like ages school was awfully quiet and dark..like i was the 1st one there at 6.15am! lol. maybe 1st day of sch everyone slacking....haha. Oh well..met Saunders and Nehemiah at Gen office. then the super lame thing was saunders bought a new badge....and the pin came off. lol. so he went back change lol. all my frenz look so differnt in long pants! haha. Guess we've all grown...i get lonGER pants now...haha.

Then went locker area...carrying all my heavy books...super torterous. lol. and super dark!!! oh well..groped around to find my locker. i 4got my locker code!!! lol. tried and tried and yay finally got it. it was xx xx xx. haha. then tim came up.....Praise God for tim. He has the same devotion book tt i'm doing haha! and i 4got bring mine...so borrowed his and had TAWG. Praise God!

Then chatted for a while...and then went to pray by myself because apparently SOMEONE DIDN'T ARRIVE ON TIME!!! i'm so gonna killed him....! oh well. trying again 2mr. then off for morning assembly duties. taking care of 4SA..Drew's class (drew as a nice hairdo!) and yeah...the best class of all...11st one to get organized! haha. So yup...morning assembly pass by really slowly.....junior sch head prefect screwed like 7 times...secondary sch couldn't help laughing lol. oh well.....

and finally got to class. SOOOO happy!!!!! Raymond is in my class!!!! YAY!!! we like congrats and hugged 2wice lol...really very blessed to have him! haha...(time for a potential outreach i cannot miss :D tts why i'm happy). Yup. So went to new class...and we played the remember the names kind of game where everyone suuppose to think of an adjetive before their name....so haha. u prob guess what i picked.

talenTED! haha. lol.

i think mine was the most confusing one...coz the 38 ppl didn't know whether to call me Theodore or Ted...so i brainwashed all 38 of them and so i'm offically Ted. lol even the teacher calls me that. yay! talenTED me :D so yeah...then after we had speed voting for class position. I just quietly sat there and hoping to avoid everyone' s attention. apparently some jokers noticed and erm...put my name down for class secratary...by the grace of God...i kenna elected lor. dunno whether to feel happy...2 other names were called for tt position...then when Ms Shirley Chua was like "ok...who wants Ted to be the class sec" and 38 ppl of out....38 pppl raised up. lol.....i dunno whether to be happy or sad....lol. But anyway i accepted the role la. good boy ma haha. So whats my 1st job? finding out ppl's religion, contact info. haha...i get to be the 1st to get all 3S1 student particulars. yay me!

ok so that went all the way to...11.15pm. then had recess. met up with dear abraham and exchange presents..thanks for the 3-in-1 present! haha..really loved it! haha. then had some time with pst ben...learned some intersting info which will tell later on. and i practiced my harmonizing which was....in need of prac lol. then after tt Mrs Charles came to give a talk to all upper sec. lol...boring lor..asked to paste stickers of class allocated sitting position in the hall...and the students were pretty nice to me :D yay. Nice prefect gets nice students :D haha. So tt went well...and finally dismissed! yay.

Then haha now for the exciting news...to cut the story short this is whats happening 2mr:

Saints' ! Worship Prayer Encounter 2006

A time of worship and prayer to dedicate the new year to the Lord. Its happening right here in SAS Hall (yeah! aircorn hall!) so come on down to join all christians for a time of worship and prayer!

2.30pm-4.00pm. School Hall

Special Disclaimer: The Saints Arise Combine Worshippers' Party 06

Worship Leader: Pastor Benjamin Lee (yup...be default)
(M)Mikes: Mr Lawrence Koh, Ms Chan Ee Mein (yup..they can sing really well!)
Acst Strings: Mr Alvin How (he's good!)
Bass Strings: Andrew Lee (got roped in :) student leader!)
Sticks: Mr Lim Tuck Huay (didn't know he was ex-youth player!)
Keys: Ted (suppose to be Ms Deborah Gan!!!! oh no...abraham, i need help!!!)
(H)Mikes: Ted (lol..)

Yup..thats a worshippers' party overview :) practice today was really funny. I merely wanted to test the keys coz ms gan not here yet....then she ask me take over and left. WHAT!?!? i can't play keys for nutz!!!! argh!!! but its a privliege...its beats not playing Treasure! heh. oh well.....here goes.

So yeah!!!!! really excited about 2mr......and clr couldn't have lunch coz he wasn't released from JC even at 4pm! lol. So went for guitar lessons....and had late dinner with ppl and back home..packing my stuff. haha! i;m sooooooooooooo super excited! haha looking forward! oh and i;m playing for chapel 2mr! haha. God is good :D

packed stuff...have authorization to take pics. yay! so yup..will try to snap some shots and post it 2mr. until then i shall go to bed earlier this time haha! Need to pray for the whole event too! haha. Nites!!!!

I;m SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited at what God is gonna do...by Faith! haha! Prasie God!!!!!!!!!!!! whooooooooopeeeeeee! yayyayyayyayyyay!!!!!!

Campus Revival: Gatecrashing hell

2007-01-02T22:34:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

haha....i shall make the title of this post my erm...motivation for this year! haha...

Spiritual Warefare Details 2007: Campus Revivalment!

Assigned Campus: St. Andrew's Secondary School
Warring on: 3 Jan 2007, Wednesday. 6.15am
Gatecrash begins at: Locker Area
Children of God Revival Army: Anyone and EVERYONE is invited to be a part of it! I'm under the SA division. so if you're from another sch..go gather your army and war!

Suppose to be a session with Abraham but anyway lol..I'd be surprise if anyone from SA thats going sch 2mr would read this....but anyhow yay...so excited 2mrr! Warring for the sch with Abraham is gonna be...erm....fun! Geez..which reminds me..must pack Bible......

ok done! yay! so excited! sch haven't start yet gonna preapare an play for Chapel with Abraham haha! lol...thanks for choosing the song! (slow one i mean)... tt reminds me..i better record somewhere.....oh since i'm here i shall record it here la......if he reads this he gets reminded too! Practice 2mr! one day left!!!

This is How We Overcome (C)
Everyday (C)
Consuming Fire (G)

*Call me when u see this (to Abraham) 6.14 2mr DON'T BE LATE. lol

ok...whats next...Music Theory...lol. I need to get back...sry again Abraham..lol. I be more hardworking this year ok? if not my classical also cannot pass 5! lol. So i shall be your good student this year lol. So much for tt...i dunno whether can find my book :D

And i need to settle a few ppl's discpline problem or they might get into serious trouble....if Mo sees this he better CUT HIS HAIR! or i have no idea how to help you escape from DM. lol. God's grace has worked..but it can't always work....lol. Geez...guess i need to save more ppl from trouble this year......

OK.i think thats all i have to do when i go back to sch...for now. And i've got a lunch appointment with clr! yay! and yeah..i think thats all i can do for now. My locker needs cleaning...again....lol.

Ok i've said my peace! *sigh* i dunno i;m seriosuly gonna do a watchnight here in mybedroom.....i duuno why but i better pray for myself and for all the ppl around me :D see how first...but yeah..sleeping late today! VERY late...somemore 2mr got sooooooooo much things to do! glad i did my last shopping today and OG. 20% discount!! shiok...overbought stuff haha. oh well.

Yup. A new Year, new Spirit, and new Revelation. And REnewed Strength to make everyday a Victorious one! I think heaven is preparing for 2mr also....i;m sure they'll be many Revivalists out there who are passionate to pray for they're sch on the 1st day! haha...the heavenly army is definitely preapared for warfare! So is hell...but hey! We serve an Almighty God..whatever the hell can do, God can do it like a a gazzilion times better! So yeah!!!! War starts 2mr! How many souls shall be saved? haha By Faith there will be...and its up to us to take the first step and send the army of hell with the tails between their legs! Ultimately God's gonna win fors sure, but hey! He's gonna use us to be His Instruments!

The Children of God Revival army needs to preapre too! No shaking legs around here...so yup. Got lotz of spiritual preperations to do.

2007 has come. All is at peace in the physical realm...but not the spiritual realm. The Heavenly Army of God and the not-good-at all army of hell is preapring for war. Hell defedning and heaven attacking. A epic battle like no other.

Heaven's Motto: The Great Commision (Matthew 28:19-30) :Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Hell's Motto: John 10:10: The theif comes only to steal, kill and destroy.

2 armies. 2 entirely different mottos. But one thingis for sure...they're going for the people of this generation. Its either they'll have eternal life, or infinite torturing. But this war is not for the us to sit back watch to see who wins. Its reality. Heaven is calling you to be full-fledged commander in the Children of God Revival Army. You never how the war will change when just one more person enters into the revival army.

I;m serving in the SA C.O.G RA. Gatecrashing day is 2mr. Don't wait any longer. Preapre your arms and get ready...for the 1st battle is 2mr.....

This is just the beginning of a long long war....but its this beginning that wil create that spiritual momentum to carry on. I;m ready for war. Are you?

Lol...i should try for movie reviewing....lol but seriously...i'm looking forward to battle. haha..i;m gonna preapre my arms in a couple of moments time. And then i'm ready to serve in His Army. Start now! and don't wait any longer....go create an army for God and win souls in this generation....for God!

~Armed and Loaded. <<LETZ WAR!!>>~

Preparations

2007-01-02T01:28:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

Looking forward....my 1st few days would be a breeze......WRONG! i got work haven't done yet, books to be labelled, private sch stuff to do, limitations to plan, deadlines to meet and worse of all, expectation to meet from parents. ah!!!! so much for breeze...it just became a hurricane...bleh.

But today was good :D woke up at like what...3pm? lol. then went to plaza sing to do SHOPPING!!!! for new year clothes...i;m so happy with myself...no i got formal clothings...and thier really cool! glad i went shopping today haha! (ah...great as i;m typing this a certain some1 has stranded me on msn..lol..no worries though. 1st day of the year was good!!!! yay!! I'm soooooooo contended and really happy!! haha. oops ok. erm..then dinnerr ate at home and watch some movie at home....had dinner at 10pm? so shiok.

Yeah so...wa....sch is like 2mr...and yeah so many things left to do (and ACS barker can still shake legs!!) Slacking is soooooooooo much fun! oh wellz....nvm. I;mquite excited though about sch...pass my morning assembly duties and i think it should be pretty smooth :D unlesss some teachers insist for hw to be on thier desk before entering classroom (which prayerfully it won't happen), then talenTED here will come back home in one piece.....lol. Ah..enough about sch...for a startm i;m still gonna slack. Hey! I;ve been enduring all the stress loadd and stuff that i SHOULDn't be having...so i'm soooooo gonna make room for me to breathe and breathe well! all who stand in my way shall receive prayer....so tt they'll let me learn how to relax. So don't bother me when i;m relaxing....or you'll be dissappointed at the outcome....lol

ah...i've said my peace and i shall go into the next part :D

+Counting My Blessings

Yes! i can finally have like 4 hours to do this....and i shall sleep at 5 am! one last time to do so :D

I shall now thank all those who (is in my memory as well) has in one way or another, impacted me in the year 2006. Don't be dissappointed if i forget you...coz God sees what you've done and honours you :D

My Company's Music Industry: The Stringed Family

1)Wonderful
: The Female Classical Guitar

"Thanks for being there and ready to perform, even though your strings weren't in veery good shape! I shall change it for you soon ok? hang in there! So many memoriable events with you! Especially performing with you on 2 major occasions at North Thanksgiving and Island-wide Christmas party! We did our best and thanks for sounding and looking good! Will definetely giev you a new set of strings, and make polish you, so you'll look good for future performances to come...which i know will be coming soon :D! So stay good and look good!"

2) Keepsake
:The Male goldblack-stringed Classical Guitar

"Hope you're glad with the new string look! though you're a veteran, i think the colour combi looks good on you! Thanks for witthstading the bangs and falls! I'll never forget how strong you are to endure all those and still look so.....keepsakish! I think i named you well coz you really are a keepsake lol! not for the sake of keeping, but a momento hehe:D Although i don't use to perform, want you to know that you're the backstage one, helping check to see where i've gone wrong and preparing me to perform on any other of your family. You're the one that i can work on when anything goes wrong.....i realise how impt you are coz i need a guit to practice on be4 performing..and you're the best man for it! So hope you'll stay committed! you're stringed are thankfully in tune after 1 week! take care of your wife coz she's wonderful to me too! thanks again!"

3) Blessing
: The Male Bass guitar

"You're really ablessing! coz i didn;t plan to get you...but u came haha and gave me a surprise! so thats why you're a blessing! I;m sorry that i'm not able to use you so much...but i still do check on you right? I still care and love you as much as the other guitars ok? So don't feel left out..you're special in my eyes too! and you've got treasure to keep you company! thanks for being ther when i use u in my latest recording! It really helped alot! see? you're so useful to me! continue to erm....keep your strings i position....though you're moving away from the fretboard but nevermmind....thanks again! You're always part of the family!"

4) Treasure
: The Supersonic Azure-stringed Male Electric Guitar

"You're totally awesome man! You really rock the stage! I'll never forget our 1st impromptu performace together for Saint's Aflame! Sure we didnt do so well but hey, i'm better now so you'll definetly sound good this year! thanks for fitting in so well with the pedals and amp....you're trallt a treasure that i must and will treasure alot lot lot lot! I;m very sure you'll be performing again...so get ready ok? Your new look and enhancements will be of great help on performance fay! Keep yourself together and we'll make history with Jesusful music...and your strings :D!"

5) Marvellous
: The Takamine Male Acoustic Guitar

"Welcome to the family! Hope you fit for the past couple of days...as you can see, we have a wonderful family here and their all happy to welcome you to join in! Hope you fit in! anything wrong let me know ok? not by sounding terrible on performances but sounding terrible on practices lol....tthats a way u can tell me your problems...i'lll defintely respond...don't worry :D Yup...pls take care of Precious to i can marry both of you're soon...for now just date her ok? lol...she's very nice and melodious too....i assure you she's our match! Hope to work with you soon..now that you've got a home on the guit stand haha! So be4 tt day comes, preapre yoursellf...coz i believe you're gonna sound really really good on stage! haha!"

last but DEFINETELY not least..

6) Precious
: The Pink-string Female Acoustic Guitar

"I have soooo much to say!!! But truly you're the most dedicated and faithful one! You'll definetely a a strong female guit!! So many many memories!! taking you too BB, church, and esp to malaysia! You're the 1st of the family that travel with me abroad...and i don't have to pay for your bus ticket! haha....everyone loves you! I love you too!!! thanks for being a strong women that went with me though thick and thin! Though yes i know you're suffering from intonation. you sound just as good as any other guitars in perfect condition...because you're precious to me! though ppl might want to give you up...i eon't becuase you're so vaulable and whocares if you have slight intonation!? You just got restringed and you sound great! Your key is in perfect pitch and best of all thanks for making realise that od has given me a wonderful gift of playing by ear...thanks for helping me realise that :D I;ve got sooo much more to say coz we spend so much time 2gether!! but yeah...most of all..thanks for being sounding good...though circular music has been played on you and others have played on you...you co-operated and never once failed them...sorry for the circular ones! u MUST let them know that you're dedicated to God and make your stand ok? Don;t worry...continue to be that strong women coz i;m gonna need you alot! have fun dating Marvellous....i shall united both of you in matrimony soon ok? 1st get to kno each other better...send u for pre-marital counselling with clarence and his timothy...then can marry you off :D so have fun and continue to sound good!"

oh and not forgetting...
7) joinT
: The Intelli tuner
8) 2gether
: The Maple-based Capo
9) Arsenal
: The power-packed sound mixer

"Thanks for being the support to the family! everyone won't be able to achive alot of things if it wasn;t for you 3! thanks for being there to be that alignment and examaple all guitar srings must follow (joinT) and thanks for doing what my index finger can never do to enhance and shift the tone of all guitar (2gether), and joining all the wonderful sound makers in harmony (arsenal)! 3 of you have done a fanastic job in supporting the family! continue to do your best coz i;m gonna need 3 of you you to carry on!"

...and to all other equipments and apparatus in my Music Industry Dept.! thanks for helping i one way or another! your dedication and commitment is greatly appreciated!!! All of you were dedicated to God and I;m sure you all will be blessed and be a blessing to me!

ok...that was lame. haha but i should show my appreciation anyway! haha. so now moving on to the main part...

God's Blessings to Me

ignYte: The godly blessings i can remember at this point of time. If they ever read this or not..nevermind....at least i know what i can say about each of this blessings :D

1) Christopher
: Rooboy

"thanks for that brotherly support you;ve given to me since p5 till now! Had fun serving with you for AV! haha...and really cool we met again this year! appreciate all your little comments and crap! and loved the Sentosa outing with tigger! haha! will def not forget that wonderful time! I;m sure we;ll have a great time in cell nest year..so cool same adult leader haha! God bless!

2) Delise
: The one who keeps calling me pro

"lol I'm not pro...i need to stone myself le....lol. But yeah...thanks for the encouragement! what a cool way to know you..thru jamming haha! But yeah... thanks! thanks for the card too (sry can't get you one! i;m like broke! IOU). Its really my pleasure to erm...share with you and to encourage you thru your blog...its really brings me much joy to know that you appreciate it! haha but ultimately, God is good yeah? so thank Him for being there to bring you up. SO yeah! i;m just His vessel...so..yupyup,,but thanks!

3) Joelle
: Broom? Loudhailer?

"i think i got this whole idea from you lol. thanks for the random enthu u give during CH! it really hypes everyone up..or at least it hypes me! haha. tthanks for the enthu and writeup about me!! lol....didn;t know u could write so much......i'm losing the inspiration to carry on alrr lol....but yeah...had fun CHingg with you! You make an excellent CH for God as well! so have fun and carry on serving!"

TBC due to tiredness...

1) Moses. >Emo-u
2) Huirou> Weird Encounter. Encouraging Aftermath
3) Andrew> My SFC Chairman..lol. too formal.
4) Sis Kim> Tigger!!!!
5) Hannah>
6) Keith> Shep!@PL
7) Danny> Shep!!@PL
8) Chetwin> Sheppy@Adam

Campus Co.

1) Abraham
2) Timothy Ong
3) Darren Lee
4) Nathaniel

RHW. Treasured 4ever

1) Gene> Shepherd@Adam (unable to write the emo part. Too much to say! one post can't fit all...but will do a how to remember you part for lameness sake lol)
2) Clarence> Slapper 1!

Sadly i shall stop here....:( due to lackof time....but yeah..i appreciate everyone whom i've mentioned :D

2007

2007-01-01T03:00:00.000+08:00

+The Sentimental Life

~The Journey Ahead~

2006 has been a great year. This will be the last post for the year 2006. Looking back isn't something i should do...but I think i must say God did a great job in 2006 in my life. And its just erm to thank Him. Lol i'm to tired to do anything right now...i shall write a post on xx ways i can be reminded of somebody...maybe 2mr haha. Before the waterfall comes i better erm....go off. Bye! Thanks to every single friend that i have. Every single hug meant sooooooooo much to me and it'll ggo a long way. Have funin Adam for those who are going and don't forget us in PL!

1 Church, 2 Centres, 3nitarians....and for a special someone, 4ever ONE IN CHRIST :D

~2B continued~

Finding Acceptance

2006-12-27T00:56:00.000+08:00

+Sentimental Perspective

Finding Acceptance- by Theodore Koh

Picture this scenario: You walked into church, knowing nuts about Christ. You walked into the service hall because your friend ask you to, and he sits with other friends and leaves u in a lurch. And no one notices you, no one greets you as you go. And you start to feel lonely....the pastor then asks who wants to accept Jesus Christ...a Savior and God of Love. So much for tt, His people doesn't even show love......

I guess thats pretty......not a good start for new comers. I guess deep down thats why I want to become a Celebration Host; we are not just ushers. We celebrate while hosting, because its God's house, he are hosting in the most happening place on Earth every sat at 2.45pm! I've found the Love of God and I want to share it with others. I understand anyone who feels, brokem, hurt, or unwanted and unnoticed...perhaps i've been in that place many a times....and sadly still is...

I think I'm reminded of past experiences which i don't want to bring it up right now. The feeling of being unnoticed....people in the world turn to all kinds of things to try and solve this problem. I;m sure we all know what most of them are. For me, i turn to friends. Friends (as i said umpteen times) is like a spark that keeps me going on Earth. Thats how i feel about myself.....sometimes, i feel so dependant on them. It then becomes so hard to release them and to move on when i should.....i know its dangerous, but deep down inside....my emotions are so fragile....one wrong move and i might..i dunno....i don;t wish to know.
All i know is that i'm turning to the wrong place of acceptance. But where else can I go?

I constantly forget the One who's been providing me with all these friends that I can lean on. I took it all for granted...sometimes i just hate myself...i know that i shouldn't but....i just feel so stupid and...really downright stupid. The answer to what I need has been waiting patiently outside my heart's door....knocking. I never answered. I open only when i want the things from Him, never the Giver Himself. I just snatch the things He brings me and just close the door. I think Jesus Himself is hurt......

So many times...i really took His blessings for granted. Thats why sometimes i hate myself....i'll never be perfect i know, but.....just simply opening the door to let Jesus come in? And i couldn't do it. If Jesus could hear me right now....i just want to really say sorry to Him...for taking a lot of blessings for granted....for merely forgetting the One who provides....for being so conscious about how others feel, never about He feels. Its times like these when suiciding is blinking and flashing in front of my eye. It goes back to the point...is life really worth living?

Acceptance was right next to me, Unconditionally Love never failed me, Heavenly Compassion never left me....its me who left them behind. When I took those blessings away..i left those 3 important ones in Christ hands. He probably tried so many ways to put them in the other blessings...somehow i probably just didn't take it.....i still left it there. If there was another attribute that I would add to the virtues of Christ, it would be My Acccepter.

Wordly possesions will ultimately disappear. Friends whom I though was so close to me might just go any time...what remains is Jesus Christ Himself. It takes just a few types to type the previous sentence...but its a journey to fully understand it. All along, i should have turned to Him. I all along should have let Him come in. How hurt He must have felt when i close the door right in His face. Yet He stilled showered me with so much love and relentless belief. I don't think i'll ever understand why He chosed to Love me so much despite my constant failure and sins....I'll never in my entire life understand why He did such a thing. But one thing I know..is that He did it because He loved me.

As the year ends...there are people i need to release from my heart. I've held them close for far too long.....i need that freedom. To leave all my burdens at the foot of the Cross once again. To release my loved ones into the Father's Loving hands. Its a new journey...God is waiting to take it all away...if i could just hand it to Him. All He ever wanted to do was to let me experience that everlasting unconditional love, compassion and acceptance, and sadly i never took it. Humans may falter, but My God never fails me...even though i walk thru the valley of the shadow of death, i'll fear no evil for He IS with me..not was...but IS.

Bible verses are springing to life in my mind right now......i'll have to use what i said to others for myself....i..can't die just yet...I've got a vision to realise, dreams to acheive, prophesies to experience, and ultimately, a destiny to fufil. Now's not the time...i have much to do. The year is coming to an end, but not His Love for me. His Love is everlasting....thats all i need. He's waiting to give me that acceptance that i;ve been yearning for since the word "friend" was first said to me. And i'll gladly turn back to Him......and let Him give me that joy and desire i;ve been longing for, for the longest time....its a whole new journey....but at least this is the day that the Lord has made, and i can and WILL rejoice and be glad in it. I've found a reason for living and that acceptance and love i needed....so no looking back for me....do remind mee of this post if i ever feel unwanted again...to all who reads this. To all who read this: u can help start by kindly tagging after the end of this post.

Running With My Best Friend - by Ted

"Running alone was never easy
Until You caught up and ran with me.
Jesus My BEST Friend, lets go together
From this day forth, now and forever
Never again will i run this race, of life and trials
with no one beside me, alone by myself
The road ahead so long and hard
With rocky mountians and winding paths
But with someone like You, I have nothing to fear
For evil will tremble, as long as You're here
I will stumble and fall, this i can say
But I know You're with me, all the way
I'll finish this race, with You hand in Hand
For You'll always be there, Jesus My Best Friend"

~From the heart of Theodore, to the Loving father~

Unto Us a Saviour is Born

2006-12-26T00:32:00.000+08:00

+Life As it Is

yay! Blessed Christmas to everyone!!!!! thanks to all who gave me presents and sry to all who've yet to receive theirs for me!!!! must remind me or i;ll forget!!!! letz see...erm...today....i'll start with yesterday

Yesterday did last min shopping....and came home to do last min presents hehe...realli late this year. Then from 4pm-2am...oh dear!!!!! i can't belive i actually spend so much time on Shep's present!!! oh no oh no.....no wonder my mum was scolding me haha....spend so much time one present...I'm so sorry Shep! Didn't what to get you...and its REALLY alright if i dun get anything ok? I feel utterly terrible make you wreck you brains to get smt for me....its HONESTLY AND REALLY alright...the though is what counts and is what touched my heart....its really ok alright? Thanks so much...

Then went for servvice....argh...i still am in wonder how i spend...10 hours on one present!!!!! lol...oh no oh no...a bit blur at service la...help a bit for my parents CH so miss 1st part....then stayed a while longer in church to givee remainding presents (and thankfully giving the painstakining 10 houred one....i dun think i should try that again..lol....quite fun though!) and yeah...waited with Gavin for round 2 service!!! I still can't believe i went for 2nd round la...but 2nd service ppl more ra-ra haha! Think more ppl awake lol. Then after that went for lunch with Pst Dowdy and Meritus Mandarin...lol...parents and her were in such a theological discussion, it was more of a sermon....should have asked for alter call lol.

Then send her home, cam back at 5 slept till 8.30pm and went out again to watch ERAGON!!!! whoohoo! nice show..got biblical truth... haha. cool :D and came back at like 12...and now doing this.

Hope everyone else had a great Christmas Day coz today was the day that the Most Specialest Child was born! haha..in reality EVERYDAY is Christmas becoz of what ChristMAS means:

Christ My Almighty Saviour!

God bless everyone! Blessed Christmas!

SentoVivo 2: Memories of a Lifetime

2006-12-24T17:29:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

lol...haven't been updating for a while...been busy with Christmas. So much things to do!!! Argh!!! anyway....i think i've settled that for now..so yup..ok here goes

Sentovivo 2: Memories of a Lifetime

MORE detalied explanation (like always).
The Sheep Version

Day 1: Yayness and the Movie

Woke up really early today to start my Christmas shopping. 1st stop Davis! Got ****** his present, ** bucks! lol. Then walk walk a bit...shop all close....lol. Then saw photoshop and printed some photos....and came with free *****!! So haha...yay thankful coz now i can give **** a present haha. lol. Then shep called me up to say He can come out already..yay! So planned to meet him at PS. But be4 that had to go lunch with parents at Hotel Asia (newton). Next stop PS!

Bumped into Ming Feng and RG youths....really prayed they had a good and fruitful outreach.....hope many lives were saved because of them :D clr already at DBS audi setting stage. Praise God for such dedication! haha. Then saw kinda sleepy looking shep at KFC. lol...sorry for coming so late shep! Then he ate, and went to shop for other presents.......haha. so much fun.... then went to...

Toa Payoh interchange to meet School captain. he selling me Christmas cards at 10 bucks for like 11 cards! SOOO worthwhile waiting...then shep and i had lolipop in our mouth...kenna scolded by the guy....he say "you want me to book you issit"? I was so tempted to reply "Sure, just remember you're to blame because there are no dustbins around and the signboard said eating...we were not eating but sucking, enjoying and..yeah. So thanks to grammatical error....lol" anyway....aiya...crazy person...would like to meet him again...:D must share gospel haha!

Then went to my house.....used com for a while...oh! Be4 that we like ran for the bus haha...so funny. Then went on net...check for weather info..and lazed for a while before leaving house again for Sun Plaza! And shep was really high....going like "Khe-tib" instead of Khatib...lloll..then we saw this man who waited for the train but the door didn't open coz the trian was terminating there...so funny!!!!!!! He just stood there like "the train...!!!!" lol! we were laughing like crazy haha!!!!!!! lol..so reached...then went to EW ticketing counter....

I think i shocked the staff haha....coz when my mum's photocopied version of her credit card didn't work to claim tickets....the staff immediately called manager haha! But manager was kind la...she gave us the tickets anyway. :D Then ate kopitiam food....Shep ate herbal chicken and i ate korean food. Then we went yamaha to go tune all the guitars haha. lol. then went up for show....:D Night at the Museum rocks!!!! Everyone should go watch it.....lol. The place was cold...but Shep was super super super kind! Haha...i got so much body warmth from him lol...thanks shep! SOoooo touched. :D then movie ended we went back to YCK mrt. Then parents picked us and went back home :D

>>>Taken at YCK MRT

Then we erm...letz see, when to the park with Wonderful and Precious....actually roadside la haha. Then I taught shep to play like.......4 songs! He super fast learner....though he has a lousy teacher haha! yay! then came back home in time be4 heavy rain came haha. Then played somemore, helped shep wrap his presents, and tested Arsenal out! And then packed up...

>>> A very pro tech-shep coiling my wires! thanks!

haha and slept for the night at 4am lol.....

Day 2: SentoVivo!

Woke up really early next morning....and took public transport to harbourfront. Had ya kun for breakfast....really sorry shep...didn't feel very well. praise God was ok thereafter... Thanks for dragging me to a corner to pray for me! really touched! Then erm....went for cable car ride to Sento..! haha! so fun! took pics...:D

>>>On the Cable car...

And yup.....God is really good....it was raining earlier but it stopped whn we on cable car! haha!
And our first stop was the bicycle shop! Took a bus to Siloso Beach, then took tram in wrong direction...but at least can look-see around haha. Then took a tram going the right way to go get ourselves some bikes! The best way to travel around Sentosa :D

>>> Taken on the tram!

>>>If anything goes wong can go find driver and scold...

>>> Adverstisement taken by Samsung cam lol

>>> Good Singapore citizen :D

>>>Happy Feet. Lol

Then we cycled around....took a pics and stuff....and after that we went to the beach! tram driver say no kayak....WHAT!?!? Nearly shocked me lol....didnt feel well at some point in time on bike...sorry shep.....then after seeing that miraculously got kayak...i suddenly felt better! yay!
So yup....we were adventurous to take single kayaks! Lessons from BB paid off hahaa! Had sooooo much fun.....slightly wet. haha.....then he went to suntan on the beach haha! I just went along....frighten mum scold me say why i suntan haha sorry! Here are some pics....

>>> Beach bums...

>>> If u can't see it says Shep and Sheep :D

>>> A Right Here Waiting Pic

>>> Yayness....

haha! shep can go for modelling already haha! so hot...but erm...i shan't put the photo up or i might become lamb chop lol. So yeah thats for beach fun...then went chairlift and luge-ing!!!! haah....here...

>>> Sento Backdrop

>>>Headgeared and Ready to go!

>>> Feets going airborne!

Haha! Had a super duper fun fun fun time! lol. Then after that we bus back to Cable car entrance and yeah....went back to Singapore lol. Final pics from Sento...

>>> We owned the cable car haha

>>> Santa Gene. Malay Boy! haha

and yeah...after that we went to Keith's house for the L Cell BBQ. lol...i feel super supper bad la....crash in like that....then swam....water too cold...cannot tah han long enough lol.....then went back with shep, sheppy and nathan..and yes! something wasn't right with me!!!! emo-me...so yeah....didn't talk much...didn't want to say much.....EU was really high...why i dunno but it was really unstable....one wrong word and i think i might just blow....(Inez was just gonna exp when she realised it and stopped :D) so yeah...sorry guys...

Reach home, then went park with estella and grace. Here's what happen:

>>>Estella had a failed attempt in taking a stunt. It became a super random pic lol

>>> Monkeying around...

Then later went back....talked, jam, and yeah..suppose to cook maggi mee but slept...mum still downstairs and she didn't sleep till 4am! so ah!!!! sorry shep!!!!!!

Day 3: Start of a new Journey

Next morning woke up late...really late. Rushed to Seletar Country Club to have fun! haha! Played pool first! Super awesome! haha

>>> Pro Shep

>>> Pro Sheep

>>> Pro-derful Shep!!

>>> Pro-derful Sheep!

Yes!! if you're wondering both occasions the ball when in LD haha. Then we had lunch. Had to pay for him cause he guests lol. Then we went swimming!!!!

>>>Out of the water

>>> :D

>>> Right Here Waiting

>>> Right Here Waiting

>>> Last Pic..

I truly had a wonderful 3 days with shep.......thanks so much shep! this will last a lifetime. We MUST do it again sometime....:D

I think from this stay i can write another few things about shep lol.here goes:

102 things to be thankful and sorry to shep for.

THANKS:
1) For staying over!
2)For joining me go shopping
3) For not minding to wait for stuff
4)For crapping sooooo much
5) For the card with I am gonna read it over and over again to get emo
6) For giving me warmth in the cinema
7) For learning the guit SUPER fast!
8) For the fun day out in Sento
9) For dragging me to a corner and praying for me
10) For always making sure I'm feeling alright
11) For constantly forcing me to stop cycling to make sure I;m ok
12) For taking a single kayak
13) For cycling slower than me lol
14) For stopping me again at the bus stop
15) For chairlift and luge ride
16) For not being THAT blur at Cablecar Station
17) For letting me and forcing me to decide where to eat for lunch
18) For not talking at some point in time for lunch haha
19) For allowing me to bump into Keith's house
20) For making Keith allowing me to his house
21) For having the cabbing idea
22) For still checking to see if i;m ok
23) For going to playground
24) For doing a stunt, although it failed lol
25) For jamming again!
26) For Eq-ing
27) For coiling my wires
28) For not minding us not having supper..
29) For waking up with only 2 taps...
30) For teaching me how to play pool!
31) For explaining to me the game
32) For teaching me the pro-ded stunt haha
33) For being so pro and pool!
34) For being a guest so my dad can pay for you :D
35) For the swim!
36) For getting the lifeguard to nearly scold us haha
37) For taking pics lol
38) For taking RHW pics haha!
39) For going sauna!
40) For making sauna so hot!!!!
41) For making the temperature 100 F
42) For making it 20 mins..
43) For 1-40 again
44) For gelling my hair!!!!
45) For praying for like 2 meals out of so many
46) For crapping so much!
47) For so many fun and memoriable events
48) For showing so much love to your sheep
49) For being so caring towards your sheep
50) For staying up so late every night
51) For the Christmas Card...its super touching..i get emo when ever i i read it!
52) For everything you've done :)

SORRY:
1) For troubling you to rush for a confirmation
2) For waiting for me be4 shopping
3) For shopping with me when you got everything already
4) For not crapping as much
5) For getting emo over your card!
6) For the transfer of warmth....made you cold
7) For having a lousy teacher
8) For the super early morning Sento trip
9) For making you pray for me..
10) For making you worry somuch
11) For constantly forcing me to stop cycling to make sure I;m ok
12) For taking a single kayak, when u wanted a double
13) For being so slow on the bike
14) For stopping me again at the bus stop
15) For taking the wrong tram at first!
16) For not...wait i'll skip this one :)
17) For letting me and forcing me to decide where to eat for lunch
18) For not talking at some point in time for lunch
19) For making yoou allow me to bump into Keith's house
20) For making Keith allowing me to his house
21) For not doing much at the pool
22) For like stoning...
23) For making you push me on swing lol
24) For doing failed stunt attempt
25) For doing on the jam work
26) For making coil my wires
27) For not able to have supper
28) For teaching me how to play pool...coz i dunno how the rules
29) For explaining to me the game..coz i stilll dunno rules
30) For not winning properly (2 times you it wrong balll...ah! i feel sooo bad)
31) For not being so pro at pool!
32) For making you feel bad coz must pay for guest
33) For...skipped:D
34) For getting the lifeguard to nearly scold us haha
35) For taking pics with MY cam only
36) For *skip*
37) For *skip*
38) For *skip*
39) For *skip*
40) For *skip
41) For 1-40 again
42) For makign you gel my hair
43) For not praying for 2 meals..
44) For crapping so much!
45) For *skip*
46) For making you too concern about me
47) For maing you too worried for me!
48) For staying up so late every night
49) For the Christmas Card...its super touching..i get emo when ever i i read it!
50) For feeling bad :(

ah.........:( anyway...

*Shep: Thanks so much for staying over! its one stayover i'll never forget.....prayerfully we'll do it again :D

Service after that was cool! Got to serve..but 4got to find out which team i serving in next year...bleh....had dinner with Ho's, Lincoln's . haha, yup...

~4ver Remembered too~

Here I Go!

2006-12-21T07:03:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

OH dear......i haven't posted for a while...so i shall post now! at like...7am? lol....dunno why can't sleep...think too excited already haha!!!!! Coz i'm going on another date! A prayerfully memoriab;e ddate i'll never forget for the rest of my life......

Well...things need to be done 1st! sorry to ALL who might not get their Christmas presents by this sat...my brain is really dead after slacking for like....2 months can't think of what to get!!!! arrgh!!!! Actually all whom i thot of shouldn't be a prroblem...the only prroblem is where to get and how to write like....24 cards? lol....Lord pls help me.....

Officially gonna leave house later at about 9 and start the Prezzy Hunt Expedition! 1st stop: Taka!!!! Which reminds me i gotta go get something...(reminder for my self..TED!!!! UPLOAD PHOTOS ON CAMERA NOW YOU LAZY BUMP!!! *bish* me: ow....okok!) and yup...hopefully go there short while....see what i can pick up as well....u never know what you might find! haah

Next stop would be Plaza Sing! yesterday sooooooooooooo many shops closed! oh btw, i bought Keitht and moses their presents...yay me! haha. Ok aiming to ___ and ____ and ____ (does not coincide with no. of letters so dun bother guessing the shop name :D) I most probably will get as many presents for everyone here....so i think i gotta be fast...coz thats not all!!!

Last stop....Citty Hall, Funan; Davis Guitar. Andrew is like THE person lor....come up to me and straight in my face tell me what he wants...haha! Yay! solve me headache haha! So gonna pick his up......I think i shall remind myself again...

lletz see:

Budget: $100 cash, ??? cashcard
Cutoff timee: 4.30pm

And after that i better be home!!!! Gotta get ready for the date :D haha
This will be the most memoriable one..for me...haven'tt even start yet I think i'l remember it already, coz i have officially been reminded by mum that in exchange for the date, I shall give my Christmas presents! lol. I think its worth the while la...besidess tthe things i asked isn't really imporatant......think friendships costs like sooooo much more than worldly possesions, so its worth the while! haha! At leeast can go shopping today to get everyone their presents! i think i;m really happy already hehe..

Ok...what else should i say? lol i think thats all....:D Cya!

Blessings before the Journey

2006-12-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

+How Sentimental it is depends how u read it

Yup.....hi ppl...just back from the camp. And to sum it all up....its really just the following. Through the games and worship and workshops and bonding...I thinks its basically that God has spoken to me....ok...not really but God has shown me and asked me to do something which i never occured i would be fit for doing....

I always though i wasn't good enough and somehow there was a blockage between what I can do and God's destiny for me. On one hand, i know now its a lie from the enemy! on the other hand...perhaps I have been brought up that way......i just realised that maybe it could be partially statements from my parents that has all along make me feel this way about myself. In my eyes, i;m a weakling.....and I;m not worthy enough for God to use me....there are so many people out there! Why me!? I;m like a nobody....like a beggar in the courts of an Almighty King....

But through this camp, God has revealed a plan i never though and dreamt i could have. God has reminded me how special I am in His Eyes. And I am most certianly not a weakling because God has made me and moulded me to become a Warrior for Him! ( and praise God i screwed something again...this time is really bad coz its an sms!!!!...ooops ok!) So I shan't dwell on the past!

Its going to be a journey of faith, but i think i've received a lot of encouragements from the few and trusted ones that I have shared about....so I think God is faithful and has already assured me 2wice thru 2 adults leaders. What issit i;m talking about? don't tell you....haha.

:The following is dedicated to a very special fren......and erm...hmm....

101 reasons why Shepherd has blessed Sheep:

To thank:

1) For coming up with the idea!!
2) For faithfully taking care of the sheep
3) For nearly almost always there for the sheep (he can't be superman..ALWAYS being there..)
4) For inviting 1 more shepherd to help take care of the sheep!
5) For always looking out for the sheep
6) For simple things like *tagging* and *pulling* the sheep alongside
7) For allowing sheep to go on his bed during a camp
8) For not being angry when sheep messes the bed up.
9) For teaching the art of 2getherness when its "smell nice" time (...)
10) For not scaring sheep by telling him about his past
11) For taking the intiative to be the one that started tis thing!
12) For waiting patiently until this section is finish...
13) For taking water for s thirsty sheep during the same camp
14) For eating with the sheep^^
15) For still looking after the sheep after sheep's 1st camp
16) For willingly taking the responsibility to take care of sheep throughout! :D
17) For making fun *with* the sheep!!!!
18) For ganging with other frens to make fun *with* sheep!
19) For still doing 18 for like a super long time!
20) For still faithfully waiting as I still got 4/5 +1 more to go.
21) For constantly trying to find new ways to make fun *with* sheep
22) For still remembering sheep after split to 2 diff service times
23) For still *tagging* sheep when walking around church....like 3 times around it?
24) For still continuing have the sounds of laughter as a result of *fun* with sheep!
25) For making sure the sheep has *fun* during those times....
26) For finally not seeing each other for some time...and still remembered
27) For after the long time still remembering sheep!!!
28) For still doing from 21-27 for some time..
29) For making 28 seem so long...
30) For making 29 seem so much longer
31) For bringing a complete stop thereafter!
32) For understanding how sheep feels
33) For patching up the shepherdhood
34) For allowing a renewal to take place
35) For understanding more and more of sheep
36) For allowing sheep to understand more and more of shep
37) For once again taking the intiative to do stuff...
38) For the look of joy of his face when sheep gave his 1st teddybear to the shep
39) For making sheep spend a double digit on the present
40) For sustaining 2/5 of the section!
41) For the 40 reasons mentioned above!!!
42) For being blessed with 41 reasons so far!
43) For still sustaining after a long time....43 reasons worth
44) For (by faith) laughing over at the past few reasons and not feeling bad about it! :D
45) For resparking the whole thing again in 2005
46) For somehow being in the same cell
47) For still remembering the sheep
48) For still doing 47
49) For gladly receiving stuffed sheeps and cards!
50) For coming this far! half way more to go!
51) For going a long way in taking care of the sheep
52) For publitizing the shepherdhood
53) For proving that he is capable of running a shepherd business in future
54) For gladly coming sheep house for the very 1st time in 2005
55) For gladly receving sheep into his house for the very 1st time in 2005
56) For letting sheep knows that the shepherd cares
57) For sharing with sheep more & more secrets like background
58) For finally understanding why sheep shouldn't have known shep's background 3 years ago
59) For able to be a blessing since reason 1-58
60) For still going on! 2/5 left to go!
61) For being able to see how shep has changed after how many years!
62) For being GENTLE with sheep (prophtically)
63) For still trying to be GENTLE with sheep (great job!)
64) For still sharing more secrets with sheep
65) For trusting sheep to keep the secrets
66) For still trusting sheep to keep secrets
67) For keeping sheep's secrets
68) For still keeping sheep's secrets
69) For still always looking out and after sheep
70) For making the last 69 reasons really memoriable and worthwhile
71) For gelling sheep's hair for the 1st time!
72) For allowing sheep to stay at shep's house
73) For still remembering sheep after going to different sections
74) For allowing another shepherd to take care of sheep
75) For making sheep feel privileged
76) For for really making sheep feel reallly really blessed
77) For still taking the effort to be with sheep after service
78) For saving seats during service for sheep
79) For the smallest and seemingly unnoticable acts that sheep really appreciates :D
80) For making the next 21 reasons the best
81) For going on Vivo expedition with sheep
82) For owing sheep a SentoVivo trip (hehe)
83) For bringing sheep to go macs more often!
84) For spending little times with sheep
85) For persevering till 84 before finally sleeping lol
86) For letting sheep feel special and loved
87) For little words and actions of blessing sheep acknowledges
88) For this section to still carry on to 101 :D
89) For sleeping so that sheep won't get pressured (jk..heh)
90) For being with sheep as much as he can
91) For excersing the fruits of the spirit on sheep
92) For constantly trying to improve his self-control ability
93) For being more than a shepherd to sheep
94) For somehow being God's instrument in making sheep happy when sad
95) For being sensitive to sheep's feelings
96) For EVERY prayer that he has prayed for sheep
97) For every single embraces that is has touched sheep...no matter how random it was.
98) For a really touching hug and prayer that has touched sheep the most
99) For the little water droplets found on sheep's arm after 98 and vice-versa!
100) For letting sheep understand what true friendship means
101) and finally....for just being a friend to a sheep who needs frens in this world.

Really thank God for a faithful shepherd like him!!!
Feeling: blessed, touched, overwhelmed, emo-ed, and loved
after counting my blessings.....there are more than 101 reasons i;m sure but these 101 are most probably the best :D feeling like the happiest sheep in the whole world!

~Thanks Shep~

*By faith i have released him into Adam....goodbye but not farewell :D*

Test Of Friendship

2006-12-08T01:25:00.000+08:00

+Sentimental Perspective

Prayerfully, i hope this will be my last few post about the multiplication. Think the church has done its part in trying to help people understand the reason for the multiplication. For Ignyte, it is an exciting time here, but also a pretty sad moment coz we'll be leaving our frens. We have a preview of the Ignyte@PL which i'll be going to! Its really cool! lol....

Just this week, i was still pretty much thinking about it. Then suddenly, this 3 words came to me "Test Of Friendship". Had a sudden flashback of all the frens I have in Ignyte who I am close to and whom I know well. Looking back, God has indeed open doors of opportunities for me to have frens and to experience fellowship. Guess God know I need earthly and godly frens and fellowship with people. Coz their my earthly pillar of support (other than the Main Pillar, Jesus Christ of course).

Why those 3 words? I began to realise that....erm..hmm....and felt that God was trying to tell me this: If we are really close with our frens, and since we'll be multiplied and won't be together anymore, all the we SHOULD be closer and find time to catch up more. I think it makes sense to me. We've been like frens for a long long time or just recently...but if we're really true frens, we somehow should be closer and spend more time together to make up for the time we can't see each other in church.

Perhaps God is reminding me of how I have been a steward of my frenship, whether i have been multiplying the frens I have and being committed to them. Think I must have pass it pretty well, the fact that God gave me more and more friends. But now I think its a personal test for me....to see how strong those bondages are between each one of them. Whether did i made an effort to strengthen it or not. Thats personally how I feel how God wants me to look at it. If they are what they should be, then we'll be like finding ways to meet up and catch up. I guess that would really determine how our friendship has been all this time.

I don't think this post goes to me alone but to anyone out there who is in a period of transition like I am..and has the issue about friends. I'm sure God doesn't want to break close frienship just because He wants to...but perhaps giving us opportunities to grow closer even though we're separated. Just got reminded of David and Jonathan. They were the best of friends. King Saul eventually came into the picture and preevented a blockage in their friendship. But did that stop the 2 from being close friends? Of course not! they still secretly meet up are still as close as before.....AND stronger bondage!

I feel that is how God wants me to look at it. devil may try to use this way to make people feel angry and sad about the transition and dun wan to move. But he can't stop if God is there to help protect the bondage and if both parties are committed to stay close when separated. Physical circumstances may be an obstruction, but the invisible bondage is still there as long as we have faith to belive God is still in charge and will not let the friendship break. Perhaps when we're willing to let go of the things we hold so dear to us....He'll bless us with more than we had intially.

I still believe God will not break up friendships like that for no reason and I have faith that He will help sustain the bondage, as long both sides are willing to still be faithful to each other. So for those who are still sad about this, hope you'll see it the way I see it...the way that God sees it.

God bless :D

~Friends are friends 4ever, if the Lord's a Lord of them~

Post@AMK NLB

2006-12-07T19:25:00.000+08:00

Hello! This is really lame i know...but I'm at AMK National Library posting! lol. manage to sign uup for the free internet access and here i am using it lol. So much for reading in here...lol. Yup, using my laptop now. Connection not very stable but...praise God! I;ve found a pretty good location now and right beside me is a powerpoint to recharge my almost dead TEDBOOK! haha. really cool! :D shall refer to the previous post la...testing to see if can work. haha....think i spend about 2 hours alr? lol....shall explore more :D

P.S those who want to add me....bleh.... i;ve done the lame thing since i first saw googles. and thats to get a friendster account lol...add then add la haha...dunno if will use much anyway. Blogger is still HQ :D

http://www.friendster.com/tedbear92

ok bye! signing off :D

The Music Life

2006-12-06T00:48:00.000+08:00

+Sentimental Perspective

Its been some time since i wanted to do this, and i shall do it like...now!!

The Music Life- by me

Music....haha. I love music! its like..i dunno..its just that I think i'm musically inclined. Dunno how to describe it la but its just.....think I;m crazy over it right now.

The really cool thing is that music is created for and to worship God! Its most commonly known to be with worship. Songs..worship...yeah. And yup, thats basically where the origin of music is born i suppose. Really thank God for music!!

Thats like really long ago.....Bible times there were mentions of worship and songs. Look around and we'll see how the world evolved. From harps (they still have btw!) to guitars. from stringed instruments to electronic ones. Guess we've upgraded ourselves. lol. Bible worship instruments and methods might be diff then our modern day ones i think....but the main thing that everyone shares in common is that its all for God. I think everyone needs to bear that in mind. We don't jump or clap or sing just for the sake of doing, but its a form of rejoicing and praise to our Father God and it comes from our hearts! Its all to God!

Psalms 115:1 says, "Not to us, O Lord, not to us but to Your Name be the glory, because of Your love and faithfulness"

Its all for, to Him! Guess I'm pretty much living on that verse. hehe. But hmm....what has the world become? First it was classical and wordless music. then came the romantic love songs. then songs about other people and more more other inspirations. Basically seems like a lot of songs are not about God anymore. Its for personal things.....other things...everything but to God. The world has changed turned the heavenly purpose of music around and used it for themselves. whats worse it that more people are turning to what we call "secular" music, which means "worldly music" (thanks clr!). The sad thing is that more people are turning to these secular music.

Personally, i don't really have a die-hard issue about these, but how does God feels when something that he has created and made good be utterly change by the world and turned bad too! I;m sure it hurts Him to see people enjoying and even sharing with others it! Songs haas turned so bad they are even exahlting sa.tan ITself! I;m sure God is hurt. Songs were created so that we can sing praises to Him. isn't that our main purpose when we reach heaven? To praise Him all day long?

Clarence is one who doesn;t stand by secular music. AT first in the SFC Worshipper's Party, he told us that we shouldn't be listening to seccular music. At first i was quite dissappointed, because i couldn't find any wrong in them. Thats exactly it! Its an "in" thing now and its so common in the world now, its just an ordinary thing! Its "cool" and erm...basically it has become part of everyone daily life. Music has lost its true meaning already.

But like me, i;m sure alot of people will say, "whats wrong with secular music?" Even Disney channel has great music! Yeah i agree. I like their music too! But those music are worldly music after all. They don't praise God ...(unless the composer is a Christian...?) It comes down to the point it is NOT to God. I personally have nothing against it, in fact i think i like some of the songs too. But the bottomline is it is NOT to God. I just don't listen to them after a while.

People are so involve in secular music. Friends all around me like secular music too! But there are some i just lliterally wish not to be a part of. The world has used music to praise sa.tan. One form is backmasking. which is the next point. Google has a lot of info about if. just type the word "backmasking". What is it? Its like a secret message in the song when played backwards. Sounds cool right? WRONG! Its associated to satanic music...check wikipedia out for more details. But thats part of today's worldly music. No one knew that "Stairways to Heaven" when backmasked is a totally different thing. It saddens me that satan is using music for his own personal glory. But i thank God for godly songwriters who just want to to everything they can to give glory to God.

See how terrible secular music has become? Of course there are great ones out there, but the bottomline is that, sadly, it is not to God. No matter how nice a secular song is, it is not to God. Its worldly music, for the world or to someone or for something but to HIM and Him alone. it sad that there is this other side of music. I understand how Clarence feels about secular music now. I think God has given me a new perspective of music. I can't entirely say that God hates this kind of music, but i know that He must have felt sad when people are turning to secular music and worst, don't like godly music.

Although I don't understand these kind of people, but i;m sure God does. He has such compassion for us that i can;t even understand. From the last sentimental perspective, I did mention about the "ted is pro" thing. Think i shall say it again. I AM NOT PRO!!!! If not because of God, ii wouldn't be here today. Yes, i affirm the wonderful talent God has given me and I would most def like to use to be a blessing and as a way of evangelism to the people around me. But pls DON'T say i;m pro and i;m good. I rather you put it God is GOOD to have given me such talents. I'm starting to dislike people telling me i;m a pro and whatsoever. Then where does God comes in? It gives so much temptation to receive all the glory and think that I;m super pro! But i don't want that to happen. God gave me this talents. He can take them back anytime He wants. I want to keep this talent not for my sake. I pray that i'll use it as a form of evangelism to the people around me and to serve God in this way. Thats why I don't take secular music lightly nowadays, esp when its played on my guits. I mean...yeah go ahead...just that don't expect me to join and tag along in the fun.

My prayer ever since i stated learning the guitar is that every guitar that i hold in my hand would one way or another bring glory to God.

Humilty is a hard godly aspect for me too. Some says I;m over-humble. Maybe i dunno how to express it but...i think i face temptations too. If a humble person tells people that he is humble, wouldn't that be like...contradictive? Thats the irony. As humble as i hope to be, i can't achieve it, sadly. But lately, as i said, its more of a dislike then a preference when i 'become a pro'. Can it be for God please!! not me not me not me!!! NOT TO ME!!! Its for God, i have nothing to do with it, except I;m just His vessel. Some comments you might want to say can be rephrased and not "Hey! you damn pro man!" lol. thats totally wrong. lol.....so to ALL who sees this please please please please i;m begging you don't praise me as in...me. Thank God...and not me. thanks lol. Humilty is pointing everything to God. (thanks clr!)

ok coming back to the secular music thing. erm....i basically said my feelings about secular music. I know that most people who read this can;t seem to understand why i say all these, but thats my feelings. Pls just continue to have your own choice of music preferences....but i dunno, whether you take what i said today as just my feelings or something which you also feel the same. Its up to you.

Just want to end this post with this:

"Psalms 115: 1 I will praise the Lord all my life; I will sing praises to Him as long as I live"

Botanical Roadside Date With Shep

2006-12-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

+ Life As It Is

Hello! Back from a pretty cool day! Morning woke up at 11.30pm, and erm mum was like going crazy...rushing here and there.....lol. I think I;m smart! manage to use friction to get water from the fridge without manually pushing the button haah! lol...left for church after that.

On the way stop by at AMK Macs to buy lunch! haha...drive thru Macs!! so cool! like ages haven't been to such a cool...thing! haha....so cool. ordered fillet o fish.....then dad drove me to church. thanks dad!!

Bumped into Shep and Sheppy.....they were going crazy larz.....super nutz....lol. Very very traumatizing haha...lol....then went for L Cell. Sis Ju sort of lead e worship...lol.saved! haha. went down for service earlier. was i/c again haha...privilege lol.... renewed a vision and a dream in service! Praise God! haha. Fuel was cool too :D and now for the date :D After service genna force to play Birthday song for Bro Zhi Hao! llol!!!! so impromptu everyone looking at me!!!!! lol......poor precious again......lol.....dun make me do that again! haha....super trembbling...

Super random....parents actually allowed me to go macs haha :D And shep was like..."lets go Botanical gardens" alone with me haha! So yay...super surprised but cool! So ordrered mac wings and went off our date! haha! Took the wrong turn and ended up at......some gallop road or smt lah haha! Then decided to sit on pavement curb to eat! hshs! talking and crapping lol......then some indian guy came and took a taxi. turn inside and walked out to main road to do the same thing....super weirdd! haha!!!! lollol.....

later walked to Botantical Gardens......haha! bumped into Gid and Benn along the way. then walked to a bench near the lake. Super.....romantic? haha! cool! then talked about private stuff (just our personal walk....) and yeah...SHEP! i hope my erm....response to your problem was alright....believe that the warmness in you will warm the hearts of the ppl around you :D Precious tagged along and she was pretty awake i think! PLayed a few songs lol then went back to macs.....

Precious was tortured by like so many peopl!!!! all playing her at once...sorry Precious! thank God she can withstand such......pressure lol. Will do a Sentimental Post later for some...clarifications. Had a lot of time crapping with ppl like Xue, Isaac, Abby, Keith( yeah!!!!! we noob, the rest pro haha!) Mo, Bro ZC etc etc lol. and Shep and Sheppy! haha!!!!!

Mo gave me a ride home...so nice!!!! thanks mo! your parents so cool! haha...then yuup back here mugging haha!

+Sentimental Perspective

The Story behind my Humilty

Ok look....some clarifications to all who claims I'm pro. I;m not!!!!!! I've got much to learn.....

Phil 2:3-4 says "Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit; but in humiltyconsider others better tthan yourselves. Each of you should look not only at your own interests, but also to the interest of others.

Although might be crapping and joking and haha just trying to "play humble", deep down I meant what i say. I know whats call over-humble as well, might have express my humility in a over-humble way....i apologise but, I literrally feel pressured and unworthy of such praises. Why don't thank God for giving these skills to people like me? I am weak but Thou Art strong! I deserve no credit! So please to all, dun keep saying I;m pro....the pro one is my Heavenly Father. I will refuse as much as possible to take hold of any of my guits and just play like that. It brings me much joy to see otthers play.....really! God has given me this talent, and I only want to use it for His glory and for nothing else, and for the ppl around me it really puts a smile on my face when others play godly songs :D

Quite unhappy about earlier though....coz like some ppl were playing circular music! lol. i dunno....no offence guys....its just me. been taught by clr. some guy i dun even know just took my guit and play lol....Precious wasn't even preapred and he just started doing super circular music. I dunno....maybe its just me?

I prayed for all my musical equipment tthat itt shall be used only for the glory of God, either classical or godly songs are in my vocabulary. or as long its not too circular...i dunno. somehow will feel sad when such my guits are played with those songs......feel i;m compromising too much! i dunno actually, i just don't feel as i would normally feel when ppl play circular songs....think its realy just me...

but no worries, just go ahead....won't say anything...just dun ask me to play those songs coz i literally won't bother to play......and dun force me into it as well....might gget angry and emo....lol. As for my guits....i suppose its alrightt la.....maybe its just me....but i just won't be feeling very normal.

Precious, Wonderful, Keepsake, Blessing and Treasure and all other musical equipments are all to be used only for the Glory of God and nothing else.

Thats basically it........i dunno...but erm....i'll def won't behappy (neither will my guitts be) if a super circular song is being played on it...lol..sorry to all.....

~Hope you'll respeect my descision. No right or wrong....its just my choice....~

~Shep! Sunset next sat ok? thanks for enjoyale date! really touched :D~

Music Talk

2006-12-02T01:23:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

Hi! dunno what to post about so haha erm.....haha...kinda high and crazy now...like always :D

Chari!!!!!! Rights! name your bro's children lovelee, wonderful lee, haah!! lily lee!!! lol
Shep!!!!!! can i break the silence now? lol...still chocolate-hungry> lol!!!

ok! Introducing my Musical family:D

Ted's Family of Music

F- Female. M- Male

Family:
(F) Wonderful, the melodic and beauiful CLASSICAL. Wife of Keepsake
(M) Keepsake, the harmonic and sturdy CLASSICAL. Husband to Wonderful
(F) Precious, the pinked and graceful ACOUSTIC
(M) Treasure, the blued rocking and noisy ELECTRIC
(M) Blessing, the blessed and versatile BASS

(M) Scream, the Samick AMPLIFIER
(M) Shout, the Bass AMPLIFIER

Cousin:
(M) Together, the "kiap"ing maple CAPO
(F) joinT, the always-right illuminated TUNER
(M) Arsernal, the heavily-equipped SOUND MIXER

(M) Bluple, the blue and 1st CABLE
(F) Greple, the green and 2nd CABLE
(M) Blacaple, the black and 3rd CABLE

Frens:

(M) Crybaby, the high-frequency and little Crybaby PEDAL
(M) Distorty, the noisy one, PEDAL

haah! will get and name more when i get the inspiration haaha!

yay! Got my March Classical exam pieces already!

1)Allegretto
2)Andantino
3)Waltz

4)Prelude
5)Allegro Vivace
6)Andante

1) Mastered! haha easy and pretty cool! need to take note of slurs and hammers...
2) So diminished and chordish! Not tune :( will try to mem it..lol...TRY. a challenge
3) Haven't learn yet tho. there is one bar than has 16 semiquavers together! crazy lor!! see faint alr......

4) Got Chord strumming! haah lol....hard to remember also..but still can...:D working
5) After 1 year, i found the song!!! haah, 86% there already, in just 2 ddays! haha
6) Not learned yet,,,,,no comments :D

Well, pray for me that I'll master ALL of them by March 07. Ask me to play if u want but hehe..no garuntees will get all right pai seh....hehe

Wonderful & Keepsake are my truimph cards for this exam! :D

KumaU Cinta Yesus Selemanya

2006-11-28T23:28:00.000+08:00

Yup! As you can see its my latest fav song....really touching. refresh this page to get back to the lyrics! enjoy!

P.S thanks ecneralx!

Dead Fast Dead Furious: Pahang Drift!

2006-11-28T09:17:00.000+08:00

Hi Everyone!!!! I'm back from Pahang!!! super tired yesterday so couldn't blog much. lol. actually, i didn't blog at all. lol. Ok...erm....here goes my adventure. Its not so pictorial coz didn't take much pics..... ok here goes the Movie Story haha!

P.S +LFAI is my exp. +SP are the encounters :D

+Life As It Is: First Mission Trip

DEAD FAST DEAD FURIOUS: PAHANG DRIFT
24 November 2006~27 November 2006

~The Story from Ted's Account

Day 1: Detoured!

OK! So here goes! Woke up at 6am....did one last packing and off i went to school! My folks send me off....met the gang there. Waited for the rest, took a grp photo and hit the road! Was sitted alone with Bag (My guitar bag)and Precious (My Pinked-stringed guitar), and my campp bag! coz bus compartment not enough space :( no worries though. Left school....Rev Michael Teh prayed for us before we left, so sad he couldn't go.

Reached....oh dear! I forgot the link! the newer one la.....then alighted.....got to know the CHS people a bit better....cleared customs and off we went again...another...5 hours!!!! So wad we do? Was forced to play guit for 5 hours haha....sing songs....just singing la.....Su and Chari though i was pro....aargh!!!!! WHy does everyone say I'm pro? I:M NOT!!!! I;m just an ordinary Teddy Bear! The pro one is God....so ppl should thank Him for giving me the skills and not thank me for the skills! lol....everyone's gettting it all wrong.....*sigh* Ku Mahu Ci.....ooops! anyway Yeah....played.....stopped a couple of times rest points.....didn't buy much though. Mrs Ang made me carry her stuff, Pastor Ben asked me to carry 4 1.5l water bottles, Julian ask me to hold stuff, had to take Andrew's items for a while....lol!!! Chari was laughing like crazy....coz i was like everyone's "trolley" lol. All dumped on me :( sigh.....

Hit the road again...stopped at just toilet breaks.....played, sung, SLEPT!!!! haha....not bad la...then finally reached Raub at 6pm or so. Apparently, thoughout the trip, the bus had many crazy encounters like coming head on towards an oncoming car.....thank God the car turned or might have accident. The bus driver was crazy la!!!! crazy bus driver haha.... We stopped at the church there.....but we couldn;t go base camp coz the pastor there said that it will be rainging very heavily...and erm...landslides and other stuff might happen, so we had to stay in the church for the night.

After that had dinner...forgot what is was but ITS CHILLI!!!!!!! ARGH!!!! ate really little lor :( nvm la, i also not so fussy about food. Then after that we saw a video presentation by Gospel For The Poor, the people who are evangelising to the OA. WHat they did and had to do was erm.....dangerous stuff. haha, but the pastor, Pastor Moses, said we are like in pri sch...so we do only pri sch things lol.... before we slept for the night, Pastor Ben said we needed to split ourselves into 2 groups for day 2:

Group 1: Do labour first before going for the night ministry
Route A~Another Village~: Will be staying at another village from the night.

Group 2: Do Afternoon Ministry then the labour
Route B~ Base Camp~: Will be staying at base camp.

Yup. SO much discussion...i was suppose to go grp * but coz the other side was "spiritually low", as pst Ben said, so haha, shifted to grp *. So yup, after that played more guit, and slept...... actually couldn't sleep.

*Refer to Sentimental Perspective: Encounterz #1* A boy from the church who was scared of ghost came over, and erm...he insisted that i teach him guitar, but he spoke chinese and i;m not good! lol. Thankg God pastor Ben was there to help.....then er. we prayed for him, he slept with us.....but aiya.....so disturbing....keeep waking me up..like hyper. lol slept at 5am, poor andrew knocked out alr...super cold!!!!! my sleeping bad was used as blanket for andrew, me and that boy. lol. He finally slept...and so did I....lol. woke at 6am...1 hour sleep!!!

yup thats day 1! here are the postings:

Group 1/Route A
~Liwei
~Samuel Tan
~Mr. Mah
~Jeremy Pan
~Pastor Lee (their local pastor)

and under them are...

-Alan
-Nicholas
-Jonathan Mok
-Jonathan Ting
-Brannigan
-Leon
-Jaren
-Aldris
-Benjamin Ang
-Theodore Koh

Group 2/Route B:
~Pastor Ben
~Rina
~Mrs Ang
~Gabriel (Gummy!!!!)

and under them are....

-Charissa
-Susanna
-Amy
-Andrew (yes, andrew lee)
-Timothy
-Aloysius
-Basil
-Jonathan Phang
-Julian
-Jeremy Lim

-and the whole village. haha!

Yup. So thats Day 1, where did I go???

Day 2: Group 1/Route A, Best Day Ever!

if you refer to the posting under grp 1/rou A, highlight the blank space after Ben Ang. haha! if u had done that before reading, you're super smart, of not, haha. Its alright, was being lame anyway. haha!

OK, woke up. The toilet was pretty good, closetted, but manual flush. Bathed with hose...super cold but shiok! haha. Then had breakfast....more like lunch . chilli again!!!! Then packed stuff and left! Sit a van to the start of the jungle trail. Precious was with....oops! forgot who. Anyway, sat on the second 4 by 4 Hilux vehicle. Guess who's the driver: Pastor Lee. lol. Pastor Lee: A Pastor, A CRAZY "taxi" driver, a guitarist and a translator. He super "bao-ka-liao" haha!!!

(After Day 4, with our deepest gratitude, Pst Lee has achieved the following titles:
Dead Fast Dead Furious!
The Pahang Drift!
Dead Slow Dead Dangerous!
Craziest Driver)

he were second in line of the 3 trucks that were there. Was with the BB ppl, grp 1. Pst lee just over took them all and lol sped off without waiting. We though he was the crazy bus driver! hahaa!!! Alan got hit by trees branches all the way.....lol!!! Everyone on board laughed LITERALLYYfor one hour...super super crazy!!!! Everyone went retarded...lol. We were like the noisest bunch haha...the ppl behind us like no life...lol. Very bumpy, but exciting and fun. AND NOISY haha!!!! just plain noisy....must have gain 6 pecs after laughing so much! haah!!!!

Then we played this game of DFDF:PD, whereby all of us gain levels and exp by dodging the oncoming tree branches. haha. Sam though of that idea, coz we had to dodge plently off branches along the way so to make it more fun...haha..lol. results so far:

Nicholas-Lvl 50- Defender: Take oncoming branches so lightly, he just had to push them away while of us were dodging; no kick for him haha.

Alan-Unleveled- Unlucky: Got hit the most, gain lvl by crapping. Made everyone laugh for 1 hour plus

Jon Mok, Brannigan and Sam were more or less pretty good in their levels! Sam is gamemaster haha!

Jem Pan- Lvl 12- Decreasing: often drop levels due to falling down and getting hit by branches

Jon Ting, Aldris, Leon: Leeches, just stone there, or sit on our bags. It was so comfortab;e i think Jon Ting fell asleep!!!! He prob gain lvl bby sleeping, soemore can ask "what happen ar?" after arriving. lol!!!!!! Sleeper. haha.....laugh like crazy.

Pastor Lee- lvl to pro alr- 4 titles- as explained above

and me?

Ted- Lvl 43- Critical: High Dextirity, able to dodge oncoming objects at a super critical time. hehe

Yup. thats about it. took a really long time. reached base camp in the afternoon.....had lunch there. Chilli stuff again!!! *sigh* Then went to out hut. haha. yeah. bamboo hut. prettty cool, a lot of rooms, small but cozy. have a river view too! but not staying there anyway to nvm la. haha. Left for a village after that. our first village. Pst lee was our driver, again! haha. He die die also must be in the lead...lol overtook a truck haha! *refer to SP: Service #1*

Then after that went back to camp for another service lol. *refer to SP: Service #2*. It was a confusion because the grp 2 ppl were suppose to go for it only. ended up grp 1 went also. lol. so how? grp 1 made cement bricks for 2 hours first and grp 2 did the rest! haha! grp 1 made about 4 bricks because of the time some of us had to go collect sand from a nearby pond. its basically it, plus cement, mixed inside a turner and form it to make bricks! Did one with Alan.

And hey! I am NO WEAKLING!! Why everyone was surprised that i stepped forward to help Alan? lol...everyone looks down on me :( i;m not weak just because i don't like labouring lol! At least i realise i got perseverence and courage to step forward to help. And yes i shoveled the heavy sand and formed the bricks almost single-handedly until the village ppl who were helping us thot i couldn;t take it. sad......even they look down on me, but hey! i carried the whole brick and proved to the crows I AM CAPABLE coz God made me so! So next time anyone looks down on me like that....they better remember Who's their Creator hehe....I did it!

Ted is not weak. wait..Ted is weak but his God is strong!

So after that short 2 hours, grp 2 took over and we had dinner. i fasted because was nervous aboutt the night ministry. *refer to SP: Highlight*will explain more later. Pst Lee droved grp 1 again. haha. the ride was rather bumpy. Encountered the top 3 most scariest exp. haha.

3rd- A sudden depression. Super deep
2nd- Another depression, but couldn't see it. worse
1st- Dark alr....going up a steep slop when Hilux suddenly stopped and went backwards!!!!

It was 7pm alr when we left....suppose to be a short ride but Pan's calculations are always wrong lol. Saw many things on the way. It was really really pitch dark after a while. So it was really an exp i will never forget. Laugh like crazy again....then had 3rd and 2nd scary exp haha. 1st scary exp was really scary, like the whole thing gonna fall down! Really thank God for protecting us, coz we were literally in the mountain and clouds. felt the mist, now can tell Mrs Ang then we reached the clouds! haah. Lightning was seen also but thank God nothing happened to us :D

Arrived there at about 9pm.....*refer to SP: Highlight, which is the best, must read!* Service ended and had dinner. Had my first PROPER meal. the food was suuuppppeeeer delicious!!!!! i ate and ate...aldris and bran though i go crazy. they served tea with and without milk also. it tasted super good, exactly like secret recipe!!!!! SOOOO NICE!!!!!! They somore clear for us. The village ppl were nice :D Ended the night with some songs....haha. Dogs came in a number of time. Pan just had to sing "Then sings my soul.....!!!!!" and the dogs ran away. SUPER FUNNY!!! haha!!!! his voice probably scared the dog away, and not the song haha!!!!! haha

Cold night...dogs visited again and again. they could somehow unlock the door...lol. Attap hut like tt one la. SO out a red lightstick there to scare them off. Appaently ppl went to see stars at 3am....nvr wake me up!!! Ended day 2

Day 3: Pahang Drift!!

Woke up with Pst Lee in right in my face. Argh!!! prob went towards him. super scary haha! They said i was the most sound sleeper. haha.....no snore, no movements haha.Yup, thats just like me, Ted the Sound Sleeper :D Had fried rice and the tea for breakfast. Super nice! A dog came in, with chickens!! haha. lol. the roosters were the one that apparently woke the rest up, but not me. i just slept until they woke me up haha!

After brakfast, walked around the village. Saw dogs, roosters, chickens, goats, SHEEPS! Yes real sheeps!!! haha. Had a bit of fun in the nearby river. super cold! Ben was there to make sure i didn't fall, thanks Ben Ang! Liwei in the end wet me when i didn't want to get wet!!!! grr....then change, took a pic and left haha. went to another village......on the way he acquired the Dead Slow Dead Dangerous title. haha! *refer to SP: Service #4* then left for base camp.

Stopped by the real river area *refer to Sp: Encounterz #3* and left. haha. twice, a dog would challenge the 4 by 4 by blocking the road. but pst lee just went faster and the dog would just siam haha! so cool! Pst lee super crazy haha! had a lot a lot of fun!!!!!!!!!

Arrive back at base camp. We were like "Hallelujah!". and they went "Amen!" that is how the communicate here :D super cool! had lunch with them, finally reunited. Then packed up and went to the last village. On the way we change truck. I somehow landed myself in the inside if a truck with Nick, Andrew, Pst ben and myself. I so tired i think i slept on both Pst ben and drew...!!!! feel super bad :( haha. Then arrive at last village *refer to SP:Service #5* then left for the church. Not a very good ride coz it was hot, sleepy and humid lol. And it was going to rain. transfered to a van. Pan and Liwei wanted to act hero so that remained on the truck. It rained and...haha!!!!!! too bad for them lol

arrive in time for dinner. had a last service there. *refer to SP: Service #6* Then had fun! haha. PLayed more guit. my poor Precious had to last until midnight before taking a break lol. Had a lil worship session when andrew decidded to write a song....not sure if manage to complete but will pray for him :D then slept....really good :D ended day 3!

Oh i nearly forgot! Pst lee did the Pahang drift on day 3 hehe, ok. lol yay!!!!!!

Day 4: Back to Singapore

Was the last to wake up hehe :$:$ bathed...the water stopped alot of times coz a lot of ppl using at same time....so i ask the ppl outside choto for a while then resume haha! then had last breakfast. took a last pic and left for singapore! Precious was useful again and haha.....yup. stopped a lot of time coz aloysius needed to pee a lot of times haha. Ate A&W for lunch....50 bucks for 4 ppl haha! we ate a lot between me, drew, aldris and pan haha. then left for singapore.....wrote a song on the bus about our trip lol. must ask Chari for it haha!! yups thats about it!!!! really fun trip. Now for the main bit.

+Sentimental Perspective

Encounterz #1: Zi Guang And the Unsleepable Night

Yup. on the 1sy day of the stay in church. This guy name Zi Guang was interested in guitar and came over to join us and asked if we could teach. Being a bad teacher, I asked Pst Ben to help haha. he did so it was ok. taught him simplified D,A,G chords. lol. he however insisted that i play a song. lol! why me? anyway play. just play haha. He spoke in chinese, cantonese and malay only so couldn't talk much lol. he is 12 years old. short hehe. So why i write about him?

Zi Guang's encounter would be a lesson for me. one i hope would remain and increase constantly. He came to us when mostt of us were sleeping. i was reading the Bible, when he came over and sat next to me. After asking, he revealevd that he couldn't sleep because he was afraid of ghost. God suddenly showed me Joshua 1:5-6 which says,"....He will never leave you nor forsake you. Be strong and courageos" Thank God for Pastor Ben, who spoke pretty fluently in chinese, explaining to him and teaching what to do, like praying, trusting God etc. We prayed for him and later invited him to sleep with andrew and me if he wanted. After some time, he came.

but not to sleep! lol he kinda disturbed us lol. playing with my phone till 1 battery bar vanished! lol. he disturbed a few others, but finally slept at 3am. poor andrew and tim had to bear with him while i tried my best to get him to sleep lol.

But what Zi Guang learned applied to me as well. Trusting God. this would lead to the Highlight section actually. but yeah, Joshua 1:5-6 spoke to me as well. I was going alone without Pst ben or Andrew to another village, which means i;m their only guitarist. So i was quite worried, but i really thank God that thru Zi Guang God taught me about faith and trust in Him. He did it again.....teaching me Faith, in a gentle way :D

Encounterz #3: Rapid Rescue

This happen when we went to the main river rapid area on day 3, group 1 only! hah. we were the privileged ones. The current was strong and the rocks were with algae, making it slippery. one by one everyone fell into the river haha! literally slide down. i'm no exception. super freezing water!!!! haha. It all started when alan wanted to go pass a small fall in the water. he did. but the problem started when the rest of us mistook that is was ok to go. lol, there were shallow rocks all over!! it hit everyone. Painful haah, had one cut but no bruises. just pain lol. the strong current made it impossible to go back. aldris was nearly and literally swept away if it wasn't for Samuel who got hold of him in time. Joining hands, one by one, we helped one another to get back to safety.

God was there again. No doubt! Everyone managed to back to the safe area safetly. God worked through th adult leaders like Samuel to rescue Aldris. God sustained us and made sure we won't get swept away. through this encounters, God saved our lives, he saved mine. Unity was what brought us back to shore.

God provided many things around me when I;m having difficulties in my daily life, to make sure I get to the safe area. Really thank God for showing me yet again that He is in control and I don't have to worry about anything.

Service #1:Eye Opener

Basically their services were about the same. it was made up of mostly children and some adults. The first one we went to was really an eye-opener. They had guitarist, but the key was quite flat as the guitar quite old lol. Sang songs, malay one of course. Its really inspiring to see kids worshipping God by singing and participating! They do this everyday! The irony is that we have all the time in our own society today to worship God, but we don't. some people dun even come for services. Whereas there, they have so much freedom.....

Presented the song items to them and just sat and listen to Pst Lee speak...in Malay. Jon Phang gave his testimony...

Service #2: Pastor Ben's Revelation

Held at the church at base camp where both groups went. lol. Similiar like always, only tt Pst Ben was invited to play for them their malay songs. He had difficultty at first because its malay and they were already singing. he took some time to figuer out the key they were singing in. He has to play by ear. Praise God he did it! in F# lol...b ut he did it and it went well...Gabriel shared Jon Ting shared his testimony.

Throught ths service God worked again through Pastor Ben. He all along knew that he somehow could play by ear, but he never really realized or did it, until today. God indeed has shown pastor ben that he HAS that gift and he is able to use it well! Praise God! An inspiration for me too. Link to Highlight.....

Servce #4: A Classic Problem

haha....this one was funny. it was after the service after the night ministry. There was constructionn going on....had to wait for a while before it properly started. Its a classic problem because.....

1: The guitar was off tune......
2: the guitarist played chords in G
3: His G chord is my E chord
4: The guitar if tuned might snap!
5: The people were singing....in A!!!

lol....5 reasons why it was so classic. Guitar in G, struggled in E and sung in A. lol. super diao haha. so plucked lor.....haha. I shared my testimony about the time after crossing the road to church, a car just swept pass me, 1 cm away i guess.

the day before God helped me remember this incident, and till today I am still grateful that He saved my life from the car.....

Service #5: One of A Kind

Finally, the only service that has a good guitarist. Guitar was still falt though but hey! it worked out. God this time worked thorugh Andrew as he shared about worship. Pst lee translaterd for him. Both did very well! Praise God for the successful sharing. Gabriel shared his testimony

Service #6: The Difference

...is that the songs were in chinese and sermon in Cantonese. lol Pastor Ben shared while Pastor Moses translatored. Jeremy, Andrew and Mrs Ang shared their testimony to the congregetion. yes, its back to civilisation. Praise god for yet another successful sharing! Presented a chinese song itme for them. had only 5 mins crashcourse before that lol. Su played the guit. i forgot what song!!!! Need to ask Chari again lol.....

Highlight (Encounterz #2, Service #3): Shining for Jesus

I literally fasted dinenr on the day of night ministry. I was veery worried as i'm doing solo, without pst ben or andrew. no backup. just me. God referred mt to Psalms 119, the longest Psalm i think. And it really spoke to me, about how to trust and use God's Word. Every single sentence applied to me and I'm truly blessed.

And it happened. I prayed that God would use to the fullest and if need be add skills. i was asked to play for them, solo. With Precious, talenTED and my neverous self, i walked up and waited. But I had the whole kingdom of Heaven behind me :D They sung. I....I knew i had no choice but ti play by ear, It also never occured to me I could play by ear in a time of need, but. ok i tried. Capo 5,4,2 cannot. so i capo 1 and played in G#. Praise God!!!!!!!!!!! I found the right key they were singing in! Truly God was working in me that night and used a gift which i never really thought i had! God is truly wonderful and awesome working in me like that! That was truly the most memoriable exp ever......

After the service the rest came up and were in awe....but well, no glory to me, all to God. If it wasn;t for him, i would be a sitting duck then.

Yup! thats it!!!!!!! Super long lol....will leave with this song I;m crazy about.....

Kuman Cinta Yesus
KumaU cinta Yesus selamanya
KumaU cinta Yesus selamanya
Meskipun bagai selih bergandi dalam hidupku
KumaU cinta Yesus selamanya

Ya Abba Bapa ini aku anakMu
Layyankanlah seluru hidupku
Ya Abba Bapa ini aku anakMu
Pakailah sesuai dengan rencanamu

I love You Jesus Forevermore (thanks clr!)
I will love You Jesus forevermore
I will love You Jesus forevermore
No matter what storms may come, You'll be in my heart
I will love You Jesus forevermore

You're my Father, here is Your child
I will keep You firm in my heart
You're my Father, here is Your child
Fit me in your plans as a glove fits the hand

Its a really wonderful song....will play and put it here ok?

>>>The "Cast" of the Movie

Extra Catch Phrases:

Halllujah! Amen!
PanKohLeeTan Washing Services. haha!!!!! Enjoyed it oo!

Prayer Party, surPrises!

2006-11-23T01:21:00.000+08:00

Hi!!! My mission trip is in 2 days time.....won't be able to be in civilisation until monday... :( so yeah....2nd last post before i leave! Yup :D

+Life As It Is

Today was pretty intersting day! Haha...went school for payer meeting for mission trip. Able to accompany Pastor Ben to play guitar...my guitar in suffering from inotation! haha. need a new one :( had a good and long time of prayer. then went with Tim to get a card for Ms Goh's farewell party......then cab to his house. No money le!!

Help to carry stuff, brought my bike along. Then help shift to the function hall. Then slack and waited....then Pradeep, Nick and Justin came first. Coz the pool room wasn't open yet, played soccer lol. Then more came...Chong Ting, Henderick next, then Nigel and Nat also and lastly Zhao Long and Paarthebun. By that time we were all playing pool.....lol i stink..but manage to get some in! haha. Busy guiding ppl to the function hall (occasionally crashing into things with my bike lol). Then snacks came...ate....then they wanted to go swimming. So i went back to get shorts for Justin and Nicholas. Cycled back, grabbed, stone and left for func hall. everyone eventuallly got into the pool...(water one, not the table one). Kinda drizling but nvm. Security guard had every opportunity to find fault with us coz we did crazy things like jumping off high ledges (i was one of the culprit hehe) playing ball in the pool (can't belive it too!!!!!) lol. they were all sick people....like..erm...nvm. Basically my Jesusful profile saved me from those stuff haha.....made a few ppl suffer though hehe...... then ....4.30pm!!! Ms Goh haven come yet. lol. of all ppl, Ms lee and mr sim coulnd't make it :( but had to leave for guitar....so sad.

Rode home in wet clothings, showered, channged and called for cab (took emergency money). Then went for guit. Yay! Learned a new piece....but took me 15 mins to do the 1st 6 bars....lol. Need to buck up haha!!! Then fin, went for CCSS charity dinner...and lol. Yup I went with Clarence again!!! lol i'm so privileged!!!!!!!!!!! haha. Changed in car to formal mode (yup i;m expert an changing in cars swiftly, sharply, stealthily and of course, unseenable :D) Then went to pick mum and went King's hotel clr was in formal mode too! haha. no tie though :D just longs :D Bumped in shep's dad in the lift....too bad shep didn't come :( food was gooooooooooooood!!! haha...the MC was Some Dj....watzhisname i also forgot....but super crappy. make everyone laugh. out of 10 sentences, 8.5 of it everyone will laugh lol, esp (of all ppl) Pastor Darrick!!!!!! lol....had a good dinner, cool stuff...saw Giz, lol.....and went home. Clr staying over again! haha.

Check out Audacity. Can record through com! Praise God!!!! haah!!!! Tried it....sounds cool...really cool...like pro software,.....still learning larz...... Suppose to have Bedroom Worship Experience 5, but my dear fren has fallen asleep.....and he doesn't want to wake up :( oh well..gotta go! byeeee!!!

More Treasured Days

2006-11-21T20:54:00.000+08:00

+Life As it Is: "O" celebration part 2

haha! yup! if you thought it ended there, it didn't!!! gosh so many days i nvr post...have to to it in days already lol.

Sunday Day 1: Back Again!

Yup! erm....morning woke up late, had lunch at Thompson, then went chruch for LCE. I really hope they'll stop reminding about the venue and allocations.....etc. lol.....then after that went with childhood fren Andrew Lincoln to Thomspn plaza! 1 year nvr see him alr...and I;m still his lil twit! I can't believe that lor....bleh.

Then walk walk...drink drink...chat chat......bumped into bro kevin then repeate process....haha. Then drop him off at his house, went dinner with Uncle peter (which was really long!) and finally went to fetch Clarence.!

Got home...tried his fren's multi effects!! Too complicated for simple minded ppl like me haha...will just get a delay....and somethinglike that la. haha. Then com for a while.... had BWE again!! i had to lead (will share later) and haha. at like, 2am we were hungry and went kitchen...

..no cup noodles!!!! only packet...after one hour of searching, we decided to do it BB style: Outdoor cooking with mess tin and solid fuel. Thank God i;m in BB sometimes haha. Set up, got the food, and cooked lol. Super crazy but fun exp....a late night snack we'll never forget haha. Here are some evidence:

>>>The layout, outside my house; the garden area.

>>> The result of our labour!!

Yup....noodles with sausages...lol haha. The after that washed up a little.....went back upstairs. Clr played minsweeper and i disturbed him the whole time! Think i super tyco yesterday.....every sqaure i hit i never die one..clr was in super disbelief haha!!!! Then later slept till....

Monday Day 2: Street E Day

...12pm!!! haha. Went out with clr and his frens from revival generation for a day of street evangelism. its a street e i'll never forget :D Went to Bishan first to meet JT and mingfeng (or bumped into them) then went Toa Payoh. Went around the hub, library and the whole toa payoh hub area haha. Then KY joined us....and went on. haha! i managed to give like 3? Praise God! haha.......oh. i went under RG that day, so they had this Christmas event thats coming up so helped them to do the giving out of the tracks. :D Really really excellent experience! I guess God was telling me to just trust Him, and not bother with any other restrictions, because he is in control always! haha.

>>>Group photo!!! 4 RG revivalist and 1 IgnyteD revivalist haha!

Really grateful to all of them for making it so enjoyable memoriable and yet Jesusful! Its super rewarding to see lives responding. Even if they didn't want to come, at least a seed has been sowned. lets just hope God will provide someone else to water the seed......:D its really worth the while going more than any other things........

After that went window shopping......super bored haha. walked around taka, wisma, paragon and erm....orchard road....stop at starbucks and crap crap crap. We were super tired haha. Then went Toys urs to get Suan Sian a present: a beach ball! haha. Then we played the demo version of xbox 360, Burnout revenge haha!!!! Super cool :D Then went to Coca to join parents for dinner. Ate and went home :D

Nothing much actually, clr dozed off super fast. Had last BWE before that happened. Went to cook noodles.......hungry heeh. manage to get the induction cooker so half an hour done, but clr wanted to sleep....and he prob didn;t know...so nvm la...ate his portion also....a bit...3am morning!

Day 3: Lonely :(

Woke up early again coz both of us gotta go school. Went for prayer meeting for mission trip while he went for some breifing for JC. Had a good time of prayer, learn 2 malay songs and haha had fun!! Got to know some CHS youths too. Ate lunch with them and Drew, then left for home. I manage to pack my room!!! Praise God haha. Then fetch mum from airport, dinner came home and yup...mugging :D what a day 3.....ok thats it for this segment!

+Sentimental Perspective: Bedroom Worship Experience 3 & 4

It was a truly awesome and memoriable time just soaking in God's presence. for no.3 i lead again after much....talk haha. The song "I love You Lord' really spoke to us. We really sense a desire in us to hunger more of His Love as well as to sing love songs to Him, that it'll be a sweet sound to His Ears. The theme was on Love and we really could sense God's Love moving in and thru us....it was an experience words can't really describe, but God was there.

The last nite was the highlight. Clarence finally lead worshipped lol. We were just focusing on that desire in us to want to have more of Him. He is truly the Lamb of God who is worthy of our praise. Jesus deserved our highest praise. He reminded me of the verse that says "cast your anxieties unto the Lord, because He cares for you." It spoked to me a lot. Clr saw a vision of jellybeans and rainbow, whcih was only a little of what God can do. We needed more of Him to just completly overtake us....coz we are not satisfied, we want and need more of Him because he is the one we're singing our songs to and nothing else can chnage that Jesus deserves the highest praise. It was one of the most undescribable worship experience I had. The encounter was far more than mere excellence. When God is there, accepting and being please with our worship, no word is able to describe how anointed the worship was. Truly God was there, is there and forever will be there.

~I'll never forget these past few worship experiences, but neither will i stop there. I'll still run after him, till I see His face, I'll continue the race. Thank you Father for the encounter. You were ther Jesus, YOU ARE THERE~

Another Treasured Day

2006-11-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is: SentoVi with Clr

Yup! 2nd day Clr stayed over...(fri) haha!!! Its a super fun day. I'll make it pictographically.....pictureful. Lol What i talking? lol. Credits to photobucket!

yay! ok erm...Yup....got up at....eh!! 11pm! clr was like apparently eaking me up a super long time but i didn't evn realise it haha!!! lol. Then had lunch with parents. We werer treated to London cab lor!!! lol thanks mum!! haha....dun ask why.
Ate buffet at Orchard Hotel! Cool spread...very full..we were like, appetizerz, main course, desert and then appetizzers again haha. Then we were sent of to our SentoVi Trip! haha!

First stop was clr request, boarding the reknowned Missionary Ship, M.V Duolos. Its a missionary ship that goes around the world evangelising. Its really a Jesusful act....going round the world telling the good news! Here are some proof!

>>> Signboard

>>> "may God bless their work"

>>> Proof I went on board!

>>> Proof! Thats enough haha!

Went to their book fair and bought some stuff! Clr bought a book....and another book....and 2 Duolos mugs for him and me (so sweeeeet)! and i bought a calender and a keychain (which later broke :( then we rested for a while and left for Sento!!

yay!!!! we toom a cable car!!!! had to pay like....21 bucks!? But worth it la....got some tour ppl there....had to wait a long time....all korean! Then a cable car came...because only 2 of us, we sqeeezed in with 4 Indian men. Cool! their very nice ppl haha. haha...took these...

>>Marvelling at God's wonder

>>> proof on Cable Car!

And yay! we arrive at Sentosa!! haha!! planned and decided wat to do and off we went! ok. erm....pls all those who don't heed rules...just remember one rule in Sentosa when travelling by foot: #1: DON'T EVER EVER WALK ON A CYCLING PATH. Its NEVER works. AT least I now know why they call it a cycling path. SUPER LONG!!! We were suppose to go Siloso Beach...then suppose to go shortcut but...er....we ended walking around the island. CLR!!!!! He were screaming ans shouting in desperation!!! But while we were at it...

>>> Signboard Lover!

>>> Signboard Lover too!

haha,,then we finally got out, we were like screaming haha!!!!! haha...then walkled a looong time again to finally reach the bike shop. Paid 1st hour fee....then went halfway my bike chain came off, so went back again. about evening time alr! Then we cycled, coz its the best way to get around Sentosa! haha. Cycled here and there aimlessly......left of right..no choice haha! Clr always faster than me :( haha. Then we went to one of those trails going to the ferry terminal. There we stop marvel at the beautiful sight and....

>>> Admiring the God of all Creation

>>> God's Handiwork at Sea

>>> Clr trying to "rock" a coconut down from tree! Unsuccessful tho :(

Bike Pic!

After the seaside admiration, we cycled a bit furthur up and did all the lame things we could do.....coz no one around!!!!

>>> Duel Match. clr Vs ted

>>> Revivalist Clarence Chng speaks

>>> A sign of unity

>>>The Duel Spar isn't finish yet! This time on chariots (bikes)!

Yup! haha! then finally we ended by cycling back to the bike shop. Paid and of we went! Next stop was the Sentosa Chairlift and Luge. Its basically u sit a on a big "bench"and it brings you up to the top of area. Then u take this cool cart and come sliding down back to the bottom. It super fun! Its a MUST try when you're there! be prepared to pay though! didn't have money after that haha!

>>> "All Creation bows to worship You"

>>> On board the Skylift

And yup! thats about it for Sento! We took a cablecar again back. But we realise can go 4 times! so from sento go vivo then faber then back to vivo! haha! soooo long! The dusk has set in and its really beautiful to see the lights and all, Singapore's Night Life scene. But my camera no bat!!! so sad. But its really beautiful.

Then we went to Vivo, taked away 2 mushroom swiss, one meal, and went to the 3rd lvl water area. Really nice. picked a spot, and ate. munchie munchie! Then my paper flew to some girls nearby. They sounded quite high lol. Then pai seh i apologise and took it back, then they were like "Its alright, baby!" ARGH!!! I was literally traumatized by their response! lol. Sick lor!!! eww.......15mins ++ trauma haha! Then continue eating, crapping, chatting and then....water time!

Its Clr fault! he splash water on me first and got me all wet!!!!!!! so splash here and there and in the end we were both drenched from head to toe...lol sad case haha!

>>> Shadowfie

>>> Distorted and Drenched!!!

>>> Watery

>>> right Here in the water...!!!

yup. Thats about it! For more photos please go to my flickr page to check it out! Then take mrt home....changed before that and realise have no spare insides....lol! so no choice lor....then cb home in the end, realising that we might have left my shoebag in the taxi!!! haha!!! who's fault? won't blame him la...

Then we got back home, saw Johnervan there....felt so bad! he in my buzz grp and i gotta go take care of clr and him! clr and i went to my room, unloaded, talked, and then use com. I tried to spend some time with Jon, but bathed first hehe. Then had to to a prac performance in front of my parent's cell.....the trio for dec 5 north thanksgiving....needless to say, i screwed up. Meg played perfectly....notes only what...how to hard..? Classical guita is plucked and variate one leh!!!! such high expectations....must go prac alr la!!! Finally, we watch some tv....then bored go upstiars for...

Sentimental Perspective: Bedroom Worship Experience 2

As usual, i was asked to lead again. The worship was awesome! Beautiful Saviour came first because i was thanking God for the beautiful things he has made. He opened my eyes to see the wonder and the creation he has perfectly and fearfully made, when i was on the night cablecar. It overwhelmed me much so. We sang a couple of other songs, but we went in the direction of just worshipping and focusing on Him, because He deserves our highest praise!

Then a new vision came to me. Although i never really thot or acknowledge that i could see visions, this one was very very VERY clear, Praise God, answered prayer. I saw a horizon, and endless horizon. Like that endless horizon, His Love to us is forever never failing and never ending. We were just so overwhelmed by His mere prescence. Then clarencw saw a beaver, digging and digging the ground to find more stuff. Like that beaver, we should go deeper and depper into receving that special love from Him and seeking His Love for us, deeper than before.

I sung "I Love you Lord", coz led by the Spirit, altho i din know that clr dunno the song. But he words were so beautiful and meaningful, he pleaded me to learn after that. We continue to soak in His presence for some time, and i closes in prayer, linking the 2 days of BWE and sealing the work He has done in us.

Its a night...wait, its 2 nights i;ll never forget. Coz it is said when 2 or more gather together in His Name, Jesus WILL BE there.

Praise God! haha

A Fun Thursday

2006-11-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

Yup!!! Today is a super fun day!! In the morning, woke up at nine......forgot to wake clr up for his last paper!!!!!!! i feel super bad... sry clr!!! Then went cycling with Snr Nicholas...haha...cycled around Sunrise Gardens....then around the neighbourhood before he came to my house. We were like going mad and all....lol....talking about stuff toys haha! Think we both loved stuff toys!!! haha....then played a tank.....couldn't shoot tho :( so sad. But yeah..played and played and crapped and crapped....then went swimming!! He push me 1 in the pool, successfully, i pushed him 1 successfully too! draw lol. Played played, crapped crapped, laugh laugh...super funny morning!!!! haah...then bathed....sauna not working!!!! lol...then left for lunch at Hougang Point with parents.....he couldn't join coz he had lunch with his parents.

Ate lunch, parents marketted....then came home. After s short while, dad and i prac "As the deer" for the dec 3 event....then mum joined ......playing the pocket saxophone (dad), keyboard (mum) and classical guitar (me)! haha...super cool.......haha...family orchestra haha!!!

Then Clr came over!!! yay! He'll be staying for 2 nights 3 days!!! haha....dad suggested since he just fin his "O"s. haha...sry...can't go for the skating....parents din allow!! and yeah. Ate dinner, had fun with the cell people....lol...and then we "zao" to YCK Grassroot club for bowling at like...8? lol But they closed down!!! so sad......:( :(. So we played arcade instead...lol....realise that nearly all the machines were spoiled...lol. 40c not worthwhile la!!! haha!

Took really cool and lame and er....yeah.....crazy pics...lol (check flickr) haha. Yup...when 2 lame minds come together....things happen haha!!!!!!! Yup...then we came back....he is right beside me now, saying I type super fast!!! lol...and he's playing my guit...lol

Yup! A really fun day out!!! haha....thank God clr can stay.........:D:D He is still looking uh! Will pass him the pc soon so that he can use haha! Cyaz!

+Sentimental Perspective: Worship Experience Bedroom Edition

Just fin a worship session with Clarence. God is truly amazing. I though he was joking, but God just had to use that simple question ,"You wanna have worship God?" and He turned it around. We really encounter God tonite. Clarence first had a vision, that "there is a rock, and a flower would rise up from underneath that rock" The rock is our frens. Truly, we believe the we'll see a flower in our frens lives sprouting up and bloom beautifully, for Jesus. We sung "All things are possible" because truly, all things are possible when God is in control. We prayed and just worshipped God...soaked in His Awesome presence. He really came today....and just sat down. GOSH!! I really felt it!!! Indeed, He has answered my prayer....He DID sit down with me....us. Yup..God is a Faithful God!

We then sung "Jesus We Enthrone You", like in the Spirit. Both clr and i though of singing in too, but God is once again amazing, and just plaed that song in our hearts and, we just song, not even communicating with each other! The Holy Spirit was there, moving in us....i feel hot now! haha.....We just cried out tonite......then Clr prayed for me..and saw this vision of "A Sun and a moon. Would you be able to reflect His light?" I'm the moon. Would I be able to reflect His Light? I believe by faith I can. because He lives in me :D

We ended of by affirming all the work He has done and will be doing in our lives. had a cram on my leg while playing guitar...but it was worth it :D

God change a moment of laughter to a long time of revelation and worship. THANK YOU GOD!!!

Back to School

2006-11-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

Yes!!! i mean..nooo!!!!

Gotta go back school again..:( but its to help Ms Goh....her last few days in SA..oh no!! i'll try not to get emo.. :). Tim and I sought out the class's Private and confidential admin things...like student's docket and stuff..yeah....can see in my flickr page..just uploaded the pics. My sec 1 photo stinks!!!! Photographer skills is super terrible.... :(

Ms Goh then bought us drinks...lol..1 can haha. After that left and met Clr for lunch. He was sooooo worried e would bump into his frens and the hawker centre coz he suppose to join them but too lazy or smt and join me! I feel super bad.....ate at chicken rice stall. Ha!! He finally gave thanks for the food! We ad a fun time "preaching" to each other and convicting each other using theological methods haha! and crapped A LOT lol. Then went playground and played and talked about past times haha....how he wrote the "i made ted cry" tag and i wrote "clr is forgiven" haha!!! lol

Dad picked me up after that, went home, stoned, and left for guitar. Songs getting harder...but i;m getting there! at watsons and of all people, literally, i bumped in my principal!!! I though she was talking to someone else when she went, "What are you doing around here young man?" and i turned around casually and like she was right in front of me lor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! I kinda jumped a little!!!!!! Super horror movie lor!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!! She was laughing after that and was like telling my dad, "I gave him the fright of his life!!" geez...

Then went dinner, fetch mum at airport (apparently malaysia min of fin same plane as her! on mon she came back sat same cabin as jack neo....lol...zai!) Then back home. watch tv.....stone and stone and yup...i'm done...

+Sentimental Perspective: Angels I Have Heard On High!

haha...i feel like a little kid again. At the airpot i was like asking God, "Will angels get hurt when they protect us?" haha. hmm...didn't really get an answer....but the word "spiritual warfare" is a battle in the heavenlies right? That means the might get injured or something!! I kinda feel erm, sorry for all those angels who had to protect me......they probab;y must have been hurt pretty bad....hope God heals tthem. God! please heal the angels who have so valiantly protected me with their lives! Am i to pray such a child-like prayer? lol...i dunno but i feel like a lil kid again....hope god answers it! So those angels can continue protecting me...then God won't have to go thru all the trouble to make duty roster for the angels to see who takes care of me haha!

Hmm...haha! gee.......sounds weird but haha! really i hope God hears them......if He laughs then er!!!! haha! Hey! I really though like that what? lol....

~God thank You for the angels who have protected me and helped me in spiritual warfare! ~

What say you? haha

Unexpected

2006-11-15T12:49:00.000+08:00

Hi!!!!!

Sorry to erm....people like shep....din post yesterday night...can't post now either....

At clr house!!! postinf for fun...haha! gonna eat lunch with him now lolx. So yeah. gotta go, bye!

Erm...refer to previous post..this just something super lame

-.-'''

A Shot of Life, The Reality of Pictures

2006-11-13T00:54:00.000+08:00

Disclaimer: Pls prepare sometime to read the following. Stopping halfway might not help!

Sentimental Perspective: A Shot of Life

Isn't it fun to have a camera? Lol...why am i saying that? Was going to ttake pictures of something when my camera died! Battery was all drained out....! Shoot. And after we get frustrated all over coz.....it died! lol......the camera can take all the pictures in the world, but without battery it a just useless. A battery can provide all the electrical power in the world, but just leaving like there and not using it is as good as not having it at all! Lol....

Life is sometimes like.....the camera. So many things to do with it, so many choices to make. Lens and screen is like the way we see life...so many ways and angles and perspective. People are like the batteries. We are used and made for life......but once we're drained up, thats it. the camera is meaningless without the battery. The battery cannot continue when there's no power.
Hey! Can use charger to chage rechargeable batteries what! But how many of us are those rechargable batteries?

So many people out there....once their life is over, its over. They get thrown away, forgotten, never to be seen again. So many people out there are those disposable batteries. The energy in them in them are like the just meant to be used and thrown away. Thier cameras are such that when the battery dies, the camera shuts down and the pics taken are all forgotten. Its over, all is lost.

However, some and many more out there that are rechargable batteries. They have a charger so that they can be charged when its out. Believers of Christ are like those rechargable batteries. When life is over, we have another Life waiting for us, a new destiny and a new home. THats the charge of everylasting! While we are still living, the Bible is like the charger. When we run low spirtually on anything, its there to charge us back. The Camera is also a re-formatted one. It'll save the pics when battery runs low. It has special lenses so that it can be seen through a different angle. For us believers, its a new life. We see life differently now. We see the way God sees it. Then who is Christ?

HE IS Power. He is Energy, never created, never destroyed. He is always there. He charges up thru His Words of Wisdom and the Bible. He never lacks anything.He always is there to charge us up when we are down and feel that we are out of power. Jesus is there to give us power to continue to take pictures, meaningful pictures that will last forever.

I belive that I;m like the battery. Its called Theodore. I've got a couple of charges. They're called Frens, Family and yup, most importanly is the Bible. They charge me when I;m low on anything. The camera that i;m in is called Journey. Its full of complications and fuctions. Errors will often occur, and I'll get drained out more. But i've a great technicians called angels to help me fix that and make sure the camera is is good order! He even fitted in new and special lenses and scopes. They're called Heavenly Perspective. They give me a new look when i take pictures; when i see life. I look at it through God's eyes. Jesus is my Energy. I was re-formatted from a disposable battery to a rechargeable battery. Jesus now is energizes me with His Love, compassion, mercy, grace....so many many more! But most of all, He recharges me. He died on the Cross that day to provide the world with an everlasting energy.

What do we have to do? Just ask and believe! Only then can He re-format us to become a rechargable battery thats everylasting. Ask and it shall be given unto you.

Sentimental Perspective 2: The Reality of Pictures

Personally to me, its the part about pictures. Pictures are captured moments on paper in hopes of allwoing the viewer to see or remember what happen at that time. Lol. Thats my definition. I love pictures! I just keep taking so much of them. However, pictures are only memories. They can only be remembered. Pictures with frens...close frens..to those who know what I;m talking about. I dun want it to remain as pictures! Its just like a save point, where its captured and just saved there. But its not like video games when if something happens u can go back to the save point and jut start a new one. Its not that simple.

The last thing that I want something to happen is to see those pictures really become pictures, past memories. I hate the idea of "last time we used to....." it stinks! What i really want is to live those captured and precious moments. While we still have that energy, I want to make full use of it. Pictures are great, but thats about as much as it can go. I dun want my frenships to be pictures. I want it to be Reality. Pictures only remind me about that particukal moment, what happen and how i felt etc, but thats as far as it can go. Life is is more than pictures, its whether we can make it real, into reality or not. i choose to make it into reality. Pictures are just reminderrs to me to make things more worthwhile, and friendships more lasting.

I take shots for purposes now. Yes, it can be just objects, and normal stuff. But its no more for the sake of taking shots. It needs to be reality....those who were in the 10 ppl i can think of who are blessings to me....are probably my first few that i;ll try to make happen. esp.....you know who you are. Won't take for granted the people in my life that God has given to me.

If you receive a pic from me, dun think its a waste of money and i shouldn;t jave done in etc. Look at it my way: I want to make reality, worth the while.

My Parent's Anniversary Day!

2006-11-12T00:23:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is

Yup! 11 Nov 2006, my parent's 21st anniversary! Wished them at 12.05am haha! NExt morning woke up had to go for BB Cycling trip in Pulau Ubin. Boarded bus and Chubby, I and Josh Lim were like crapping the whole way thru and i finally slept coz moving vehecle...lol and din want to highER. haah. Got chubby is....heavy...so...crap stuff like the Law of Overturnment. Definition: It is a method of calculating the possibilities of an object overturning (eg. boats, bikes), so as to observe the equal proportionate measures that lacks to stablize the object, in percentage (chimology, basically its what are the chances of you captizing la...).

(Volume of Object+Body mass of user)x (Wind speed, object mass, space, unstabilty proportion)
divided by 1000= Percentage of object overturning. -.-'''

Cool! haha....super lame lor....of course someone who has such a nonsentical brain like mine would come out with such a theorem. lol. Laugh like crazy and crapped the whole journey. Then arrive at Pulau Ubin. Got bike. Mine was miraculouasly ok! haha! yay. so yeah...cycled.......and cycled....tried to beat Gummy Bear but he won like 4/6 "races"....his more pro la...lol. But i won 2!!!! He kepy bullying me so i kachao him also lor...hah...

Yup...cut short...got back....went to changi village...i didn;t eat anything for lunch.....didn't feel like eating...so just stand the whole time watch people eat haha. Then Chubby and I bumped into old pri sch teacher.....chat for a while then....go playground and play!!!!!!!!! Alan teo say childish....but who cares? We are young at heart what...play playground crime for 14 year old? got say cannot meh? lol......hack la!!! So fun haha...super super lame. Then had to wait for bus....so while people were resting, Chuby and i were like fighting Gummy haha...trying to push him of a low ledge and messing his "carpet" hair haha! So fun.....got whacked a few times but yay! Kachao him like crazy.....the played dunno what stupid game Pan taught of and went to board bus lol. I survived the cylcing trip! haha! Praise God! Quite fun :D

Then bad things start to happen...it rained, got stuck in traffic....reach sch at like..2pm...super late la....run to storeroom....suppose to walk slowly coz everywhere wet...then chubby ran...so no choice....he had shelter....so argh!!!! whole leg wait :( :( :( thank God i brought extra shoes AND SOCKS....lol if not go church die la....

Then tried to get caab.....but couldn;t...waited for sometime.....then God provided one. Yay! praise God! By that time i just went thri like 11 puddles...4 of which is super hug...so leg 11500% wet already..whole leg lor......then whole body wet coz i forgot that i had unbrella in my bad tilll.....sometime...by that time i bathing in the rain la....got into cab...North Polo kind lol. Arrive at church quickly rushed to 4rd level to change...but bumped into Mark Yong and Bro Vic...lol. and i all wet la! In tee and shorts...shoots. Changed and realise my custom tee a big big..but nvm la....the went for service....

Service really spoke to me today.....about going into my new season..once again...God's amazing love overwhelmed me at the alters and just had to drop eye-water...lol....alot...but yeah...its a re-dedication that I;ve given up what i have to God...and He'll so something good out of it :D

Then yup..fuel super lame la....played 1st game and was like hit badly...and its my my SHEP!!!!!! :( suppose to protect balloon...tthen other teas suppose to brak thru defence to try and burst it....got casualties la....i was one of them....hit in stomach and fell on Jo......and off all people it HAD to be my shep who ram me lor!!!! :( :(

After fuel went to seletar country club for parents anni celebrations! haha my mum was shocked coz alot of people were there haha...all cell.....its a surprise for her! Ate....food was good! Was camera2 and videoboy for the night......super funnie and romantic haha....din manage to play special song item but did a backup plucking while Pst Kenny was doing he exhaltation. haha! yay! Very very fun lol.....so much laughter and stuff....lol.!

Yup thats about it today!

+Sentimental Perspective

If Keith sees this lol, I;m really happy to be with him in PL next year. All though its a split up, at LEAST God left Keith lol.....and me...and drew....lloll.....

A Post I'll Always Remember

2006-11-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

What am i talking!?!? Lol. ok.

+Life As It Is (Part 2)

Erm, after my last post, talked with Shep for a long time on msn....then ate dinner with mum. Then practice classical guitar which i like haven't done for a long time. Then went to room and started work!

Chatted with Shepherd somemore.....and I started my new song! haha...seems like it DIDN'T TAKE FOREVER *****NCE **NG!!!! blexblex haha. Took 2 days yay! longest song ever written by me..:D heehee. Will go copyright it 2mr or smt la...haha.!

+From the Depths of my Heart

FOREVER AND EVER by Theodore Koh

1st nugget of inspiration: From Shep's origianal blog name> Forever and Ever
Type: Fast and Upbeat 4/4
Key: A (capo 2) I love my capo lol!!
Credits:
-God
-Jesus Christ
-Holy Spirit (ANOINTED!)
-Shep and Clarence for encouraging me (thanks guys! couldn;t have done a lot without you!!!! Thanks soooooooo much :D)
-My Hand for sustaing me.....
-My Pink Pen for not spoling halfway!
-My A4 sketchbook and 3 paages + 1 wasted. lol
-Anybody and anything else that helped me lol!
-My PC for allowing to post this and blogger

+Sentimental Perspective

God has provided great frens like shep and ecneralx. HE is truly the God who provides! Praise God! My heart is currently full of Joy!

+How the Friendship Started: Shepherd Gene (specially dedicated to my shep!)

Disclaimer: You need a LONG LONG time to read to prepare yourself :D
TO Shep: Green and BLue and Purple parts..are ***sonal :D quick read! might delete them out....

How it started.....yeah i remembered! After much consideration, during p4, I decided to sign up for SP course after my baptism! Yeah....dunno why must consider but lol. So yeah I signed up. And during the SP course, i was kinda lonely coz not much people i knew. Then this guy came up to me when we were playing a game or must find partneer i think. same age as me, slightly taller and had that mischivious look. His Name was.....Eugene Teo. Born in 2 March 1992. Little did i know he had a very...mischevious background...lol but hey! Its about our frenship not our past...lol. So yeah, since that moment he made a descision to pair up with me in SP class....it was the 1st spark to many more close memoriable experiences.

After SP class, i realise he was in the same service slot as me! 5pm at Discovery Land. Just yeah...go thru every sat like that....still just frens at tt time. Shortly after the SP class...oh wait! Think it straight after the SP class, we decided to go into farming and he became my Shepherd. And i the Sheep. :D But then it was Lamb. lol. As the weeks go by, it became from lamb to goat. then scapegoat. I realise in the bible that the lambs will be seperated from the sheeps, and the goats are bad and sheeps were good (revelation) and scapegoat is smt badd! So change to Lambscape. It stopped then. haha. he was Scapeshep then and still is haha!

During P5, my parent's ushering shifted to Sunday morning, so could not ge the chance to be with him often. Howver, i still rememberd during DL camp. It was the 1st camp in my whole 11 years of my life. Never went to a camp before. It was then went i was in the same bunk as him. There were other boys too! Haha...remembered that we there were 6 double decker bunks and i was the at the last bottom one, quiet and secluded. Sleeping time will cover the opening with blanket and try my best not to get homesick and sleep. Shep's bed was the 4th from the left. He slept on top. haha...during free time we used to hop on ppl's bed. Then shep was very angry with everyone for stepping on his bed. Yeah he was really angry. He only allowed one guy and me to come on his bed. so cool! haha...privileged.

My parents came over to deliver some food for our bunk specially one night. Then they told shep to take good care of me coz its my first time in a camp. haha...he did la.....very well! Bathe also go 2gether lol. er...!!! anyway...yeah...

However, after the camp, things went down very fast. THis girl's mum was in my parent's cell grp. Then i see her every fri and got to know her better. Just ordinary frens. However, shep was like keep teasing about me and her! Yeah...everytime i see him he'll tease me...with some other people....so yeah. We both thot we was really mean. I felt really really really sad and hurt...although he probably doesn't know it. haha! At that time confirm dunnno la! he still mischievious lil boy. So yeah...i find it a a lil pain to even just be with him from them on....tas how bad it was. Things will get worse when she is with me....just talking and they kachao. Now can laugh la but at that time...yup..really hurt then my best church fren would do such a thing :(

during the end of p5 and whole of p6, din see much of him. Guess God wanted me to have sometime to cool off...and to heal that hurt for something He will be planning much greater than those times....yeah. No more shep for 1 and 1/4 years.

At sec 1, found out he was same cell as me. But well....it didn;t really matter la. Until again....i think He made the descision to...forgot..partner me in smt la. Guess it was the 1st time after so long we did something 2gether again. Yeah....thats was the revival spark. And it sparked of many fun and memoriable stuff too! God took our frenship and yeah, in a way healed it. As the weeks go by, we reconsiled and became what we once and should have been: Sheep and Shepherd.

1st time he came over to my house was a cell outing. And it was the 1st time i when to his house. Got scolded when went back but..worthwhile haha! Yup......everytime after church....we'll just walk around together with him (FRIENDLY!!) putting his hands over me and walk round the whole church. Nice la, but sometimes a bit too hard! Sheep fluffy and fragile one lol. Cannot over sqeeze him haha! But yeah....a small act but it went a long way...just simple things like that it's enough to me......sat i church together, go everywhere in church together...the 1st time when macs with frens he personally company me there. haha...a lot of my 1st times guess you could say he was there! haha....1st person from church (besides someone else whom my parentst know very well one) is to stay over.....loved that stayover lol....1st time to stay at other people house was ALSO him......(sane as previous bracket)...1st person to gel my hair! haha....yeah....a lot more 1st times.

End of sec 1, was really sad to find out we were different cells. But, God still open doors for opportunities for us to still spend time 2gether. Tho we are diff cells, we just got closer! haha! Its really amazing how God works with frens. Use to call him every tues,wed and thur for a super long time to just chat about anything under the sun. haha. The bond was still as strong as before and still kept strenghthening! The latest and really memoriable one was the Vivo2 trip. Had a really memoriable and fun time........haha. Must go again!

I could go on but....a challenge approaches again. His going Adam, I;m going Paya Lebar. Soon will be at different places. Its wasn't like last time, a sequencial change, now its a geographical chane of location.....which is worse. Will the frenship still continue? As much as i want to, i can't stop the fact that he's going Adam. Neither do i have say in it, hey its HIS life! But as a concerned fren and sheep, it worries me. That day when he left for his malaysia trip, spending time with God, and i just broke down. Another season of change is taking place. Howver my worst fears were that I have to give up my frens. And it happened. I just couldn;t, not just him, so many other people.....it seems like a whole new start. Personal and REALLY personal>>>>(I really cried that night....though its just a simple trip to malaysia...nothing much wad! he'll be back..but i was reminded about the future.....is just a simple leaving thing? He probably won't know this...wanted to tell him what i said in this bracket just before he left...on msn....but couldn;t bring myself to say it.....) <<<<

With clr and ultimately God's help....I slowly bit by bit release this aspect of my life into God's hands. I'm sure He won't want to break the bond.....but neither can He do anything if i dun want to move on. I have commited it to God already and will still pray. like i;'ve always been praying....that somehow we'll be best of frens...somehow......

True this frenship, i've learned that frenships is an important part in life. Frens are either ther to support u, or bring you down. In this case, he helped me realise that lasting frenships are possible. During my younger days, all those frens that i spend time with....i dun think i have close contact with them anymore. But God thru him assured me that frenships do last. Thats a really imp lesson and perspective i've understand from my Shep. This friendship also shows how God can remarkably reconsile to frens...when one was critisizing the other.........He still sustained it and brought us back together. As the future comes, its not for me to decide, but God, will He let us keep this frenship? I believe with all my heart and put my faith in Him that He will. Its a matter of whether we make the effort in doing so.

Finally. I'll end it with a chorus of a song. It was a nice song..liked it in p6. But its true value only came to me just recently, when i was crying and really dun want to give it up...it was then the true meaning of the words came to me. I cried as i sang:

Friends are friends forever
if the Lord's A Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
coz the welcome will not end
Though its hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
But a lifetimes not too long
to live as frens

-Michael W. Smith. Friends are Friends Forever

Every line spoked to me that day. And whatever that may happen, I'll never forget that during my teen yearsm I had a fren who taught me many things in life, but ultimately, it was just being friends that i treasured the most.

~Thanks Shep....for everything. LITERALLY EVRYTHING~

A Day and THE Day

2006-11-10T15:59:00.000+08:00

Its Friday! haha! hmm......yay?

+Life As It Is

Letz see....woke up early today coz had to school for my Pahang Mission trip briefing. Dad went with me. Saw Pst ben and KY. and yup.....you know what happen next. Suppose to pay money for locker renewal, and KY ask me to write a check to him! How mean :(. Eating me up and making me pay for letting himeat me up! :( Life is a misery......lol. Then LT open up...dad was first one there...went out and literally bumped into Gummy Bear. Mr Lim wrote letter for him to skip sch so he can come! So good! Then gradually the rest came...drew's mum thot it was 3pm, but its 11am! lol. He came in the end...and yup..briefing about what we'll be doing there....admin and yup. Left at 12pm...need to rearange my locker, its in a terrible TERRIBLE mess. :( lol

Later went with Jerry Pan and got my jersey! haha. Teddy 3 adiddas black lol. Super cool! should have been talenTEd but wasn't so talented haha..might have to wear to church...no choice....going for BB 2mr. Alan finally got the 2o bucks i owed him!!!! :( so much for $39 and $1 discount. lol

Then went to sim lim sqaure.....dad wanted to get something for mum.....and yeah. I went jalan jalan and saw Mr Michael Lim and another SA A maths teacher...dunno if they saw me. Lol. Yup..surprisingly they dun sell books related to pc....:( so sad. can't buy christmas present for (i won't tell) *. haha Then on the wy bought a new bag! yay! lol

Yup....back home now. Doing up my mulitply page. You should go see lol. (under blessed site section)

+Sentimental Perspective (Not really la...)

My Parent's Big day is ....2mr! 11 Nov. Their 21st anniversarry. If you see them go congrats them for making it 21 years! haha.....gonna have a hard time to go resent a song item, so asked shep already (thanks shep!). For backup, ringed by godfather to see if he can works things out and also play guit with me 2mr. yay! gonna bring my pinked string guit and amp and sound mixer! haah cool! oh yeah, and cables....what should i do? God help!!!!

+Worldly Possesions

On 10 November 2006, Friday, ted owned the following wordly items:

-Addidas Black JerseyL "Teddy" 3
-A BHMP bag (or smt like that)

Flickr

2006-11-09T23:57:00.001+08:00

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

Another Day Gone By

2006-11-08T21:13:00.000+08:00

+Life As it Is

Yup...sadly...another day juswt went by. Posted like 2wice already...dunno why am i posting again....but since I'm here....heehee. All i did today was.....OH DEAR! i think i faced the com for a super long time... :( Parents sure gonna scold lol. Chat with shep for a long time...."forced" to do a quiz....and i answered so out of point lor. haha.

Then went for guitar lessons....realise grade 7 isn't simple stuff anymore. The melody starts to get more......sinical and non-melodic....nt like the previous grades where still able to "sing" it. *sigh*...but hey! Its a new challenge....prayerfully, i'll go all the way to grade 3 haha. thats like...oo! 7 grades and (most probably) xx years! haha.

Got clarence out for dinner coz dad and mum overseas, and i'm all alone, and...hey! Clarence could join my for dinner at Thompson Plaza! yay! Bumped into him right after lessons...then walk to food court. after walking 2 rounds, decided to eat jap food hehe. As insisted, we went dutch. And then we pushed the responsibilty to give thanks to the food....till we played scissors paper stone to see who gets to give thanks! Then i offered to buy him drink then I give thanks...but....er in the end i prayed lar. While eating we crapped alot.....we both laugh for like a super super long time....think the other tables think we're nuts! lol crap crap laugh laugh till literally couldn;t laugh anymore......lol!!! Nearly choke on my drink. Then left to walk around...and finally took a bus with him back to my house and send him of on the next bus. Cycled back home and yup, I;m back :D

Now to kill time....i'll just stone and see who figures out I;m actually appearing offline and chats with me! See ya!...2mr... gotta wake clr up at 6am again....might consider to sleep early today hehe.. er...bye for now!

As Requested by ****herd

2006-11-08T13:45:00.000+08:00

I am going to 3S1 next year..well 3SB and 3SA not much diff i guess...taking all theier subjects too! hehe...Got to start studying liao lor..miss A band more than 1%....haiz....
its ok.....think some are still in my class (refer to previous posts for my posting haha!)

IN THE PAST 24HOURS HAVE YOU :
1) Cried: more than 24 hours :D haha...happyhappy joyjoy..
2) Wore Jeans: i dun think so......
3) Met someone: Yup!
4) Done laundry: Er.....:$ Wait i tink i did!
5) Went Hungry: Er...nope
6) Talked on the phone: YES!! With Clr
7) Said I love you: Yup! To Father God, and my parents...:D
8) Do you believe in yourself: Hm..i belive that I can believe in God!!! Much better that way :D
9) Your friends:Have I...my frens? talk to my frens? yeah
10) Tooth Fairy: Dentist...yes!!! No money lol... :(
11) Destiny/ Fate: My Future is in His Hands :D Nothing to worry!
12) Ghosts: Spritual Warfare!!!! God's angels always protecting me :D Yay!
13) UFO: Unidentified Frying Objects? Yeah....i think its called....spatula...din use it tho.....

FRIENDS AND LIFE:
14) Do you ever wished you had another name?: I;m A Gift! What else can i ask for?
15) Do you like anyone?: Hm.....yup :D LIKE, thats the keyword
16) Which one of your friends acts most like you: I think i act most like them lol
17) When you cried the most who was there: Doctor jesus, fixing my broken heart. and my pink stringed guitar!
18) Whats the best feeling in the world?: God's Love and His never ending...LOVE!
19) Whats the worst feeling in the world?: So many...dun wish to talk about it. 18 beats 19!
20) What time is it now?: Why should i tell you? lol xx:xx xm

WHICH IS BETTER:
21) Chocolate or Vanilla: Strawberry!!!!
22) Coke or pepsi: Ice Lemon Tea!!!
23) Love or LUST: God's LOVE!!!!
24) Macs or Kfc: Burgur King!!!
25) Single or group dates: Both....but outings, not dates haha
26) Adidas or Nike: Nice can alr la!
27) Lipton Tea or Nestea: Lipton Tea!!!
28) Cauppucino or coffee: Lipton Tea!!!

I;m sorry i just had to answer soooo out of point haah!!!! :$:$

DO YOU:
29) Smoke: I;m IN and breathing smoke....PSI still high
30) Curse: changed to blessed: Yes!
31) Take a shower: UH OH!!!!
32) Have a crush: Been crushed, loved and fixed :D
33) Think you've been in love: I Love God! So YES!
34) Liked school: 3/5 of it
35) Want to get married: Yup
36) Think you're a health freak: er....no but I'm a Jesus Freak!

IN THE PAST MONTH:
37) drink alcohol: Wine? i think....oops
38) Gone to the mall: YES!!!!!
39) Been on stage: Yes!
40) Eaten sushi: YES!!!!!!!!! Sashimi also!!!
41) Been dumped: I dumped rubbish in my bin hehe...
42) Gone skating: nope
43) Dyed your hair: soon!! hopefully....
44) Changed who you want to be: I'm perfectly created by God...what else can i change? Nothing!
45) I love: refer to my "cuddles" section
46) I hide: from....parents! When using msn in my room heh
47) I miss: Will be missing those who are going Adam Road fir ignyte!!! :( and clr..
48) I need: Dun ask! i need to do A LOT of things...

Ok Shep! haha! i did it...and survived haha :D Thanks!!!! Sorry copy your intro line hehe :$

A Very VERY happy Sheep

2006-11-08T10:58:00.000+08:00

~ The Sheep is overjoyed and lost for words coz his shep is back in Singapore!!! Yay!! ok. now for the post...lol~

Hmm...what happen yesterday..i forgot to mug (post)! oh dear.... :( so i shall do yesterday's overdued one today! hehe....erm...letz see

+Life As it Is

OH DEAR!!! I really 4got what happen yesterday! Shootz.....erm....er....ah.....ER!!! :( Out of brain power...think was at home the whole day.....spammed shep's blog a lot of times (if he sees this: I'm SORRY!!!! ) And er...yeah just laxed around at home...suppose to fin a book but....er! Oops, nvm larz...

Went dinner at Fernville dunnowhat.....the LRT there super oo-loo.....and i realise i can;t get to CCK from there :( haha. Had seafood dinner with dad! Mum went Barley...i mean Bali :$. ANd yup, he went for a wake so i came home lor :( Read....brainstormed a little...prayed and got my nuggets of inspiration to write a song! haha...working title: Forever and Ever. Dunno why but the 3 words kept flashing in my mind haha....where did i get that from.....OH! I got that from SOMEONE'S blog acccount name haha! (hint hint) Anyway..wrote chorus only.....still trying to get inspiration to fin up the song.... like Clr said...hope i dun take forever and ever to do it lol!

And yup....went online and FINALLY get to chat with my shep (yayz!) but lol he had to sleep early...which i think he should! lol. Then u also went to sleep...but before that..talk with clarence for a super long time...laughing lke crazy and thot back of previous memories lol...then he has O today! So i chased him to bed haha blex...then sleep...but couldn;t sleep lah.....so at 6am I called clarence to wake him up for his O. He was like "..Hi Slapper 2! This is like the earliest talkshow lor..." lol. Yup then after talk for a while his mum came in the room and saw him talking to me, She was like "...you whole night never sleep ar?" lol! His mum rocks haha.... Yup thats about it!

+Extra Dedication: This segment is for Clarence Chng....got inspired so haha i shall to something lame today!

How The Friendship Started

I think this is the most....erm...weirdest way in actually getting know someone better. (Apart from being ****ned and falling on ******) haha! Where should I start? Oh yeah: hmm...i as sec 1 then..he was sec 3 then....i think? yeah. And i first got to know him as the SFC Worship Team Head. At that time he was a someone crazy and most probab;y not of my calibre (lol). In term 4, I decided to join the Music Min as a ********* and was referred to Clarence himself! I think on the 2nd time i was playing..i was doing with him. It was for the batch of sec 4 and 5 graduating... clr and i were guitarist that day. He was like asking me whether i know the songs and chords, and i was like shaking my head and feeling regretful that i should have studies the chords more! Pastor Ben and him were like : -.-'''' haha! but i think i survived that day.

2nd exp was when we were somewhere...he saw me and i saw him. Then dunno what happen he slap me...with one hand. Then i slapped him back with 2 hands. lol. After hearing what happen, the School Captain sided with me and haha...clr was foiled. lol. Think that was how the Slapping thing was born haha!

The most memoriable exp would be the...er...pretty embarrassing part. He better not forget this or else....guess this one was the one that started the main part lol. ??? night, was suppose to sing for morning assembly the next. First time, so...super super nervous. So that night i called Tim Ong. He was a great help, talk for a while and finally haung up. But i thot it might better to get 2 ppl i can be accountable for, so i called Clr, a very very VERY wrong mistake. He thot i was folling around and claimed that he "went along with it" by saying lame and cranky stuff. But think i was emotionally unstable at that point of time, so such comments would result in a mental and emotionaly breakdown....to be blunt, I cried the moment he said "Principal will be standing net to the podium where you;re singing...." Yup. That did it. lol. The i hung up uup, called Tim Ong again. He was probably shocked la. After some consolling, i cried myself to sleep lol. Next day, apparently he said that i was smiling happily tt morning. But after that, Tim Ong came to sch and was like "Clarence you very evil you know!" And he got all worried and all.....lol. After SFC meeting the next day ( i think) he realise i was sulking throughout...and hestill remembers my facial expression which he claims was somewhat (kiddy and cute...ew..) funny coz i was sulking. Then afer that Pastor Ben, Ms Yong and mrs Ang heard about it and scolded clarence for making me cry...lol.

After that incident, we became veryx5 good frens! haha! Muz be God's work...where got someone make you cry then few days later become super good frens. From feared figure to the crankiest guy i know, things change for the better after that fateful day....from 3 hour friday talkshows to the recording of 'You Were There". haha......so many other things to say but thats about all the memoriable events. lol

The End ( you know what to do clr.....**g)!

Another Day...

2006-11-07T01:13:00.000+08:00

+Life As It Is
...has just gone by....I'm sorry Huirou!!!!!! 1st time so...argh!1 Srsyrsrsrry!!! erm. lol anywayz yeah. I;ve finally got rid of that wonderful song with that horrible vocal singing.....yes! I shall go make another one 2mr...hopefully it'll sound better....

Woke up pretty early today......decided to go Blog Evanglism. Did to **** *** and *******, however **** *** thinks i:m some crazy guy with some fren of his who...erm...nvm. But anyway...it didn't go very well...so far I think Song Heng was the best case...1st and best! If he sees this he better tag lol......*sigh* haha.....

Went for dental after that....er...i'll skip tt.....went with grandma too! she treated me lunch (yay!) then we went to taka to see the subaru car challenge.....super fun lor! And tiring.....must be really stressful standing/squatting down for days just for a car....guess its quite worth it la. Then went to Thompson Kodak to develop some photos...and went home. Slack...then went out again in evening to go visit someone in hospital.

While the adults were having spiritual warfare, I was just walking aorund, drank milo at SGH and talk to Clr for like superlong on payphone coz my HP no bat le....then had supper and back home. My voice tonite stinks...will record AWAC 2mr...lol...meanwhile..I think I'll.......

+Sentimental Perspective
.....write a new song! I dunno...but I think its time to sing songs of rejoicing and celebration! haha! Dunno how on Earth i;m gonna start but I;m sure God will see me thru (somehow)! My first *nuggets* of inspiration would be Psalms 142:2 and my shepherd's blog name: Forever and Ever! haha....guess I'll be working on it......

~STILL missing my shepherd.....Tues 8pm seems light years away...literally.....day 5.....and wating... :(~

Sec 2 Express Streaming Result 2006

2006-11-06T15:23:00.000+08:00

++St. Andrew's Secondary School
2006-2007 Allocation++

(Try finding my name! which is like super obvious...lol...)

2006 Class/ No./ Name/ Course (A,B,C,D)/ Course Elective
2A 1 Arshvyn Prakas D Add Mathematics
2A 2 Arvindh Rai A Biology
2A 3 Brendan Tan Wee Ho B POA
2A 4 Bryan James Wong Zhi Wei A Biology
2A 5 Chen Yongqiang Nigel A Geography
2A 6 Chew Jing Kai A POA
2A 7 Chia Wei Sheng Wilson B Add Mathematics
2A 8 Chor Chuang Yu Elohim A Geography
2A 9 Chua Wei Jie Aaron A Biology
2A 10 Daniel Joshua Lee Wei Hu B LIT
2A 11 Fong Choon Kit A Biology
2A 12 G Jagathipan S/O Gopal S A Biology
2A 13 Joshua Benjamin Aravin B Add Mathematics
2A 14 K Sarravanan A Biology
2A 15 Kim Jia Cun Jasper A Biology
2A 16 Lam Jun Kit Basil B Add Mathematics
2A 17 Lee En Howe Ryan A Biology
2A 18 Lim Zhi Xiang Melvin A LIT
2A 19 Matthew Lim Hwee B Add Mathematics
2A 20 Ng Derong Ian A Biology
2A 21 Ng Han A Biology
2A 22 Ng Wah Rong A Biology
2A 23 Nicholas Low Xue Yang A POA
2A 24 Raymond Liew Yuan Cai B POA
2A 25 Reuben Lim Liang Yi A LIT
2A 26 Ronald Liong A ART
2A 27 Sahul Hameed S/O B Sardhar A Biology
2A 28 Tan Choon Zhe A Biology
2A 29 Tan Yi Lei A Biology
2A 30 Tan Zexun A Biology
2A 31 Teh Chee Yang A Biology
2A 32 Teo Wei Jie Jack A ART
2A 33 Toh Kun Hao Benjamin A Biology
2A 34 Wee Yan Ru Mervyn
2A 35 Wong Kang Sern Keith B D&T
2A 36 Wong Shi Qiang Isaac A Biology
2A 37 Wong Wen Yu Nigel A Biology
2A 38 Yam Jun Jin A ART
2A 39 Yee Zhi Yuan Jasper A ART
2A 41 Sng Chong Yi John A Biology

2006 Class/ No./ Name/ Course (A,B,C,D)/ Course Elective
2B 1 Abel Tan Yew Hong A Biology
2B 2 Andrew Justin Fong Mun Kong A Geography
2B 3 Atticus Yeo Jun Jie C Add Mathematics
2B 4 Benson Aw Boon Seng C POA
2B 5 Bryan Ang Yin Shen A Biology
2B 6 Cheong Zikang Isaac A LIT
2B 7 Chia Wei Yong A Biology
2B 8 Chia Yi Le Jedidiah A POA
2B 9 Chiam Yong Sheng Kevin A ART
2B 10 Edwin Chia Yi Wei B Add Mathematics
2B 11 Ernest Quek Jian Rong A ART
2B 12 Gareth Liew Yoong Ming A Biology
2B 13 Heng Jia Jie Esmond A ART
2B 14 Ho Shu Hui Matthew A Biology
2B 15 Lee Jing Hui A Geography
2B 16 Lee Jing Jian Samuel B Add Mathematics
2B 17 Lee Ren Yuan B D&T
2B 19 Lim Wei Jie Clement A Biology
2B 20 Lionel Choong Xing Jie A POA
2B 21 Low Sheng Ren A LIT
2B 22 Nehemiah Ho Wei Jian D Add Mathematics
2B 23 Ng Tai Jun A Biology
2B 24 Ng Yongwen A Biology
2B 25 Nigel Lee Tjon Yi A Geography
2B 26 Ong Zongren A Geography
2B 27 Pang Zhi Hui A POA
2B 28 Phang Tze Hian Jonathan A Biology
2B 29 Saunders Tan Yong Sen D D&T
2B 30 Scott Li Meng Aloysius A Biology
2B 31 Soo Ee Rong C Add Mathematics
2B 32 Tan Chian Wen Melvin A Biology
2B 33 Tan Jian'en @ Goh Julian A Biology
2B 34 Tan Xuanhan Jerald C Geography
2B 35 Tang Tuck Yuan Matthew A Biology
2B 36 Teo Zi Jie A POA
2B 38 Tng Jia Hao D POA
2B 39 Victor Ng Wei Xiang B Add Mathematics
2B 40 Yam Khin Hun Joachim A Biology

2006 Class/ No./ Name/ Course (A,B,C,D)/ Course Elective
2C 1 Abraham Chee Rui Zhi A POA
2C 2 Anson Tai Jun Yang C POA
2C 3 Chia Luck Koon C POA
2C 4 Chia Zhi Wei Joel A Biology
2C 5 Chung Jun Jie Edmund A Biology
2C 6 Darren Neo Jun Wei B D&T
2C 7 Dax Jagdip Singh B Add Mathematics
2C 8 Donavan Marcus Neo A Biology
2C 9 Henderick Low Wei Kiat D LIT
2C 10 Ian Tan Ze En C ART
2C 11 J Vishnu Chithan A Biology
2C 12 Jitesh Motiram Gurnani A POA
2C 13 Joshua Nervin Theyagu B Geography
2C 14 Justin Chua Jia Jin A Biology
2C 15 K Paarthebun B Add Mathematics
2C 16 Kavipriyan Rajendren B Add Mathematics
2C 17 Ken Koh Hwa A Biology
2C 18 Koh Han Wei Ryan A Biology
2C 19 Kong Zhao Loong A Geography
2C 20 Koo Haoming B Add Mathematics
2C 21 Lee Ming Ze B Add Mathematics
2C 22 Lee Shi En Ian B D&T
2C 23 Lee Wen Hao Nathaniel C POA
2C 24 Lee Xian Jie Joshua C Add Mathematics
2C 25 Liew Chon Ting C Geography
2C 26 Lin Junneng Elisha D LIT
2C 27 Linus Ong Shi-Jie B Add Mathematics
2C 28 Lui Wei Jin B Add Mathematics
2C 30 Ng Yik Heng A D&T
2C 31 R Pradeep A Biology
2C 32 Russell Chan Wai Siong C LIT
2C 33 S Sattishwarran B Add Mathematics
2C 34 Sng Wen Jie Nigel C LIT
2C 35 Tan Sheng Ang Jeremy B LIT
2C 36 Tan Zhao Han C ART
(2C /37/ Theodore Koh / B/ Add Mathematics)
2C 38 Timothy Koh Zheng Hao C Geography
2C 39 Vnaigam S Pillai C LIT
2C 40 Yap Chung Wei C LIT
2C 41 Zamiq Azmeer B Borhanudin B D&T
2C 43 Tiong Yong Jie Stanley B Add Mathematics

2006 Class/ No./ Name/ Course (A,B,C,D)/ Course Elective
2D 1 Alexander Choo Wei Wen D LIT
2D 2 Alvin Kang Wen Tat D D&T
2D 3 Asril Lee Kavan A Geography
2D 5 Cheung Sai Pong James A POA
2D 6 Chong Xiang Yong A D&T
2D 7 Christian Lum Zi Xiang D LIT
2D 8 Danny Lin Jianqiang D Add Mathematics
2D 9 Davinder Singh S/O Herdial S A Geography
2D 10 Helios Orrin Singh Bajwa B Add Mathematics
2D 11 Ho Jia Wen Jeremy B D&T
2D 12 Ho Kai Chieh B Add Mathematics
2D 13 Hwang Soon Hui Jeremy D LIT
2D 14 Jagbir Singh Dhaliwal S/O L S A Geography
2D 15 Job Lee Le C ART
2D 16 Joshua Cheng Yong Jin A D&T
2D 17 Kang Eng Zheng B D&T
2D 18 Lan Junming A D&T
2D 19 Lee Yun Hou C LIT
2D 20 Leong Hao Quan Martin C Add Mathematics
2D 21 Leong Xian Hui Elton C Geography
2D 22 Lim Jia Sheng Joshua C Add Mathematics
2D 23 Low Kun Wei Gabriel A D&T
2D 25 Moses Li Wei Xiang C POA
2D 26 Nathaniel Asher Yim A Biology
2D 27 Neo Jun Young Edgal D D&T
2D 28 Ng Jun Hao Nico A Geography
2D 29 Ng Jun Yang D LIT
2D 30 Ong Jian Yi Jeremy D LIT
2D 31 Rakesh Kumar Rai A Geography
2D 32 Sheridan Aaron Godfrey B Geography
2D 33 Sherman Lee C LIT
2D 35 Tan Hock Tong Danyal C Geography
2D 36 Tan Sin Yik Marcus D LIT
2D 37 Teo Jian Ming Terrence D LIT
2D 38 Tye Wei Feng B Add Mathematics

2006 Class/ No./ Name/ Course (A,B,C,D)/ Course Elective
2E 1 Aaron Li Wei Liang C Add Mathematics
2E 2 Ang Chii Tswen Cleon B ART
2E 3 Arvind Jeyabalen D Add Mathematics
2E 4 Brendan Koh Jian Wei B D&T
2E 5 Chan Kheng Hong C POA
2E 7 Desmond Yeo Wei Siong C Geography
2E 8 Edwin Ng Yu Zhi D Add Mathematics
2E 10 Goh Kian Yaw D POA
2E 11 Isaac Ho Safii B Add Mathematics
2E 12 Jeremiah Gerard Yeo Wee Liang D POA
2E 13 Justin Ng Yi Kai A Biology
2E 14 Kevin Koh Shao Jie C LIT
2E 15 Lau Shan Jie D D&T
2E 18 Marah Mohammad Rifqi B M M H B Add Mathematics
2E 20 Matthew Gunawan Sia A POA
2E 21 Muhammad Haekal B Ma'il D D&T
2E 22 Mukesh Balu Chitiran C POA
2E 23 Ng Hong Ming D ART
2E 24 Ng Jingnan Matthew C LIT
2E 25 Ngai Yi Cong D D&T
2E 26 Nickhalas Nivaenthiran S/O W D Add Mathematics
2E 28 Pung Junxiang Daryl C POA
2E 30 Raphael Koh De Rui C POA
2E 31 Rashbir Singh Hundal D LIT
2E 32 S Kabilan D POA
2E 33 Satish Kumar S/O Ganesan D POA
2E 34 Sean Koh Jia Ming D ART
2E 35 Tee Liang Feng C Add Mathematics
2E 36 Vasanthan S/O Katherayson C Add Mathematics
2E 38 Yeo Choon Meng Seran C ART
2E 39 Zulkarnain B Sudar Man A D&T

2006 Class/ No./ Name/ Course (A,B,C,D)/ Course Elective
2N1 10 Joshua Ong Yong Ming C Add Mathematics

Yay! Praise God! haha....hope the rest are ok with thier allocation....God bless!

Special Update brought to you by TRM.
Courtesy and acknowledgement to:
St. Andrew's Secondary School Website
http://www.saintandrewsschool.info/index.cfm?GPID=425

Yayz! Congrats to everyone who made it to what they wanted! People like
: Abraham Chee
: etc etc...

haha!

~No Shepherd still!!!! :( ~

A New Week

2006-11-06T01:08:00.000+08:00

Yup! Its a new week already! Wonder what it holds......but I know who hold 2mr and I know who hold my hand! haha!!

Today is pretty boring.....woke up at...1.30pm!!!! OHMYTIAN!! Lol....2nd highest record...lol. Ate lunch at home.....aunt Jennica (I think..:$. Pastor Kenny's wife leh! lol) came with her kids......babysat them......by watching them sleep! Lol...then went to aunt I's place to celebrate Samuel's BD. Had a dip in the pool...babysitted Javen again lolz....literally a dip...din really get wet. Then ate ate ate!!! Been stuffed with food...lol...then bumped into S***** Nic*****!! lol..had fun walking around.....crapping....he tried to push me into pool...but haha! got lucky i guess hehe.....had a grat half an hour...tried to visit tim and daniel khong but they weren;t home :) oh well......he sent me off to the gate....so kind! Am touched haha...really....oh well...thats about today!

+To "O" students like Clr:
Clr tag...lol. YuP! Will be praying for all of you....

~Day 4 without my shepherd....its really reallyx4 sad...:( :( WHen will it end!?!~

Quiz?? -.-'''

2006-11-04T21:47:00.000+08:00

OK...erm....thanks to Mo, Riel, and Shep....i think I'll do this thingie for once! *sigh* here goes
-.-'''

1.Full Name: Theodore Koh *** ***
2.Name backwards: erodoeht
3.Meaning of name: Gift from God (whoohoo!)
4. Nickname: Teddy, talenTED, Sheep...i rather not say too much!
5. Screen Name: See 4 yourself?
6. D.O.B: 19920722
7.Place of Birth: 'pore
8.Nationality: Child of God!
9.Current Location: North
10.Star Sign: Calvary Cross-Blessed :)
11.Religion: Jesus Freak
12. Height: er.....1.x
13. Weight: 41kg...lost 2kg!! :(
14. Shoe Size: 7
15. Hair Color: black (thinking of highlighting...)
16. Eye Color: Black.brown
17. Who do you look like: My Heavenly Father...Earthly mum...a normal human?
18. Innie or Outtie: In!
19. Left or right: You choose....
20. Gay, Straight, Bi or Others: Teddy!!!! *grr....stupid question :( what does it mean anyway
21. Best Friends: Jesus Christ! Gene (Shep), Clarence, chet, danny
22. Best friends you trust most: Gene and Clarence
23. Favourite Pals: refer to 23
24. Best Friend of opposite sex: hm...Sandra? *sigh* Hannah Lee
25. Best Buddies: refer to 23
26. Boyfriend or Girlfriend: Single and UNAVAILABLE
27. Crush: Brokened and fixed by Doctor JC
28. Parents: yes..parents is a word.....
29. Worst Enemy: Mr S.A tan (unworthy of putting colour!)
30. Favourite Online guy: Shep and Clr!!!
31. Favourite online girl: er....none
32. Craziest friend: Moses!!! Keith!!!
33. Advice Friend: CLARENCE!!! SHEP!!!
34. Loudest Friend: Abraham Chee!!! haha
35. Person you cry with: Jesus....He's sad when I;m sad...:(
36. Any sisters: Refer to 26...the 1st word
37. Any brothers: Refer to 26...the 1st word
38. Any disease: Jesusfreak
40. Pager: Whats that? oops!!
41. Personal phone line: yup! 9*******
42. Phone: Chocolate!!! No eating :P
43. Lave Lamp: Is it a lamp or....hhuh??
44. Pool or hot tub: Er.......next question -.-''''
45. A car: Lots of it! Toys...
46. Your personality: Too many...main thing is that I;m a Jesus Freak :D
47. Driving: People nuts? :p
48. Room: Yeah..alone with a candlelight...in the room
49. Whats missing: What could i ask for more?
50. School: SAS
51. Bed: x3 deck!
52. Relationship with parents: Beyond Love....
53. Believe in yourself: God...Phil 4:13
54. Believe in love at first sight: Will talk at 18
55. Good listener: I hope so
56. Get along with parents: More than just well...
57. Save e-mail convos: Yup :D I mean no!!!!!! lolx
58. Pray: Everyday
59. Believe in reincarnation: Er....ressurection is more like it..
60. Make fun of ppl: Try not too...hehe
61. Like to talk on the phone: YES!!!! haha
62. Want to get married: Yupz...someday
63. Like to drive: Hmm.....21+
64. Motion Sickness: YES!! SAdly :( Can't play CS... :(
65. Eat stem of broccoli: VEG SUCKS! thanks mo lolx
66. Eat chicken with fork: Hands!!!! hahaa
67. Dream in colours: Don't understand.....
68. Type with your fingers on home role: WHats a home role..?
69. Sleep with stuff animals: Countless!!! Yeah!!!
70. Next to you: A whole lot of stuffed animals....
71. On the walls of your room: White Paint...lol.
72. On your mousepad: Mouse! Lol...whats else?
73. Dream car: Er....no dreams of cars....
74. Dream date: Jesus Christ. Dating EVERYDAY haha!
75. Dream honeymoon spot: Right Beside Him. :D
76. Dream husband or wife: NONE... not into romance YET
77. Bedtime: 9pm!!!!! :(
78. Under your bed: Wooden planks lol
79. Single most important question: Do you know Jesus? :D
80. Bad time of the day: 6am-1.45pm
81. Your worst fear: My ones love that are not saved....
82. The weather: PSI....oops! i forgot.
83. Time: xx.xx ?m
84. Date: x xxxxxxxx 06
85. Best trick did on someone: Prank call on police!!
86. Theme song: Alone With A Candlelight :D
87. Hardest thing about growing up: So many things...i dun wish to talk about it..
88. Funniest experience: How funny u want?
89. Scariest experience: Hmm.......
90. Silliest Thing you ever said: "I couldn;t fill up this question!"
91. Most desperate and funniest thing i have done to get the opposite sex: Er..!!!!
92. Scariest thing while you are with your friends: Peer Pressure haha..
93. Worst feeling: Not talking
94. Best feeling in the world: The Father's Love...it amazes me

Red- Jesus-based!!!!
Yellow- More-than-special based
Green- Treasured based
Blue: LOLX!!

Half of it it Jesus-based! haha. Do you know Him? hehe....

Thanks to to the above people for the quiz idea...time consuming!!
People who should try: Clarence CHNG!!! haha And anyone who feels like it :D

~STILL missing my shep... :( ~

A Day To remember in the Lord

2006-11-04T21:35:00.000+08:00

Saturday...woke up late!!!! Hmm......had Burger King for lunch...went to church. Had an awesome time....the first time I fell in the Spirit......honestly I was super blur! Just stayed ther for some time.....haah!!!!!!!! Its sooooooooooooo cool!!!!!!!!!! Thank You Lord!!!

Well tts about it.....nothing much to report except that....:D

~2nd day without my shepherd....:( *sigh*

Weekend Again! Whoohoo!!

2006-11-03T20:11:00.000+08:00

= My Day

Hmm....had an interesting day. haha. Went for BB parade at 8am....forgot to polish boots and belt and can't find my field rank...argh! Thank God for Aaron Chua.....and...who offered to help find me a field rank and to get Jon Phang and Matthew to help me polish! Heehee....guess was kinda evil la...but i rushed off to meet Pastor Stephen Yew to go thru the songs for later...brought my (quite irratating leh!! but worth it la..) pin-ked guit along and prac for sometime before role call. Got thru that smoothly! Went on with games....which was what? Jogging 2/3 of 2.4km? So lame. Came in **th! Anywayz, later played Captian's Ball, Chubbyand I were like clapping like crazy everytime the ball went out.....super lame. Had a really smooth 3 step shot...i was involved! haha.....forgot who won la.

Then had P&W....missed inspection! haha....phew. Chubby demoted me and got me a LCP field rank *bisH*. But aiya nvm.....then yup, played with Pastor Stephen! Suppose to lead worship one but...aiya nvm....then went on with devotion...he alr preapred me beforehand by asking if I know my songs. He asked during devotion the lyrics of the song "A New Commandment" Naturually.....everyone look at me larz...(pai seh) forgot last line, but got M&M anyway! Next was drill test...i didn;t study!!! lol...oh wait had to present some badgework thingie on total defence...did with Javelin Li and aiya...he kept pushing to me lor :( Then drill test....aita fail lar...even Pastor also say...:( Then yay! finish. Found out i can Arts Stage 3 (highest) because I pass ALL requirements....Stage 1 can use for my art/d&t marks. Stage 2 can use for notice board design. Stage 3 best la: SFC Worship Party Member!!!! haha so get highest stage at sec 2! Whoohoo!!!! hhaha guess i going high hehe.....

Then after BB, went to meet clarence for lunch.....his dad drove us to heartland mall...super pai seh lor coz i thot he was angry with me :(/ Ate at Sushi Tei.......talk about pri school days....and yup. Bill was like $41.50!!!!!!!! My fault la...ate Sashimi and 2 coloured plates hehe.....Expensive lunch lor! Thank God again for my spare wallet! hehe.....later walk around then he went esplanade to study with frens and i went home. I did my TAGGED page....dunno if its ok.....and went to sleep!! Ate dinner, and right here mugging! Yup thats about 2day!

+Sentimental Perspective

Hmm......truly God had been with me thruout this day. Had a long long talk with clarence about the "moving into a new season". I guess he reminded of of a lot of things and confirmed that God doesn't want to see even friendships broken. (I'm so sorry I couldn't call u last night!!! ***ing.....so yeah....sry!!!!!!) And yup...really thank God for speaking to me thru him...I'll slowly let go....couldn't sleep properly...at 5.45am still couldn't sleep...so i sms Shep to wake him up for his KL trip.....its the least i could do! lol....sad.....:( But anyways.....this song has been ringing in my mind yesterday night: Friends are friends forever, by Michael W. Smith. The Chorus goes like this:

And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends.

Its hard to let them go...but...i guess i need to learn how to do it......

How wonderful, how beautiful
Name above everyname, exhalted high
How wonderful,, how beautiful
Jesus Your Name above everyname, Jesus

-Planetshakers: Beautiful Saviour (Chorus)

I shall go have my Mini festival of praise (FOP) with the songs now....gotta go!
With long life shall i satisfy Him and show Him my salvation.

~2nd day without shep and counting.......:( I miss him!!! :( argh....~

Counting my blessigs: A day to remember

2006-11-02T21:42:00.000+08:00

Sorry dunno what to put the title....argh....

Woke up today, did TAWG....leanrned a couple of things. It was on trusting God.....guess needless to say, i;ve had my exp in it...I understand it now, any WOULDN'T want to go thru it again hehe...but what i kinda hold really close to my heart that i need to let go during this season of multiplication.....guess its frens. Its just....really hard to let it go...but ignyte is having 2 districts now....i don;t think i'll be with a lot of those whom i;m really close to.....its really a season of change. Can i let them go?

I've comitted to God already...i believe He will..prosper me! (Jer 29:11) I'll never forget that verse..... if He really wants me to release this area...I will....knowing full well that He is control. I;m sure by his great mercy and compassion i'll still be able to spend time with them....like always...He'll provide a way somehow, I know. Really grateful to Him coz He gave me all these people I can go to.......... but yup, Jesus is the greatest fren i know!

My Blessings (Not in order):
Their characteristics/ WHat they did:

1) Cheerful one.....came to someplace with me after church...even stayed over...won't forget that!
always fun being around him...*****
2) Happy-go-lucky? haha i dunno! known for a long time.....bridge back a relationship between someones else and me...really grateful to him for that....*******
3) Any school problem I'll go to him! Encourages me in a more.....unique way...had a sit-down talk together and resolved some miscoms......a great listening ear.******
4) haha....if he ever gets me under control, its a miracle! haven even done my theory yet! haha *******
5) Short......must i say more? can;t always be there for him when he's in trouble! *****
6) The ignytian who has a photo under my phone contacts. hehe********
7) Many meaningful moments spend together...that includes money! the irony is that we became frens when he emotionally hurt me! haha! Share nearly everything i can possibly share with him.....a true fren. ********
8) haha...long story...basically I treasure him as close as anyone else! Just that some people just had that special...erm..spark that brings light into my life.....he's one of them.... ****/******

Thanks....to all of you guys...in a very special way...(might have miss a lot! but i'll remember them.....thats for sure..) Whether or not in this season of change i don't get to see them a lot...i guess i'll always remember each was a stepping stone at different points of my life :D

~Forever Frens~

P.S: Will miss you shep!!!!!!!!!! :'( :'( Take care and don't forget us in singapore! Will be praying for you....! Remember...FAITH! God will see you thru :D *sigh* really gonna miss you......remember to tag and post when you can!!!!! COME BACK MUST MUG!!!!!! haah! God bless! -Sheep

Vivo: Round 2

2006-11-02T00:23:00.000+08:00

haha!!! Today was like the coolest day of the week! Thus begings Vivo: Round 2!!

...ask maid to wake me up at 9 but ended up like....erm..9.45am? haha, woke shep up like he told me too.... had breakfast and then left...but left my phone at home! Searched around and erm...left only at 10.40am.....argh!!! Bus took really long to come lor!! Hiaz....eventually reached harbourfront la hehe....

Sms shep along the way..thot he would be late but bumped into him! so yay of we went to explore Vivo...round 2! With shep haha!! Well, coz shep has a bottomless stomach, we went for lunch 1st hehe....

>>>Shep's lunch (Thai food? yeah haha)

Saw some sec1 church people but...argh, nvm la. haha. Next we went to the Vivomart! Shep and i were probably super high so we comb the whole area section by section! Bumped into...eh..a whole lot of sanitary pads...nearly make them fall...hehe..pai seh la.... Then we went erm.....to the diaper section..shep was like, "Diaper called large size one ar?" Then i pointed him the sign which says: Adult Diapers. Oh my tian.......we were laughing like crazy lor!!!!! haha!!!!

>>>Shep tried to "Kill" me with this....(its a a cooking oil...) -.-'''

>>> This one is lame...so much for being a law-abiding citizen....-.-'' haha!!

>>>He look better in this....

>>>...or this? haha

Walked around somemore ad combed the 1st level! yay!! So moved to level 2....
Found Toys'urs...(wadever...dunno how to spell la...) and had to deposit bags there!! lol...so kiddi lor :( anyway..like Pastor Darrick say..he went to play swords with his daughter! So...

>>> Prayer Warrior Eugene Teo (Shepherd)

>>>Prayer Warrior-in-training Teddy! (Sheep)

Then we combed whole of 2nd level.yay! SO went to the highlight! haha oh erm..we combed the basements already..yeah. So off to third level! Yay!!! Its like the best lor...

>>>Looking for You Lord...

>>>Notice by the Management...with the manager himself!

After some pics...we went.....ezone arcade!!! but eh...nothing much la....played racing..some car game where some youngsters were like talking crap about us...but who cares? haha just playing only la....guess they need to see The Light too? haha

>>>Pro-ded sharpshooter! Notice he shot someone! haha my pic skills weren't so bad after all! Super "zai"! hah

Then for some proper pic.....super hot la....so manage to do these...

>>>Yay!! Shep and Sheep :D

Next we went playground....and did crazy stuff......like bouncing on this...erm...thingie..dunno la...haha...but the following might be potential DP for both of us! haha:

>>> Princess Gene and her royal throne

>>>Ted...just sitting down? lol

Next, we went to coffee bean...and well.....we bumped in a trio of ignytians...Jo, Riel and Benn....as expected lor -.-''' I ordered a iced tea which is..like..i dunno but it is so not nice!!!! Wasted like...3.40 bucks? Boohoo....:'( :'(

Then erm.....yeah....we went back to 3rd floor....gonna rain but....aiya...who cares!!!! We walked on water!!! haah! guess the shorts idea paid off haha! Here's proof of it...

>>> Shep on water

>>> Sheep following after

>>> the girls...erm...forming a train?

Then the main event: Not really la!

>>>Best So far! Thanks shep!

>>> Right Here Waiting (for You Lord! )

Yup! Then went to back to shop....with the girls...can;t belive they made my shep carry what they bough!!!! Irritating!!

Ok this will round up the vivo excitement:

>>> Just the right size!! (for erm.....)

>>> Shady me!

>>>home!!

>>>Her royal highness (really high!!)

>>> Ted and Wise Old (and really irritating and aiya so many things to say...) tree. Me is: diao...

>>> The girls......

And yup thats about it! The pictorial adventure...heehee

THen waited for dad to fetch the whole lot to church......but had to wait really long for mum....but got there la.....Mo saved a seat for the whole bunch of us..hehe
As we;re moving into a new season...so am i...from mourning into dancing, from sorrow into joy!
God is really faithful!!! Guess my faith level in him is rising!! praise God! He even provided frens who care all around me....is there really a need to ask for more?

~Today marks the end of my sorrow and the start of the many joyful days that is to come!~

Interviewee!!!

2006-10-30T23:33:00.000+08:00

Monday.....letz see...

Woke up at 10.30am, did TAWG and had lunch. Then went to school with (Irr*******) timothy koh to meet Ms Goh. Suppose to do an interview with a donor of the school! Had lunch round 2 with them and then came back to school for a while. KY ask me to help arrange thw student files...manage to see Kevin's application form....and the letter of recommendation. However, still gotta pray coz no one seems to be leaving the school.....he still might not get in....

Then got a trip in Ms Goh's car and off we went to...Orchard Road! Some spa place....apparently this gut is a shareholder of that spa.....a senior guy...Mr Herman Hochstadt....yup thats his name....got into a function room and started interview with a (lousy) voice recorder. Tim conducted most of the interview as he has experienced it already....well its my first time! Only managed to ask 2 questions coz....haha dunno what to say. Ms Goh did well in faciliatating...helping us along when we were stuck. That guy was too bad either....managed to get all the info we need and "zao"!

Went back to school to do the write up...got more ownership in the writeup of his late wife. Yay! But halfway both abandoned my to go buy drink :'(. Ditched! argh...they came back with a drink for me tho! yay! Then fin at about 5.30pm and took a life alone in Ms Goh's car to the Potong Pasir MRT to go mum's office! reached at about (6.30pm)

Then we went to PS again...got myself a proper capo!! Somemore its the maple designed one! hehe.....Then had dinner at Kopitiam, and yup, i guessed it. Arcade!!! My parents are really on arcade spree! Keep playing the sweet game! Had to change tee coz i was wearing school-u. Had to wear dad's one...super big lor! No choice la....just beared with it. Then played the sweet game and loll in the end just before they closed, we won 2 cushion...for like 50 bucks plus!?? worth it meh? lol they said family time lol.......but it was fun! haha

Got back home, took a bath (long one..) and yup thats it for the day! Hope can go Vivo on wednesday heehee....gotta go!

P.S congrats on the working of your blog again shep! 3 weeks ok> sry!!

Last Day of October!

2006-10-30T01:32:00.000+08:00

....actually, I've ran out of titles....again! Brain brain...whats wrong?

Gee...guess a lotta people are stoning too.....during this period. Guess I;m not really like that yet! woke up 12 today, had lunch, watch TV, and went golfing with dad. Honestly...it stinks....guess I;m not cut out 4sports after all......can't even hit that hard lil thing pass 150m! lol... :(:(

Had a gathering with the usual old friends again...had steamboat dinner! Dunno why but no appetite...lol. Stayed for a while then...came online....

My poor shep;s blog isn't working properly!!!! We're both sulking now......he can;t post, or edit his template! Can edit la...but can;t republish....acting weird...think its an archive problem...but can't locate the source...will still try la but will unlikely be able to locate it. Even if i did, wont know how to change to make it republishable....thats when ecneralx can come in!

To ecneralx: (TS! thanks! haha.) I already tag your blog....hope u saw it! Whatever that happens, concentrate on your O's first!! lol. Will send u the specs at a later date.......thanks for the big help! If u are happy that i feel bad....great! Cause I feel bad! Your first token of graitude is pre-paid! Will send u soon....its the photo of the ElecVivo outing 2 days ago! haha. Thanks! God bless your Os! And anyone else who's taking them!

2 shep: eh....so sorry....can;t do much to help...once i got any news will let you know..also will inform u if i need to access your account....thanks...hopefully it'll be in 3 weeks time...ok? Sry again!

Hmm...guess thats all i need to say! gotta go sleep! cyaz!

SaturdayZ!!

2006-10-29T01:40:00.000+08:00

Whoohoo!

Saturday!! Boring actually.....listened to "You were there" for like a couple of times...clr really knows how to edit it well. Thanks! Suppose to go Bb but by God's grace, I could go chruch instead. Really learned the meaning of "Don't compromise with God". Went to Thompson Plaza Hans for lunch..then went church. Suppose to help bro ZC move chairs. Instead, I went with the CH after that heehee. So happy to serve!!

Service today was crazy...experiece what persecution really meant....all part of service la. Really applaud that CH girl who said no like more than 7 times to the "soldier" when she was forced to reveal the map...haha. All went well, when for FUEL. Realised I;m the lightest in my Sec 2 Section -.-'''

Went for dinner with parents at PS. Wasn;t very happy....dunno why. Ate Jap food! Talk a little.....then my parents went arcade leh!!!! They were crazy lor...think we spend more than 50 bucks on those prize machines. I spend only 6 bucks haha :D:D Had a deal with mum that for the guitar freak v2 game, if i managed to score a "B" grade and above...negotiation can come in. And I did! I scored an A for Non-stop hard mode. haha. Thank goodness she chose :believe in love: or might not have got thru...haha! And i won 3 prizes for her!! She really couldn't believe it haaha......yaay! Unspoken consent :D (We're on our way shep!!) yup...they played for like 3 hours!!!! Came back at 12.30am, they somore have Ch 2mr haha. Too bad for them!

Yup thats about today! LD gotta go sleep. nitez! :D

Its (another) New Day!!

2006-10-27T22:35:00.000+08:00

-.-'''

Oops wrong emo...lol.
Yay!!! Had a really fun day toodaay! Went clarence house in the morning like 9am.....857 bus pass me twice!!! stup** bus uncle...anyways.. Slack in his house....and yay! Recorded "You were there" again!!! Sounded better than the last one....coz both got testimony inside the song!!! yaay.
(TS! when u send me the song thxs!!! to clr) Then yup had great fun fooling around...then we left.

Had to take diff route to mrt coz clr frens might catch him. He suppose to go chem yeo remedial and he "pon"......haha. The we went City Hall! Got his guitar sent ther and stings changed. Went for breakfast at like.....1pm. Heh....ate breakfast at Ya Kun and nvr eat lunch heeh. came back to guitar shop and he got himself new green elec stings guit!! Super cool!!! haah. then he suggested going to take a look at Vivo City!! So we went...lalal.

SUPER BIG LOR!!!!!!!!! Haha.....understand why church pastor say can get lost.....really cool. Took super lame and crazy pics there.......haha. Went to quite a no. of places and even went e-zone!! Then bumped into school fren Alvin Kang....he supposedly was with a grpp of gals....won't say much la haha..got censored stuff too heehee.

Then poor clr had to go for tuition.....so....dad allowed me to go to Shep's house!!!! Whoohoo! Could evn stay for dinner....haha. Glad he chose a cool blogskin... ...haha...clarence one somemore! So..er......"coral"!!! Then could evn stay for dinner.....his mum's chicken soup usper shiok....! haha...watch shows and did couple of things...super cool! haha had fun....but i gotta go back home....dad didn't allow me to stay....:(:(:(:( sorry shep!!!!!!!!! he kicking his soccer ball now hehe.......so haha......and fiddling around with my camera.......lol. STOP TAKING PICS OF ME!!!!! Haha! now he's looking...dotz....so sad! I gtg...:(

2mr suppose to have BB, but....i shan't compromise with god but.....*sigh*....i really am unable to commit to BB now....with the timeslot like that....oh well. Will pray and see how God leads...thxs clr and Shep for the wonderful day!!!!! I shan't comprmise :D now gotta painfully and reluctantly part from his computer....oh dear i think the com crying liao....lol....use too many times...need a break also haah...someone for 3 hours stoning in front of it too....(*hinthint ****ene *eo!!)Oh well.....no!!!!!!! i dun wanna go!!!!! But can still msn later with them when I get home la hah!!!! Yes! I will be online at 12 LD...after 12 also la..not tired yet...just :( argh!!!

Nononononononon i can't leave.......WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 I want my mummy!!! ANd shep!!!! Argh!! How? HOW!?!??!? Oh well, even shep say g0tta go..:(:(

So i gotta go! He won't be angryla......will thank him for letting me go out ahah. Cya!

Thanks You 2!!!!!! Had a great day :D:D:D:DD:D:D:D:D:D: haahh yay!

Here I Go!

2006-10-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

Its a new day! And newer days are coming ahead....freedom...at a high price. But won;t look at it so negatively. I;m free after all! Hmm......

Firstly...thanks ecneralx for the wonderful and talenTED design!!!!!!!! haha its supersupersupersupersuper cool lor!!!! haah!!!!

Today....last day of school wad happen..? Oh Ms Goh is leaving SA.....really sad...guess Tim is right...i'll probably cry again....after like...erm...so many close teachers of mine left.....argh! Why am I so emotional!? Lol good i guess....but oh dear....even the thought of her leaving...really sad...not like leaving class and going to new one next year. Those frens still can see wad.....NoOoOoO....before i really start thinking and crying i better move on (i;m serious!! I really better move on...)

Hmm...another messy day. Everyone was everywhere...no lessons. yay! Went to CHS office again to play and Praise God.....this time, legally. heehee, with Abraham. SYF drama ppl came to out sch for audition. Wanted to just see whats it all about, though just go there look see look see. Then a few good frens...pushed me to sign up. They literally prepared everything for me...and I had to go, coz teacher shouted at me...but I didn't even have slightest idea what was going on!!!! And she scold me!? She is in so deep trouble......I think se got "suan"ed haah! who ask her shout like ah-ma for noe reason....CEM won't forget you!!! Grr... so bo pian go lor. For audition.

Soemthing like Joseph and the Dreamcoat.....hey! it all falls into place now. Had a scipt and just read from there. It said "...the brothers were sad and..."something like that. SO i read sadly....then they ask me read cunningly..but how!? Sad or cunning!?!? More emotion i can understand....suffered from stage fright literally because i had no time to prepare, thanks to some people...even the judges were like....perplexed!!! But now i get it....cunning coz the brothers all planned that Joseph be sent to slavery etc....but how to act sad and cunning!? Oh I 4got..i CAN act sad and cunning! Thanks to SOME PEOPLE!!!! I couldn't do my best...

What i did best was that...they ask me if i could sing, so i sang. They ask me to sing twinkle little star....so bo liao, when i can sing something much more meaningful, for God! I sang, Great is Thy Faithfulness. Guess they were ok with it :D Really glad in the midst of audition i can sing of Hid fiathfulness, Praise GOd! I honestly thot i sang ok...hehe

Next....went to be a good lil' general office staff-boy. When around sch delivering booklists ti all sec 1s....then end of term. Still delivered.....lol. The sch end. yay!!!! Stayed in sch...played around with teaches and students.....had SFC later. Went KY office be staff-boy again and help to school admin work. So cool! In the midst i met Kevin from ignyte...he came to apply for trasnder to SA. Got some undisclosed info....but its quite dissapointing....coz it really depends if any1 would give up a space for ppl like Kevin.....will pray for him..I believe he got chance. The school admin file was done by me and has my handwriting leh!!!!!!! So cool! lol why i so crazy!? Good sign!!

Then change and went for SFC prac. Apparently, Drew needed a vocal...so I offered myself. Played 2nd Key too but....couldn't play strings cooz pedal wasn't working, so use alignment, which was that Korg's keyboard default tone. like strings but got sustain effect without pedal. Could sing and still play...lol 3 ppl came and the rest on congregation were yellow seats. lol. grat time though...

Then went clarence house with Drew....went crazy...lol...saw some pro ppl on his com. The we finally did u duet (without drew i'm sorry!!) with clr, after much persuasion (he better tag....TS). Praise God, the 2-part vocalling worked...will take the role of Tim Ong to do 2nd part vocal...yay! Finaly recorded the song, "You were there"

went with dad for dinner at orchard road......thank went home by MRT and taxi. Dad didn't want to pay so much to go orchard lol. And yup thats basically it today! 2mr I'm going with clr to but some elec strings for his guit! Whoohoo! A day with clr, yeeee!!!!! okai! Gonna be on msn now. I ser a Faithful God!

The Episode Ends Here

2006-10-25T23:53:00.000+08:00

2nd last day of school...mixture of events. Hmm....messy schol day if u ask me. 1st, principal came up to me and...well....said that my results were disappointed...lol. How cool is tt, an I-know-her principal saying that personally to you...i should be thankful lol. Thats better way to look at it. NO!!! She actually had to tell me that!!! ARgh!!! Bad boy Ted....

Next, rugby inter-class. What else? "pon" la....with Abraham. Spend literally the whole day in songs of praises to my Faithful God in the church office. So cool! Go school to sing praises where ppl are like watching inter-class rugby!? Lol. Had temperature taking....4got to bring...but quite slack this time round so nvm la..yay.

Had lunch with clr....found out he played like grade 5 standard piano....so cool!! He nvr told me.....Will confirm with parents, every wed: Lunch with Slapper 1. Yeehaw! lol. Went back to sch but oh well....no one jamming so go home. Couldn't find guitar book for lesson so just went without it. Did...erm....Study of E Minor (Etude) super boring...lol.

Then went for formal photoshoot choosing of pics. I look super...erm.....wierd..dun wanna say la. Just funnie....had dinner with gramps....(both) and gramps gave me 100 bucks! Whoohoo! So much for I did well.....dottz

ok. The main part. Subject Combi. Its a...trying time. Well...shot hard by parents emotionally, mentally. Yep....i did bad blablabla didn't listen to advice blablabla. Now for my story: They'll nvr get to hear it. Well, prayers answered! I able to go 3S1...And i;m excited. Can't go 3SB so what!? Take A maths only...elec take A maths lor! Yay!!! And its not that i didn't put in effort...I just learn that stoning can make me pass. So, gotta work hard so I can score even better! Parents will prob nvr understand me...guess I keep too much to myself....tell them too much no use...so how? Thank God I;ve got frens....one who just has JOY written all over his face....which is contagious...even I can't feel sad! The other...I any worry also go to him...both in same situation...lol...God's will? Maybe? Green spe*** also help alot.....A LOT. Yup, their my pillar of support (even Mr* ****).....their my earthly pillar of suppory. I thank God for all of them.

Can i say all was lost in the FYE? NO!

"Jesus...you were there when I cried
When I longed for some1 who would understand.
....You were there, when I was helpless
You were there when I was lost.
.....You were there Jesus, you are there."
-by ecneralx (& ted)

He was there. All the way, I thank God because if it weren't for this not-so-good period, I drawed and depended on Him more. As i look back....Lord how *mean* u were to put me thru this!!! But it was worth while. "You're worthy of it all" His worth my all. So i;ve got nothing to fear!

Today....will be the last day of my troubles, fears and sorrows. I;ve told God, I;ve told myself. I'll cry no more....I won't look back and see how much I;ve failed. All the hailstorms and fogs of this part of the journy, I;ve crossed it. A bright path awaits me. I won't look back....The Cross before me. The world and everything with it, behind me. I'll cry no more. From this day forth, I claim the Joy of the Lord to be my strength! I've shed my last tear...I'm moving on. Life goes on.

Thats that. I;m leaving it all behind :D Emotionally, I still need to recover, but, spiritually....I;ve grown. I;m moving into the JOY mode! Looking forward. Need to catch up. So many things i need to do. haah! Gonna record the song 2mr hopefully....clr must fin early kae!?

...You'll be there Jesus. You are there.

-from a ****herd's blog:

....The Episode Ends Here. TODAY.

Life Goes On

2006-10-23T13:05:00.000+08:00

....yup. Life goes on Despite all I;m facing. To those who (placed my name in caps on a blog) tried to get me for the jam....I;m sorry( not anymore!). Dunno if u guys called but didn't feel like talking to anyone.(Not anymore!) In the process of recovery, I;ve been hit again.....this I guess its sort of my fault. Now everyone's gone and I;m alone....with a candlelight. (P.S to those who jammed...prayed for you guys...its the least i could do...:D hope u had a great time=correction.....I HAD a great time! Last para for those who turned up..:D)

Life Goes On -by Ted
God......must have his reasons putting me thru all this. I;m not going to feel hurt. I;ve gone thru that period. I believe I've overcomed it. The devil will probably keep using ways to bring me down, but with Jesus, who can be against me? I can;t say I;ve learnt much, but God did show me rivers in my desert places. If i haven't had this time....probably wouldn't have wrote a new song, or draw closer to Him. Wonder why sometimes He must put us thru all this just to get us to draw closer to Him. Kinda mean if u ask me...hehe...but hey, He IS God so ,well, I trust Him.

Still having a hard time on the trust issue....but at least I;ve got heavenly strength and Faith to believe that everything is in God's Hands, which = No problem :D Guess when God wants something, His methods are so uncomprehendable that it works....everytime. haha. Hmm.....yup Life Goes on.

Life goes on even if an earthquake happens. Life goes on when disasters happen. Life goes on when haze is still in Singapore. Life goes on when people are jamming (lol). Life goes on....even when an insignificant 14 year old is down.....Life goes on...and on.....but so does His never ending love for all of us. It goes on and on. Guess the only time when God stops is when we fall down. He doesn;t go on without us. He stops to pick us up when we fall, stops to wipe away out tears when we're hurt, stops to make sure we can move on when we are down, stops because of me...so many reasons why He chose to stop and listen to our sorrows. Issit really worth the while for Him I sometimes wonder. How many millions...billions of people out there need more help than some of us? How many people out there need more help......than me?

Yet...He still chose to sit with me, walk me thru....despite all circumstances, as though He stop Life it self to lend a ear and a hand. Feel so unworthy of it all....why me? WHy!!! Why must he show so much love and compassion that i don't even deserve the slightest bit? Why does He be with me thru my dark times when clearly there are so many of it ahead? Why must he go thru all the trouble for unworthy people like us...like me... its just not fair to God! Yet because of His Love He gave up his Son to die for us.....it must have really pained Him....much more than my hurts.... Why must He do all this.....argh!!!!

Life still goes on......life will go on until His return. Even after that...it'll carry on for those who chose to be with Him....yet...Life still goes on here on plane Earth. Guess i better make time worthwhile. Its so hard to be like Job...who praise His Name despite all the troubles He faced. But thats worth my time....instead of sulking and feeling lousy. Anything that beats feeling hurt. The cuts and and the pains are there....but hey who cares? Doctor Jesus has Plasters of Joy and Bandages of Forgiveness. Through it all...am i still able to stand up and and say I serve a God who is faithful? Can i still believe every second that He is in control? Can i say that I leave ervything into His hands and that i may find peace? Can I?

No...(knocked my self on the head) YES! Of course i can! I am, was, and will be praising His Name forever as long as I live! I've committed everything to God and let Him work in me...to restore me...forever will I satify Him and show Him my salvation...He deserves my praise. I'm unworthy...but He is, above all, Worthy of My Praise.

Life goes on.......problems come and go...but with at least i know...i;ve got a Great Backup....backing me up :D As for my unworthiness....God does have mercy upon us. Though we may be unworthy.....He did everything for us. But why? I believe he said this:

"My precious child. You're worth it all...."

To all who are concern: Yup dun worry...I;m fine...great :D Cause at least i know He is worth my all, haha. DO TAG THOUGH hehe :D

Well...thats before I finally saw God in action. He actually allowed me to go! I can't believe it! Well, guess I learnt that God acts in His own time and ways.....all we gotta do is trust Him. Trust me on that one...I;ve experienced it. God really proved to me today that He is a Faithful God who never fails to answer people's prayer! Praise God!!! Although I mangaged to go jamming.....i;m much more happy at the fact that God answered my cry....thats all I need...:D Though I am unworthy...he is worthy of it all!

And yes..about jam...if u guys ever see this...guess everything is alright now. Guys will be guys and girls will be girls.....but I think when it comes to friendship....our differences are set aside....u guys are one...in Christ...which mean u guys are equal. And well....breaking friendship aren;t the way to go about....I;m really relieved that the heat in everyone didn't last long...wouldn't wanto start FUEL without knowing that the future sec2 are alright.......well..everything went well! Praise God for that too! :D So much things to thank Him for! lalala...

The Unseen Path

2006-10-20T14:51:00.000+08:00

Been thru a lot lately...FYE just ended. Can't say I;m rejoicing from mourning unto dancing for long. Shared only with 2 of the closest people I know. One makes it so hard for me to feel sad and dowm, the other turns my encouragement to him around and fires it back at me (in a good way) As the years go by..my emotional recovery rate is slowing down. Issit becoz of the circumstances I;m in? Used to always laugh and bring myself up when I;m down. Nearly impossible to hit me real hard. But now? Just a hurtful sentence might make me go crazy...don't recover as fast as last time. Can't stand up by myself anymore. Sometimes I wonder if I;m really that useless...

The Unseen Path

Life is a journey, thats for sure. A race, a responsibility, a cycle...may people have differnt views about the word "life", but to me...its a journey. Not just any ordinary journey, a journey of Faith with God. But I;m not talking about life; i;m talking about the difficulties in life.

Really admire Job, for his unwavering Faith and trust he had in God. Thrugh it all, He still praised the Name of God even when he had literally nothing. Look what God did for him after that...x3 of whatever he had previously. Abraham, the Father of all nations soon became a father of Isaac because He trsuted God. Moses, lead the Israelites into exodus and the Promised Land, because he believed. So many more examples. They look so awesome, sounds awesome. Yes they were great people of Faith, and God did reward them and had special relationships with them...but at what cost?

Job had to lose everything. To add on, he had to suffer all kinds of diseases and had frens who ask him to curse God. Moses, because he disobeyed God and was sick and tired of the Israelites complaining, was forbidden to enter the Promise land. Sarah accused Abraham of bearing Ishmael from Hagar. These are the kind of trials they had to face; a behind-the-scenes kind.

Faith....if its as small as a mustard seed, it can move mountains. What would you get if you had Faith the size of a house!? Its easy to just use it as head knowledge. but, in real life is it really that easy? I placed my trust in God, but i ended up failing science, got restriction from my parents, and pratically ruin my whole holidays. Is this what God wants for me?

It isn't easy for Job to trust God despite all his suffering. It isn;t easy for Moses to trust God to lead the people out of Egypt. It isn;t easy for Abraham to believe that he will giv birth to a son. It isn;t easy for me believe that God will help me out. I;m really losing it...perseverance...at what cost?

A journeyman is on his way up the mountain. His situation has been bad enough...with rain, storms, harsh terrain. Now a fog encircles and blocks the path ahead of him. One wrong step could lead him down the mountain. He goes in the fog, but soon stops and turn back for he has no idea what could be in there. He has no idea what to do. Then because he was so lost, he jumped of a ledge and died.

I;m like that journeyman. I;m on my way to a blessing, but just been hit by so many circimstances. Then the fog came. Its the fog of worries, doubts, hurts, sorrow. So many things. I tried going in but it was too much for me. I could have just gave up. But...I;ve got God. I don't know how long it'll take for the fog to go away. perhaps it will never go away, but maybe there is a light out there that can shine my path. Little sparks have already been sighted. Their called "friends". These sparks, hopefully will make way for the ultimate light of all. Because that is what i need. But how long it take? Can't hold it much longer...the hail of pressure, fear, and weariness are is making me wanto give up...

But I;ve got a God out there who can save me. Though I;m quite out, i;m NOT out yet. Until the dim lights fade away, I won't lose heart. The path maybe unseen but there i'll belive that a light is coming this way...the Great Light. But how long will it take...?

My Greatest Fren

2006-10-11T20:22:00.000+08:00

Gee....2 more days to exam, and i think flunged science....oh dear. Guess like not studying crazy is one thing, but NOT TEACHING PROPERLY is another. Lolz.

My Greatest Fren

Ever felt like u had all the time in the world to do something that you could do, but u suddenly ran out of ideas? Well, gues i;m in that situation. Feeling mixed lately, and i;m like typing this really slowly and guess i;m quite dead.

Ever read someone's blog, profile, or smt., and see a like who's your best friend type of question. Kinda hit me for a moment. If Person A spends most of his time with person B and Person B thinks that he spends more time with person C, then wouldn;t Person A feel rejected? Somemore if person A feels like all his troubles aare shaared with Person B. Can be hurting. I;m not applying to myself (or am I?) but it did occur to me then, well, people have diff feeling and relationships with each other. Guess I was like that, but well, life seemed....unfair

Ever read My Greatest Friend's thoughts, heard what He said about you if He ever had a blog, what would he put in it, and who's the person that He cared most kind of question. Kinda hit me again. If My Greatest Friend spends most of His time with me and I think that Person B is the one i spend time most with and just, dun care about Him, wouldn;t My Greatest Friend be sad that I don;t even acknowledge Him, despite Him unconditionally loving me just the way I am? Somemore, He IS the Greatest Friend I know. I AM applying to myself.

Sometimes, I probably take for granted the friends that I;m blessed with, no wait, its not the friends, its the Person who has blessed me with these friends. I ask, I get, and I FORget. I;m sure it hurts Him. People may have diff feelings about diff people, but He doesn't. He loves everyone of us just as we are. It seems unfair, but does He stop showering me wwith love? Absolutely Not.

Earthly and godly frens are around me, but their not going to always be there. Besides, they can be taken away from me anytime. Some of your most closest frens might not even be sensitive to your feelings. It did hurt you. I guess I;m like that too. I might have hurt others, but i won;t know. They won;t tell, but I;ve been hurt. My Greatest Fren doesn;t though. He knows how i feel and He is always there for me. I think everyone one of us should just sit down and literally count our blessings. I;m sire more than half of them you wouldn't even remember. Even the slightest thing that seemed insignificant to you, He did it. The casual requests that you asked for, He fufilled it. When no one cared and you;ve been hurt, He was there to lend a shoulder. When you were in your darkest moments, He was there with a torch to lighten your path.

When you did many wrong things in life, He still loved us and be with us, at the expense of His Son. But when He was mourning for His Son, the so many people didn;t care. They saw the death of His Son, but did they care? So many people turning away from My Greatest Fren. It hurts Him. But were WE there? No............

But still, He gave us another chance. He lighted the path ahead even when all was lost, just to be with us. He loved us so much, He gave His Son just for us. And so many of us are taking it for granted. But perhaps they don;t know My Greatest Fren. The time will come when all of us who are His will be with him, and those who yet to the Him, will go with The World's fren.

i really am blessed with the The Greatest's Fren. And thats all i need cause...

"His The greatest fren I know
He will never leave me or forsake me.
....I;m not alone.....anymore"

If He ever had a blog, wait. he does. Its called the Bible. His Thoughts and feelings about people who don;t know My Greatest Fren? I reckon it would be "This Person? I love him/her so much that I sent my Son to die for him/her. All i want is he/she to come back to me..." His profile? This would be it: Person whom you;ve spend time most: xxx (Your Name here, always)

My Greatest Fren
By Theodore Koh

Valley of the Shadow of Exams

2006-10-04T19:20:00.000+08:00

"...i will fear no papers for You are with me."

Yay! Exam 1st day!!! Why am i so excited? also dunno. Must think positively (thxs to nat) so yay I'm so happy exams are here! (cause they;re gonna end in wad, 8 days time from now?) Haha!

Tried to post yesterday night but internet gone cranky so i decided not too. My folks are out so...hehe...time to "light another candle" :D Letz see, honestly i haven;t been stuying very well, in fact i'm still slacking, but because today was chineese paper 1+Listening compre, so how to study!?!? So i shall be a good boy and study after this (yay!)

Yesterday no school, whoots! haha, not my exam day so no need come school haha. Figured that Bowen Sec school maths paper was quite tough so i just slack thru the whooooooole day until night cause got tuition. Tuition....as usual, i turned off after 45 mins....

Then went online and played haha blablabla....then morning! Played again (shan;t say^_^)
So erm, yeah. Then when i felt i should buck up, these 3 songs "Power of Your Love" and "No eyes have seen" and "Through it all" came into my mind and i playeed it on both guitar and organ (yes, organ! Miraculously i played, don;t ask me how! God's er..grace?) These 3 songs each has a certain meaning that totally applies to exams, for me at least :D I felt refreshed and i went on to...lunch. And sang those songs once more thru and committing myself and my horrible papers to God, cause He is the greatest Teacher of all! After lunch..

Down to exam. Borrowed from bookshop with the stamp "approved by SACSS CL Dept" Dunno why got the C in the middle. Maybe ACS? haha dunno but manged to kope it haha. Chinese need dictionary wad...? Slacked a little...then the most amazing thing happen!

DM suddenly asked the SFC people raise up their hands in the midst of the sec 2s there. I didn;t know what was it for, all i know was that i was sad when out of the 5 SFC members, only I raised up. This kinda hurts me to show no one is standing up for God for such simple things! The song :"Jesus Freak" came into my mind. It goes:

What would people think if they hear that I;m a Jesus Freak
What would people do when they find out its true
I don;t really care if they label me a Jesus Freak
There ain't no disguising th truth

its true, there is no dsiguising the truth. Even so, who cares if I;m being labelled a Jesus Freak! Because of that I put up my hands. Natuarally everyone was looking in my direction. I;m very surprised that Abraham didn;t raise his hands! I had to go over to him and remind him of the Story of Peter and how he denied Jesus 3 times. Thank God for the Bible! haha. And thankfully, he understood, but the next moment, the DM forgot all about it cause he was on a call....lol

Chinese Paper 1 wasn;t so bad....some words that i guessed and then check with tuition teacher after that was correct. Praise God! Then Chinese LC. I dunno why but i missed out certain parts when passage was read once.

But what shocked me and made me lose nearly 4 marks was this. I realized on my table were the words: anti-christ. I was utterly shocked and sad. This goes to show that this new generation dying, and they need Jesus before its too late. What is really horrifying is that it isn't any grown up who wrote this, its a teenager, 16 years and below. That is what i find very sad. If people in this age group are able to write these things, it means that Candlelights for Jesus must really shine for Him, NOW!!!! That includes me. I really pray and hope to see a revival, but it must be people like me and SFC and believers in my school that must take the next step to Shine for Jesus!

Yup, nothing else to say! Will continue posting! Cya!

Me the Lazy Pig..

2006-09-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

Oh dear, i;ve got lotz of work to do and here i am..."Mugging" (adapted from shep.) and haiz....sian lor :(

I'm sure everyone who has exams won't be super happy during this period of preparation. Needless to say I;m one of them, so i'm not gonna pour my misery out here about it....i might as well catch up on wadever i missed out!

Hmm....nothing really intersting...i;m kinda sleepy haha..

erm, monday...tuition, tues...tuition. Oh! ad EL paper 1. compo wrote bout my 2 sheps (gene and chet). Dunno why i wrote that haha......oh dear.

Wed, played for chapel again...bass! one of the best chapel thruout. haha. Thursday, transferred revival ignite songs into OM's (Operations manager) PC. Genna caught by DM (discipline master) but he believe my story...so phew. Must go write letter, ask OM to sign so that i can have access to his pc whenever i want haha. :D

Friday....i fed Halo!!!!!!!! She ate from my hand...oh Halo is the school cat. Miss Lee 'took' it as her own. Only a handful of ppl know of it, but it actually ate out of my hand when it normally wouldn;t!!!!! Spend like 1 hour with it until caughht by teacher....haha. Then zao heehee

Sat, today, church. ReCommitted my life back to God and just broke down at the altars today. God's Love for me is just so intangible.....its like feeling with unspoken words. He's just THERE. haha....really awesome today. Played birthday song with Jon Ho for his mum at our house. Had dinner with them before that haha. We were crazy and instead of studying, we were playing haha!!! Super cool, will upload pics next time :D Now i;m very tired and gonna hibernate Nitez!

My Brain's V.s. Exam = Marks

2006-09-24T10:42:00.000+08:00

Hmm, i don't think i made any sense, anyway.

Well! Didn't post for some time, so will post now heehee. Friday......gee i 4got friday, so yesterday lar....haha. saturday....woke up, lunch at thompson and church!! So glad Drew is in CH now so at least i'm not the only guy...whoohoo! haha. Great time in church, then FUEL about stress.....guess i;m not that stress after all.

OhOH!!! i remembered now!My poor Shep didn;t have internet connection so his sheep talked with him the whole of friday night...haha ok back to saturday.

Then erm, went to some western restaurant for western food (duh!). Super nice the tenderloin haha....then went back home. Suppose to study, but i didn't do likewise; i had other plans....for me heehee

Since friday I've been looking out at my window after a nice long 5 hour nap. I looked up in the sky and began to just thank God for creating the earth, and for me to live in Singapore. Then an inspirational spark came into my mind to compose my next song! So I've been working on it since friday night (after talking and before talking to shep) and well, finished the rest on saturday! Seems like my 2 other songs were finished by saturday night as well...lol! So erm, prophetic! haha. So yesterday night been doing up the song lyrics. And Praise God I finished!! As usual needless to say, I dedicated it to God to see how this song moves around haha. And also as usual, i send a copy to lucky no.1 Clarence to well, take a look at it. He said "Eh, can use as NDP theme song leh! NDP- National Day Prayer" Haha! But honestly it did really struck me. If it could be use as an NDP song, imagine how many people of God will be singing it! Haha. Who know what God will do to it.

However, erm, i don;t think i'll post up the song yet, just incase i got some corrections haha. But Praise God!! Yay!!! Anyone ones a softcopy just erm, hm, tag? haha. Shows that you;re reading other people's post to heehee. Ok gotta REALLY go and study now!

1) Alone with a candlelight
2) Desperate for Your rescue
3. New!) My Nation's Salvation

ok Byeeeee! God bless all who are having exam! (like me ): )

Teddy

I'm running out of titles....

2006-09-21T22:27:00.000+08:00

Its a new day!
hmm...letz see...today today....

er....hmm, oh yeah. Came early to sch today bit not early enought to feed Ms Lee's cat =<. Will try 2mr! haha! Did ezy attendance for late comers...where i update the latecomers atendance. So cool, get to use gen office technology haha. Then went for class. 1st period chinese. Super sway, got test, and i didn;t even study! lol...but quite easy la... Then followed by English. Ms Goh disappeeared tp nowhere so relief teacher..some old gitz who claim that i didn;t ask for permission to leave early for recess. Old what, so obviosuly forgot lor...

Then recess, boring..

History again,its Ms Chia last day. Abraham, Anson and I getting her smt, hopefully she'll like it :D Thank God she's a believer of Christ! Next was science..as usual i went hyper and disturbed everyone around me as usual.....think i should eat dome morphine or smt to stablize my condition. Shot paper bullets at everyone, dropped Joel's book again x2, oh dear, i;ve became a horrible person haha! Lastly was Lit, the relief teacher allowed special previleges to prefects like going off early! haah.... shiok

Spend some time at KY office. Needless to say, he reminded me that lunch was still waiting....oh dear. Went home, slackeddd.......and went tuition and back and now here posting. Pretty boring day for a crazy perrson like me :D haha.

Hmm....thats all i have to say! Thx for letting me know about the x2 post Nat!

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2006-09-20T15:47:00.001+08:00

Er....today us wednesday and the sky blue? WHat should i title this..thing? Oh nvm

yay so fun blogging..erm. Hm..

Wednesday, Wednessday. Wedding day! oops...

Erm..oh yeah right, i forgot...

Hmm....lets see. Manage to save a great deal of sec 1n3 boys this morning. They "came late" but genna caught. Just a few seconds to assembly and such thing happen. So oh well, what can i say> After teacher fin talking to them they came up to me for help, so i compassionatly let them off, after all they weren;t officially late yet.....

heehee...then Lit. Didn;t do my work (forgot lor...) and Ms Goh didn't find out!!! Haha!! Shiok. Si just sit thru reading Animal Farm againn and again... The Homec. As usual, needless to say, class went while. Cook muffins today and ok lar, taste ok. Then recess held Clarence back for a super long time coz Abraham and I gotta find Pst Ben....and had to give up recess cause of that. So in the end landed up in Library praying for chapel, with clr. haha.

After recess history, lesson as crazy as usual. Anson still crazy over teacher....haiz. Better not fin it...then next english, played some bingo game dun really understand also. haha. Then Chapel!!!!! Played Above All. Pst Ben on Thin Str. Abraham on keys and I on Thick str. So cool!!! Praise God for the opportunity :D Everything went super well, close to perfection. The best song ever done in chapel between the 3 of us. Next week one chapel left then no more le :( so sad...
The ended with music, and i nothin to say :D

And finally back home posting now....fin lunch and a round of Mr Bean!! Yup...thats it for now! Oh my flickr has been updated too!!! Can go view liao haha.

Cya!!

Raise Up a Generation

Set SA on fire

We long to see

Revival in this school

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2006-09-19T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hi!!!!

Eh...yeah. Erm, haven't been postin for quite a looooooooong while. My malaysian fairytale made it up haha. Super long i know....but its worth the while ( i think). So from today onwards (till exam starts) i;ll be a naughty and post post post till i'm toast! Hey it rhymes! oops...yeah so i can post again! actually i can;t but by no legal authorization am i allowed to post. so....who cares? Uh uh, i do. But nvm :D

Tuesday Tuesday....hmm.

Well, it started out find. My whole bag is in mess so change to a crumpler-like bag and got my worsksheets organized this morning. Now my common filre is like 1 1/2 hambuger size hehe.

I still can;t concentrate in science. I;m like super super dead in science class so when berserk as usual, Nat can tell more haha. Disturbed Joel Chia "killed" his book by dropping on the floor. Oh no...what has happened to me??

Then, hmm, D and T ok, teacher nvr come and pva glur can;t stick on wood properly!! Frustrating... Next oh recess. Prayed for SFC that was coming up. :D Then yeah the whole recess was at CPA lab printing for SFC. Art...nothing interesting, wasn;t caught for presentation so phew. Before that was Maths. Ms Lee promised to let me feed her cat in the morning!! Haha! Maybe should get her cat food for belated present oh well...said i was naughty for "making fun" of her lol... Chinse was history lesson by Mr Yee. If abraham sees this he'll probably laugh haha....like me :D

Yay! School over, got into trouble with KY again, this time school captain was on his side, and Ms Tan....so sad. Still can;t escape...too bad i;m his lunch. Why is everyone bullying me!?!?! Am i that bulliable!?!?! Esp 1n3...i don't look like lionel or whadsoever!! And if solo happens to see this (which he won't) I am not ready to be cooked by KY yet!! My SA life is somewhat miserable...

Then SFC started whoo!!! Thxs to Abraham, Moses. Jereld and Shawn, and God! Everything went great! Poor Pastor Ben's pick broke cuase i think i strum too hard haha. NOw i truly understand how worship leaders find it so difficult to worship lead in the beginning....haha. Must really rely on God. Then had talk about autism. And finish off with a Tell the World remix! Too bad didn;t record! Everyone was so pro, altho the part where they had to stop didn;t haha. Oh wellz.

Talk to Drew bout personal matters, then eat tow hway again. Then go tuition, can;t concentrate after half an hour so doodled for the rest 1 hour then got back home :D Well, thats all for now! Cyaz!!